Psychedelic Bump XVI

I don't know how you do it

 

What i meant by that is feeling more feminine/emotional energies. My cousin thought 2ce was making him feel gayish, he is not very intune with his emotional side.

 

Believe me, I don't always enjoy it, but taking doses that put me in my place for lack of a better way to describe it always leaves me shaken and takes days or weeks to fully grasp and accept/understand the lessons and learn from them.

Chrisfromscotland, seriously. We share a similar burden and desire to change. I'm overseas so a call might be possible but texting is surely a possibility. I want someone to talk to too.

 

Thank you cosmo and raga, you know im so gratefull for any kind words just now, being so close to genuinely considering death has gave me a new appreciation for humans, i wish i could just cuddle you guys, thanks for seeing a human being behind the junky i am. cosmo i need to sleep just now because i have been awake all night. i'll pm you later and we can have a heart to heart, i need to talk to someone that knows what to do, even though ive dabbled for years i've never actually experienced a proper addiction, im genuineley scared i know it's nieve but i never beleived something could get a hold on you so tight. im gratefull you will take the time to talk

 

It will be my pleasure and likely a seriously intimate and maybe even painful conversation that on the other hand will surely be a sigh of relief for both of us. I look forward to chatting buddy and don't sweat it, I want and need this too. I'm a chronic insomniac so I can assure you green light go for calling, texting or whatever. I'm also sure the chat will be intensely dynamic conversation. Cheers Chris

 

Glad you guys are choosing to work things out. Don't know what use I can be but I'm always open to listen/try to help.

It's so weird I just found a 1cm x 1cm cut of square on my floor. Jokingly I thought blotter paper! I picked it up and smell it and dropped my jaw because it smells like a tryptamine. I have never consumed or bought any blotter before and this thing is laying on the ground right where I have handled the numerous packages from recents rc orders, but neither vendor has blotter as far as I'm aware. You can even see perforations where it was torn on each side. I don't know what to think. Maybe it is just a piece of paper? It looks like an art deco design on it. I was able to snap a pic.

 

Thanks pop and that art looks like the Eye of Horus and I'd wager to be LSD...damn lucky man you are!

 

Doesn't look like the eye of horus but the color scheme does look similar to the images i am finding on google images.

Only one way to find out!

jk, there are two ways. I'm contacting my vendors first lol. either way I should end up eating it in the end.

 

CFS, I've never been through and type of addiction, but I've dealt with anxiety problems for years now, and I feel for you. in fact I had to call in sick a few minutes ago because I had a panic attack when I tried to get up and get ready for work.

I probably won't be able to offer you any sort of advice for your particular situation, but I wish you the best and truly hope you can kick this. it sounds like you have a good support system, so hopefully that helps you get through it.

 

I'm sending you positive thought from down south, Chris. I cant offer any practical advice, but I really hope you beat this thing! There seem to be some very knowledgable people in this thread, so hopefully that proves useful to you.
Peace

 

DUDE!!!!
If that's lucy - that is freaking fate man! Hopefully someone on here can recognize and identify the blotter. I'd post it in the LSD forum if I were you.

 

I wish you well Chris! Keep close and open with your family, close friends and support systems. I hope the methadone works and I do think psychedelics can possibly have a significant impact in your recovery. I have fairly significant anxiety as well so I can relate there with seeking a nice anxiolytic bubble to run to but for me its been more alcohol, ketamine/mxe, but still psychedelics can have a dramatic positive impact on addiction even if they are not as all around comforting as other drugs. I've read enough reports on here that I'm convinced LSA is a legitimate psychedelic, so while it may not have quite the depth or intensity of some other psychedelics, you should draw upon your LSA experiences if you seek to further explore some of those other amazing psychedelic plants/chemicals.

Oh ok, Yah I find it has an emotional component, the early part of my last trip was defined by fairly strong emotional affects but the trip developed more into a surging, sort of prowling quality that I associate more with masculine energy, it was fairly balanced actually.

 

I know you recently got 5-meo-mipt which occasionally comes on blotter and would more likely have a tryptamine smell, LSD is odorless. Pretty cool find tho whatever it is.

 

1cm x 1cm seems pretty big for acid as well

 

Dose it early and make sure you have no responsibility for 2-3 days in case it's DOx


So that was possibly the most intense experience of both our lives last night. I overdosed Volupta on miprocin. I will try to write a trip report but I haven't had the urge in a long time, but I will give it a college try because it might help someone in the same situation. I estimate she took 60-80mg, and had a completely inner experience in my presence, quite detached from consensus reality. It was terrifying because she was in terror at times over certain things and I couldn't help, in fact my efforts to help made it worse sometimes. Physically she was ok, just vomited and powerful nausea all night along with jitters. Her symptoms were exactly like mine with 50mg 4-aco-dmt when I had a full break from reality. Ultimately the trip was ridiculously positive, we feel ridiculously good today, and we have emerged from it much stronger as individuals and as a couple, and with nothing but admiration for miprocin, in fact we can't wait to do it again. It also honed my abilities as a trip sitter quite a lot, there was a long time where I thought that she had had a full psychotic break and I would need to notify her family, her work, call an ambulance, etc. My dose of ~30mg was great. Anyways I'll try and get that written at some point, along with the nexus flip tr lol