Psychedelic Bump XV

It's great that the positive effects are still with you.

I expect LSD will blow you away. In a positive way, of course.

 

what a great 21st birthday with my girlfriend. white speakers and swiss polm hash today. also 3 grams of mxe and lsd in the future. ill save the lsd for a festival along with a white speaker and some mxe.

 

^^that's a LOT of L

 

Smartass lol
you know what i meant!

 

Definitely. I am glad I was bold enough to give psychedelics a try despite my 'psychiatric label' which would contraindicate their use. I would have missed out on a lot of experience, even counting my 'weak' 2C-I experiences which were still very interesting.

I will be sure to update you all when I decide to take The Trip.

 

what kind of anti-psychotics/anti-depressants do you take?

 

Meds taken currently:

- Zyprexa (olanzapine)- antipsychotic - 7.5 mg (I fast for two days with this med prior to tripping or else it cancels it completely out.)
- Vyvanse (dextro-amphetamine) - adjunct antidepressant stimulant - 70 mg
- Suboxone (buprenorphine and naloxone) - experimental/off-label antidepressant opioid - 4 mg
- Effexor (venlafaxine) - SNRI antidepressant - 150 mg
- Klonopin (clonazepam) - benzo anxiolytic - 0.75 mg at night

Although it seems like a lot, I only really notice the Zyprexa and Vyvanse. Like I said, though, I feel NO effects of a psychedelic if I have taken Zyprexa within 48 hours of wanting to trip. One of the best parts of my "big" trip a month ago was waiting a full 72 hours since my last Zyprexa dose.

I also go to psychotherapy every other week as well as intensely exploring my own mind to question any unhelpful reactions to environmental stimuli. That has been the key to recovering in all honesty.

I plan to get off of Zyprexa soon and down on the Effexor (I would like to go off eventually), as well as getting off Klonopin (I hate benzos).

 

@voyage: The 25i nbome was complexed.

 

Don't let your psychiatric label define you

 

*like*

 

I'm no medical professional or anything and I'm just asking... what do you think would happen if you were to start tapering off some of those? Do you think you are going to need to be on them indefinetly?

 

I have been tapering off of them for awhile now, actually. I used to be on up to double those doses. I plan on getting off of a few of them and keeping low doses of a few of them as well. It is a slow process to taper though. I don't want to put myself through anything unnecessarily difficult for no reason. Slow and steady.

 

bump for 6apb tonight, prolly working against a bit of tolerance from the 25i but planning a chill evening.

 

N,N-DMT is a funny one for me. Perhaps in large part because of DiMiTri I really no longer get The Fear from psychedelic drugs with the exception of high dose synthetic cannabinoids or some dissociatives, and :2thumbsup: the 2C-C/2C-B combination (through a ROA that bypasses the first pass metabolism), now that's only because a breakthrough dose is en par with one of N,N-DMT, so then, ergo deemster as it should follow quite naturally yet quite oddly.
But DMT is not anything if not odd or a mystery wrapped up in an enigma inside a paradox tied into knots by super sentient shapeshifter lumenescent carnivalesque genderless interdimensional alien orbital beings of light not bound by our laws of physics often taking the form of machine like elven like creatures as if from Æon Flux, Fantastic Planet, The Point, Wallace & Gromit [sic], and Gumby. There's nothing to fear unless surfing the rings of Saturn while being felt up by sirens frightens you!
Unless a particular trip is ordained not to be a candy coated rollercoaster ride by the elf gods.....
Then no matter how frightful the trip may be, it's essential to keep your cool or that'll be the longest 15 minutes of your life. DMT can be a grown-ups' toy like any drug. But don't go into it with any preconceived notions of what to expect, have a sitter unless you're a DMT veteran, mentally prepare yourself whether yoga, meditation, relaxation techniques or what have you, don't anticipate fun euphoric trippiness per ce (though it can be a joy ride, more often than not it's an eye peeler not unlike the device from A Clockwork Orange traversing your soul through a wormhole not unlike that one from Contact and also Stargate, all metaphorically speaking of course...
...mostly. N,N-DMT is truly metaphysical, mystical, all-powerful within entheogenic territory, and most importantly takes you to your leader, God aka yourself, or more aptly put, that spark of light in your mind's core that house's your conscience and your will power. There and then when confronting that Jimminy Cricket Santa Claus Gates of Heaven list of (lightly put) 'imperfections', that'd be about when I get particularly antsy, or even get The Fear. When there or when mindlessly lost in Dr. Parnassus Imaginarium, don't water it down like a wuss with benzos or any tranqs:

The key is to just.simply.to.surrender.
Remember that first, though quite powerful it's extremely safe. I once smoked 1.5-3g* and my bp, pulse rate, pulmonary system, serotonin levels, et al remained fine (*I know it was mor than one gram, less than three and close to two if not a smidgen just above two). Also keep in mind a breakthrough can or cannot happen at 30 to 300mg, it all depends on preparation for the trip, amount necessary for the level of immersion which is only known through plentiful experience, absolute surrender, and tryptamine mainly but entheogen tolerance in general...but if only Dimitri accounts for your psychedelic tolerance then up to 75mg every two hours about six times a day every other day will either break through or come close. At least IME that worked best. You also don't need a vape pipe or vaporizer though the the former of the two is ideal. A layer of marijuana with spice sandwiched under another layer, or any smokeable herb like dagga, calia, salvia, mugwort, wormwood, passionflower, intoxicating mint, amanitas, damiana, and so on. Just NOT kanna nor St. John's wort because they're SSRI's and not datura nor brugmansia unless you're reckless, careless, or nuts.

Also of note: N,N-DMT is intimate but not sociable. Doing it with fellow psychonauts inside in a small group is best, dim lighting like candles and Xmas lights and soothing ambient music aid the journey :daisy:

 

The local headshop really rips people off with their Kratom. It was horrible. That was last night's failed experiment. Should've known better.

For tonight smokin a blunt just tryin to relax. Budgeting my money trying to get back on track. I'm starting to feel a lot better. By the end of the month I should have some Molly, DMT, more LSD, a tad of MXE, and something else just haven't figured out what yet.

I have a feeling this year will be a lot better. I am clean, I'll have money and be able to pay my bills and go on adventures again. Life is good! ^_^

 

Good to hear your positive words and plans GM. I know you've been struggling a bit to right your canoe on the waters of life. Hang tough, it's worth it.
Best to you and Spliff in the coming year.

 

bump for 2 dosings of mxe + pot on nye, a truly amazing one.

 

I can respect that.

Sometimes I feel like our recoveries depend on what kind of doctor we end up seeing. You either see a doctor that says YOU HAVE A DISEASE IN YOUR BRAIN, YOU NEED THESE DRUGS'' or one that kinda gently helps you get back up. Sometimes I feel the drugs kinda ''lock'' you into that state.

I have a hard time explaining this, but hopefuly you understand what I mean. Sorry. (bump for a large amount of cannabis)

 

bump for finally getting The Mindfold

 

thanks for reminding me to use mine Popularity.