Rapidly growing sudden dildo collection as a guy

So, quick backstory.. I'm a male in my middle 40's.. Married... And a few weeks ago I started remembering a good 25 years ago when I was dating this girl that used to enjoy putting her slim vibrator in me during sex..

It went from a random thought, to thinking about it several times a day. I couldn't stop wondering... All those years ago did I like it because of her, or because of the feeling? Or, it was so long ago.. Had I even liked it?

So.. Less than two weeks ago I stopped at a toy shop and bought the skinnniest softest lil thing they had. Promptly went home when it was empty & found out - I had most definitely enjoyed it!

Then a week ago I found myself back in the same shop.. Buying another.. Longer at 5 inches and thicker at maybe a thumb size...

That was even better, but not for long... Quickly i wanted bigger, and this was only a week ago? I kept thinking I needed the right size to know why I really enjoyed it...

So, I went back today and instead of just going a lil bigger... I found the largest size I thought I could handle... Then went up a shelf so it was just a lil more. This beast is easily 3-4" longer than me and probably 3x thick or more than the last...

And DAMN! AMAZING ORGASM! Now I'm sitting here wondering what in the hell is up? I've examined my fellings and Nope.. Not attracted to guys. Once I hit this size... I stopped to examine who I was fantasizing about as I used it... And it was my wife's face I kept seeing?

So... Question is why in your mid forties would a married straight guy suddenly desire anal penatration so much that he buys three increasing sizes in two weeks?

I don't t know where to go with this from here... I certainly can't tell my wife... She's the type of woman that thinks giving a hand job to completion falls under "deviant" behavior...

Help!

 

Been there, done that. Well, not at a sex shop, but online purchases. I’m 54, 100% straight with no desire for anyone other than my wife of 32 years. But I love anal penetration. I, too, have several toys. I wear a large stainless steel butt plug a few time a week. I’m just getting ready for for and I put a smaller one in for the day. My wife knows I have some prostate massagers, but she has no idea about the extent (or size) of my collection.

It’s not an anal thing, although stretching feels fantastically erotic, it’s more or a filled feeling and the constant massage of my prostate that does it for me.

Enjoy!

 

I'm glad I found this forum & thanks for the post... Haven't been in the best head space when it seems every one around me would Def labal this as wrkng - and, I know... If I was to challenge that with a "Explain why it's wrong.... I'm married, I don't cheat, etc.." all arguments would really be baseless..

But, it's a generational thing, I think.. Was I born today, in these times, I'm sure it wouldn't faze me..

But born in the 70's... It's difficult.

 

I was born in '70. I love anal ,dildoes,penis etc.

My wife buys the stuff and knows I like getting fucked.

 

You guys are youngsters! I was born in the mid 60s.