Hi. I'm new here, so I don't really know how to do this. I stumbled across this forum last night and I guess I have a smaller problem I'd need some guidance with. I'll just get right to it: I worked in Italy for a few months, and backpacked the magnificent north an north west maybe a month all together. Also, most recently, I spent six months in Asia. Or more like: five and a half of them in mind blowing Nepal and - way little as it was, more so in proportion to Nepal - not even two weeks in India. Now, a friend and I have a camping trip in Croatia's archipelago coming up, in May. That, followed with three months of crazy-intense work, to in August take off to America. Me and a soul mate I found while volunteering in Kathmandu, plan a two and a half month long cross-country road trip. After the adventures of that kind, I head for Brazil. In this second I'm thinking I'll start traveling the north east for five, six weeks, to then settle in Rio for about three, four months. And, finally, return to Nepal, where I'll volunteer some more, enjoy the nature - all that lovely stuff - until I feel I satisfied my need for that special depth the country has to offer. If only for the moment being. (... which it will be.) Still somehow this doesn't really cut it for me. It'll be fulfilling, to say the least, in every possible way. But I have this need, this desperation, and this lust, of finding truth, and something actually mattering, and something making one feel complete. Sorta. I don't know how to explain it, and given I last year graduated high school, haven't I truly been able to explore it all that thoroughly - but I'm digging in Eckhart Tolle's wisdom, the magic of traveling, the mind-quieting meditation form of Vipassana, and what-not, to find... something bigger. I guess. I simply cannot bear the thought of life continuing being ruled by mind-made, imaginary ideals and norms and rules and suffering and empty, egoic actions. Being told what's 'important in life' and this and that. Having etiquettes imposed upon me, of things, of myself - of anything, really - to lessen the complexity and multi-dimensional touch of its true self. All this when the world undeniably is ever-changing and not at all as graspable (if that is even a word?), as our minds make it out to be. I want to awaken consciously and soak up all the damn wisdom and depth of this world that I possibly can find. I'm not sure how to, though. I've read a lot about communes, which I'd think suit me well, and I guess some of my favorite books are Into the Wild and A Vagabond for Beauty and the Dharma Bums, so those adventures lure as well. But other than that, I don't know. Does anyone have any advice, maybe? I'm all ears.