Psychedelic Bump XVII

Bump. Hopefully getting some shrooms tonight from a friend. Starting a little collection

500th post!

 

Alive and fairly well but considering changing my name to Grim.

Psychotic break, bruised lung, crashed digestion system. . . . . brother's family broken - cats farmed out to other families, kids staying with relatives, core living in a car - Sheriff showed up and evicted them.

Husband had 8 friends in the 60's and 70's. Fucking facebook AND duality. He found his old friends after 35 years . . . . the 3 men were dead due to bad luck and bad lifestyle choices. 3 of the 4 women were alive and one cannot be contacted/found (probably dead). One of the 3 surviving women died last Saturday.

Meanwhile, the Feds busted our local cannabis clubs, took away an activist who's always on the streets - paraplegic - a good man. He's no longer detained but what the fuck - at the same time a school is being shot up and seven are dead. Nice use of Federal resources, that.

The world has gone insane, everything is dying and spiraling down and drugs cannot fix it.

I continue to live as does my husband. We have no stability week to week, can afford about $15/week for gas then we walk . . . . and carry. . . regardless of weather or obligations and it looks like we are close to loosing the car.

Not looking for sympathy and there's nothing anyone can do. Sometimes reality just sucks. Rome is burning and I'm mildly entertained at times but it's getting difficult to deal with and parse the boundaries are dissolving.

My thoughts are back to normal (no longer psychotic) and I miss what I had. I was so happy and had so many insights and everything was so personally relevant.

Peace & Love

Tomorrow has to be better, . . . . right?

 

Hey Spicey ....:grouphug:

 

CannbiSoul: 110mg aMT is a great dose for a wild trip, especially if augmented with another psychedelic

CFS: Good job buddy, yay!

Spicey: hang in there sweetie, after every storm there's a rainbow and not at all meant to be trite but as the saying goes "and this too shall pass". You've been an inspiration to me and helped me see my own faults and sickness so I owe a debt of gratitude to you. I wish you and yours the best and am here for you hun. Death, jail, money problems & DEA/US Marshals really is a lot to deal with all at once and that fiasco at the pot clubs did darken skies here. Yesterday was so depressing to watch in action, were you on Broadway in the protest too?

 

Good to hear from you Spicey, hope things improve.

 

Let's dose the 25I this weekend. I haven't tried it yet either.

Nice man, I'm excited for you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ne-I7JTXCbo&feature=player_embedded"]The Living Matrix Movie Trailer - YouTube

Also, there were several tornadoes in the Dallas/Fort Worth metroplex today. A lot of craziness. They hit where I used to live, but less than 20 mins from where I am now.

 

sorry to hear all that spicey

hope things get better for you

 

this one is for you Cat:


Elias Session 767

Offer to yourself your own permission to be accepting of that which you view to be the shadows of you, and allow yourself a new perception, a turning of your perception, recognizing that you need not be discounting of yourself, you need not be chastising of yourself or striving for perfection, but all that you create within your reality is an expression of you. Those elements of your reality that you view to be the inadequacies or the shortcomings or the mistakes are in actuality perfect also, for they are the shadows that offer you depth. For without the shadow you create a flatness and no depth.

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Quote:
"One thing that comes out in myths is that at the bottom of the abyss comes the voice of salvation. The black moment is the moment when the real message of transformation is going to come. At the darkest moment comes the light."

-- Joseph Campbell

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Quote:
"He (Great Spirit) governs the flowing of all waters, and the ebbing, the courses of all rivers and the replenishment of springs, the distilling of all dews and rain in every land beneath the sky. In the deep places, He gives thought to music great and terrible; and the echo of that music runs through all the veins of the world in sorrow and in joy; for if joyful is the fountain that rises in the sun, its springs are in the wells of sorrow unfathomed at the foundations of the Earth."
J.R.R. Tolkein, "The Silmarillion"

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"The secret is out: all of us, no exceptions, have qualities we won't let anyone see, including ourselves---our Shadow. If we face up to our dark side, our life can be energized. If not, there is the devil to pay. This is one of life's most urgent projects."
Larry Dossey, M.D., Author of "Healing Wounds"


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[Jung] told me that he once met a distinguished man, a Quaker, who could not imagine that he had ever done anything wrong in his life. "And do you know what happened to his children?" Jung asked. "The son became a thief, and the daughter a prostitute. Because the father would not take on his shadow, his share in the imperfection of human nature, his children were compelled to live out the dark side which he had ignored."

(A. I. Allenby describing a conversation with C. G. Jung.)


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Quote:
The range of what we think and do
is limited by what we fail to notice.
And because we fail to notice
that we fail to notice
there is little we can do
to change
until we notice
how failing to notice
shapes our thoughts and deeds.
--R.D. Laing


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Quote:
Who has not at one time or another felt a sourness, wrath, selfishness, envy and pride, which he could not tell what to do with, or how to bear, rising up in him without his consent, casting a blackness over all his thoughts, and then as suddenly going off again, either by the cheerfulness of the sun or air, or some agreeable accident, and again at times as suddenly returning upon him? Sufficient indications are these to every man that there is a dark guest within him, concealed under the cover of flesh and blood, often lulled asleep by worldly light and amusements, yet such as will, in spite of everything, show itself… It is exceeding good and beneficial to us to discover this dark, disordered fire of our soul; because when rightly known and rightly dealt with, it can as well be made the foundation of heaven as it is of hell."

- William Law, The Grounds and Reasons of Christian Regeneration (1739)


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Jung:

Everyone carries a Shadow, and the less it is embodied in the individual's conscious life, the blacker and denser it is. At all counts, it forms an unconscious snag, thwarting our most well-meant intentions."

"One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious."

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WHAT WE DO NOT DARE LOOK AT, WITHIN OURSELVES, WE TEND TO PROJECT OUT ONTO OTHERS………..

"Shadow wants to be heard, simply that. But if it isn't, it turns nasty. It becomes a veritable demon, witch, or son-of-a-bitch, demanding its pound of flesh….in very painful real time, not dreamtime.

Pay attention to your shadow. If you keep distancing yourself, saying "Heavens, it's not my fault!"---then heaven help you. Hell won't."

Katya Walter

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Jung's Theory of The Shadow

"The Shadow describes the part of the psyche that an individual would rather not acknowledge. It contains the denied parts of the self. Since the self contains these aspects, they surface in one way or another. Bringing Shadow material into consciousness drains its dark power, and can even recover valuable resources from it. The greatest power, however, comes from having accepted your shadow parts and integrated them as components of your Self."

from John Elder

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Quote:
Carl Jung

"Beneath the social mask we wear every day, we have a hidden shadow side: an impulsive, wounded, sad, or isolated part that we generally try to ignore. The Shadow can be a source of emotional richness and vitality, and acknowledging it can be a pathway to healing and an authentic life. We meet our dark side, accept it for what it is, and we learn to use its powerful energies in productive ways. The Shadow knows why good people sometimes do "bad" things. Romancing the Shadow and learning to read the messages it encodes in daily life can deepen your consciousness, imagination, and soul."


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Quote:
"One must have chaos in oneself in order to give birth to a dancing star."

~ Friedrich W. Nietzsche

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We know, as we have been saying for quite some time,
that things in your personal lives
and things in your collective reality, your society,
are beginning to become as many of you have observed,
very much more chaotic.
Many things are breaking down.
Many things are becoming much, much, much more magnified.
Many energies seem to be happening all at once.

And we remind you, once again,
as we have said before,
that the key to riding the wave of chaos
is not to resist it
but to allow yourself to know
you are a part of the energy of chaos.
To allow yourself to be chaos
and in becoming chaos
and allowing a new form of organization in,
rather than imposing your old system of organization upon it,
by letting this new idea in
and, as you say, riding it,
going with it,
not resisting it…
you will then, by becoming chaos,
allow the chaotic action
to show you through sychronicity,
what it is you really need to be aware of,
how it is that life will organize itself
using you as a guide post.

The more you allow yourself to become
who and what you are,
the more natural you become,
the more truthful to yourself you become,
the more representative you become
of the facet of the Infinite you were created to be…
Then the easier it will be for your reality
when it becomes more chaotic
to be able to reflect to you
those aspects of the chaos
that have to do with you
and are important to apply in your life
and those aspects of the chaos
that don't have to do with you
and which you can let go of.
These will reveal themselves.

You will see a new organization coming in,
a new organizing principle
that will let you know through synchronicity
which things you need to pay attention to,
which things you can let go of,
which things are no longer necessary in your life…
Things, that perhaps, in the past
you have been taught you need to hold on to…
you now can begin to really let go of
so that you can understand that the most important aspect
of being able to handle the new chaos,
the amplified and magnified chaos,
that is going on in your society
will be to streamline yourself…
let go of excess baggage.
It will seem as if you are becoming, in a sense,
supersonic
and that you must trim off anything
that doesn't belong to you
or you will not really be able to ride the wave smoothly.

It will be as if you are an airplane
with many appendages
that do not need to be there.
You must become more like a rocket, in that sense,
more streamlined,
so that the waves of chaos can slip past you more easily,
so that you can go through them
and in becoming more streamlined, in that sense,
you'll be able to pass through the "eye of the needle"
in which all chaos occurs
and toward which your society is rapidly heading.
And in that "eye of the needle"
there will be no room as we have said
for things that do not belong to you.
It will have no room to carry through
all of those definitions,
all of those experiences,
that hold you back,
that limit you,
that are defined as something other than yourself.
All of the excess baggage of beliefs
you have been brought up with,
taught to hold on to,
that you do not need,
that weigh you down.
You will have to let go of to pass through
that "eye of the needle".

As things get more chaotic
it will be more tumultuous
and it will be as if
you are being cast about in the wind,
you will not be able to find any kind
of sense of direction
if you don't let go of those things
that allow you not to experience…smoothness
and the streamlined motion that you need to have…
So we would recommend
More importantly than ever
you lighten up and let go.
Drop those things that have nothing to do with you…
You do not need them.
They only hold you back.
You must be able now to move more swiftly
because things are going to accelerate even more…
and more…
and more…
and more.
Especially in what you call your next couple of years.

So I would recommend
that you allow yourself now to recognize
you can move much faster,
much more smoothly.

And you can, in doing so,
give yourself the opportunity to be able to see
what's going on around you,
almost impartially,
as if you yourself are almost not involved.
As if ;you are like the eye of the storm
and everything is moving around you,
this is the nature of attached detachment.

As you become more involved
with "true" life
in some ways you seem to become less involved
with life around you…
paradoxically.
You will actually be able to become more active if you want to be
but only in those things that are truly representative
of who you are.
The more you insist and remain insisting
on becoming active in ;those things
that have nothing to do with you,
that are really not your truth,
the more difficult it will be for you
to maintain your course
towards that "eye of the needle",
that transition point,
that is coming up very much more strongly,
now than ever before.
Remember that what we are saying here is not metaphorical,
we're talking about real energy..
collective consciousness energy,
that are truly piling on a critical mass,
amplifying itself.

Allow yourselves the opportunity to trust
who you know yourselves to be.
To take a deep breath and sigh…
and in that sigh release those things you do not need,
those things that, perhaps, you have been holding on to
for long time,
maybe for all your life…
that you know you really want to let go of.

Now's the time to really understand
how to let them go,
to let it be all right
to surrender to yourself
and remember again, please,
we will constantly remind you of this
because it is one of the most important things, now,
at this critical time.

That surrendering is not the giving up of something,
true surrender is the total acceptance of yourself,
your true self,
you're not losing anything in the surrender,
the way your society usually means that word…
you are not giving up anything in the sense of loss.
Surrender means to open up,
open up to your total self,
to give in and let go
of the things you think you're supposed to be.
Just be who you are.
It will see you through…
it will see you through.

Allow yourself to let go
for the seas will only become choppier now
and only by being your essential self
will you be able to ride those waves in such a manner
that they will not feel like a storm to you
even though you may observe
that there is chaos of storm all around you.

This is what being in the center is all about.
This is the effect that you get in your life when you do that
guaranteed…
guaranteed…
in effect,
physically in effect,
guaranteed.
But you must let go
and the degree to which you still feel tumbled about
is the degree to which you may still
have ideas that you must let go of,
that are not you.
And so you can use that as a measuring device
to see how well you're doing
in letting go of who you are not
and in accepting who you are,
as you were originally made to be,
created to be:
an Infinite Creator with unlimited possibilities,
who knows that and acts like they know it…
a creative being,
a loving being.

That is all you have to be,
the rest takes care of itself…
because you are creating life through you,
you are experiencing who you are through you,
and as you become clear
and as you become centered
and as you become like unto the "eye of the needle",
then nothing that does not belong
will be capable of passing through you.
You will be your own best filter
and you will filter out that which is not you.

And on the other side of the "eye of the needle"
there will only be
that thin bright light
and thin bright edge,
that is unerringly…unmistakably,
just you…
just you…
your true essential self…
just you.
That will be all that is left
because that is all there is…
just you…
and this goes for every one of you.

~ Bashar

 

So if I legally purchased a legal research chemical , and say I 'accidentally' ingested it, would I trip regardless of what the RC is? I've only expirimented with 2c-e.

 

Spicey, nice of you to check in, good vibes and best wishes to you, truly hope things wind up ok.
It is beyond understanding that Oaksterdam BS... this country is so great and yet so fucking insane...

CFS sir, I wish you well in your pursuit of changing your life. I've kept my mouth shut for a variety of reasons. I just have to ask, do you think substituting one opiate for another is what you want to do?
I can't quite understand why the govt likes to treat opiate problems with other opiates.
Oh, wait minute, ya I can.
Wishing you peace and light and happiness. :sunny:


Felix, interesting collection of quotes. Thanks for sharing those.

 

What kind of question is this? There are some RC's that would make you trip if you accidentally ingested them. There are also a lot that have other effects. I really don't understand what you're asking.

 

At least he didn't say SWIM

 

Just been made aware that a friend here in town has a 'cid hookup. Real nervous about local cid being DOx. Contemplating the best course of action.

 

^^hear what others have to say and compare it to good acid.



So this weekend as long as this girl who i've been chillin with lately gets work off, me and her are gonna roll together. its gonna be her first time and I'm gonna have my dads apartment to ourselves plus my buddy gave me some of the best molly he's ever had. So its bound to be an amazing time, but I'm just curious of any suggestions people have for activities and things to do when it comes to rolling with your girl. And i mean besides sex related things of course haha. just wondering if there are any things we should absolutely be sure to try. music, glowsticks, beds, and showers are on my agenda so far

 

^ Here is a list of activities http://ecstasy.org/trip65.html

Massages are amazing and I usually make time for a walk. Vicks vapo inhalers are pretty interesting to sniff while rollin, if you're going all out with the glowsticks and stuff May be something to consider. You just hold it under your nose and sniff in, it gives a sudden tingly rush.

Listen to The Chemical Brothers

 

Thank you

I see what you are saying here and i understand why it may sound a bit silly swapping one opiate for another, initially it does sound daft, i agree. It's something I have put a great deal of thought into and for my personal situation the pro's of being on suboxone far outweigh the cons. The heroin going round Scotland is estimated 5% pure, thats 95% fuck knows what i've putting in my body for every bag i score...fucking madness huh, i'm a hell of alot safer on suboxone, just last year a guy i grew up with died from anthrax poisoning from a bad bit of heroin too. Theres many examples and reasons i could give why i would choose to go on suboxone. I beleive it's a better alternative lifestyle to my current one and im confident in my dicision brighter times ahead.


Spicey i'm sorry for your situation and really hope things pick up for you soon

 

also, the subs stop you from being able to abuse other opiates, so it will limit your ability to relapse and abuse heroin.

if nothing else, at least now you're legal.

 

Damn Spicey :/

Check in once in a while and let us know how you're doing ok? Keep your chin up.

 

No offence but you should probably educate yourself a bit before taking more drugs. It's a pretty strange question. To ''trip'' is a pretty loose term and it doesnt really mean much. Then there's quantity, different type of ''rc'' and different effects... this is a pretty vague question my man.

Just remember this: If you don't do things right, RC's can KILL you. Read, read, read, read, read, and be responsible.

 

Raga, ask people that have taken the cid and find out how long it took to kick in, how long the trip lasted, what it tasted like, and how the trip felt. Idk about 25i or any other nbome because I haven't taken it but DO(x) is unmistakable. As I mentioned in the other thread, DO(x) takes 2-3 hours to kick in, lasts 10-30+ hours (generally about 15), has a distinct bitter/metallic taste, and is VERY stimulating. Just gather any info you can get and compare to TR's and general effects on erowid. If you want to be 100% sure, buy the test kit.

Spicey, sorry to hear things have been crappy for you. It will get better though. Keep your head up! *hug*