Psychedelic Bump XIII

I would always have a little cry session after tripping if I tripped in the day time. Not really depessed just overwelmed with emotion... Or something
But never at night

 

when we were standing by the water (the most magical part of the trip) she asked "does it always look like this?" and i said "it depends on who's looking" which seemed TOTALLY profound at the moment, and she seemed to really GET it. i went on to say how our everyday brain has to filter out ~90% of stimuli, so we can focus on survival. so if you can pay attention, you'll be able to see some of that beauty in everyday life. she already has learned this lesson though, which makes her ask "what's next?" she said she really doesn't know what acid is supposed to teach you.

she got really upset, because it will never be like that again. i told her that's not a reason to be upset though. even if it WAS the BEST thing that ever happened she should be happy that we got to experience it.

she understands, but can't fight the feeling it seems.

 

Ya know, I think you hit one of the central lessons square on the head. Anytime I have a worthwhile adventure at some point I find myself wondering what I can do to "bring back more".
When I go to shows or see or experience things that alot of people want to take pictures of, I refrain. The main reason is that I want to focus on the experience rather than fiddle with a camera. If that makes sense.
For me the memory is what's important. One thing I try to do is to remember that different perspective. I can stop to look at a flower for instance and try to view it not flippantly but to soak up everything I can.
We aren't built to live in that state all the time. I think we're fortunate to have the ability to "pull back the curtain" sometimes.
I can identify with your girls feelings though. Maybe it's a process she needs to go through to arrive at a particular place of understanding, or at the trailhead that will lead to the path of something else.
You already know what your job is on the matter.

 

The real beauty is the fact that it is always like that, we just don't "see" it.
When you can get to a point that the psychedelic mind set and perception is common place, then it's easy to "see" the little sparks of infinity and profound beauty that surround us every second.
That is enlightenment, that is nirvana, that is the elusive sliver of heaven we seek.

The hardest thing to accept for a lot of folks is that all of reality is a paradox. This is made very apparent while tripping.
You are the center of your universe and it has all been created for you and at the same time you are but a small almost insignificant piece of this entire puzzle.
Joyful gratitude for and acceptance of the paradox of existence is key to peace. Without yin there can be no yang.
Finding joy in and being awestruck by the beauty of the most mundane of things is part of the "secret".
I "see" little instances of the infinite very often and it always fills me with awe and deep gratitude that I am able to both observe and participate in that grand and beautiful play known as life.

I remember a few years ago upon my re-introduction to psychedelics via San Pedro. that much to my surprise a great deal of the "psychedelic perception" had become ingrained in me as the normal way to perceive and comprehend the world around me, ever aware of the goings on "behind the curtain". I was tripping good, but the thoughts and understanding of deeper mechanisms of my relationships and actions were not much different from my normal waking state.

It's always there, we just need to re-learn how to "see" clearly.:sunny:

I'm rambling again, aren't I

 

You were not rambling at all Noxious, what you said was wonderful and couldn't be closer to the truth. I have come to all of these realizations myself throughout my history with psychedelics but I often have trouble explaining these types of feelings and ideas to others, I envy your ability to 'ramble'.

 

Last night was beautiful. The visuals were fantastic. The come-up felt very similar to MDMA and then morphed into a lsd-like experience. The breathing, morphing, and melting of things was very similar to a LSD experience. During the peak I was so overwhelmed with ecstasy it almost brought tears to my eyes. Everything was just happy and made sense. The mind-fuck wasn't as deep as LSD but it was definately close. I did a lot of thinking on this drug and it really helped me. There was definately a body load which they say is almost non-existent. I on the other think the body load was close to that of mushrooms. This is definately a drug of interest and I plan on buying more in the near future to add to my collection of psychadelics.

Idk about 25c being complexed with HPBDC but i know 25i must be complexed in order to be used sublingually. This one is of interest to me as well and would like to try it to get a feel for another nBOME compund.

 

yeah, i don't try to take many pictures at a concert or something like that, because you miss a lot of it. i hear you there.

she doesn't feel like she brings back much, because she's a good person...she already knows the central lessons of compassion for others, the golden rule, etc. i know it can get deeper than that, but i have a tough time explaining it maybe..

ever since i started tripping a lot, like 3 years ago...i have a larger appreciation for trees (the design of the branches is a fractal) and flocks of birds.

ramble on, sir. i didn't get much of an effect from san pedro either...maybe that's why?


do you guys REALLY think that "it's always like that?" reality = the beauty you see when you trip??

i can agree that it's always a potential. our normal brain filters out much of the electromagnetic spectrum. but isn't plugging LSD into our receptors, just another added "filter?"

okay...that was probably just a comment to get the pot stirring, i admit the effects of LSD feel more like filters being removed than added. but i don't really think it's more likely to be "true reality." we still aren't seeing x-rays, radio waves, infrared, etc etc, so our view of reality when we are tripping is still very skewed....

it's nice to think that it's representative of the truth though, and it could make one a better person for believing it.

basically, i think we agree...as you put it noxious, "reality is a paradox"

 

I've got to give 25-nBOME a try now. I'll order a small amount and if I like it, I might get a sheet depending on the price.

 

Cool review, I tried to aquire some a bit ago but couldn't work it out. Sounds really promising.

 

So, I finally got the dry weight of my 2nd flush and am slightly disappointed. It looked like it was soooo much bigger, but weighed out nearly the same.

The first flush was a lot of small shrooms and aborts, while the 2nd was a decent number of large shrooms. So, I now have a total of just under 18g's.

But, I've already surpassed my previous pf teks by a good bit, and the third flush is under way. If I get an 8th out of it I'll be happy.

Next time, I will be going into more advanced techniques.

 

I got effects for sure, but the "revelations" were no longer that, but just part of my normal way of perceiving the world.
No more of the "Wow, we are all one at our core being." type of stuff, that's just a given in my paradigm anymore.

The things which I'm talking of aren't what your senses report to you, but the aspects of awareness and "knowing" that transcends our sensory reality, and strikes at the core of being.

I feel the most profound change I experience compared to my younger days/trips is a much deeper and pervasive attitude of humble gratitude for all the majesty of the universe and I'm so fortunate to be a participant in this grand passion play.
:sunny:

 

Trick, just based on my reading, if you do indeed like nbome, I'd personally order the raw powder and do controlled liquid dosing intranasally, seems to be the consent as to the best ROA; though admittedly, Ganja's blotters sound awesome. Also...as far as mushies go, not sure if you already have read about it but look into monotubs :2thumbsup: super easy (really almost as easy as classic pf tek) and pretty good yields.

 

Yeah, I was planning on doing a grain spawn with a monotub for my next grow. I was also planning on making my own spore syringes and clones too.

 

Nice review ganja glad the blotters were good. I can't really tell if the ones I am looking into are sublingually active like yours so I am a bit weary to order. Also weary about dealing with such a small amount of raw chem.

 

If you haven't already, read bluelight's big dandy threads, lots of great info on liquid dosing of such small amounts. Also, seems that unlike tryptamines for exampe, nbomes seem to stay quite stable suspended in solution...though this is only from reading not first hand experience.

Trick: bird seed is definitely the way to go, though I may experiment with ordering pre-sterilized rye bags sometime

 

Yeah, bird seed has almost doubled my production over brf, and I still have at least one more flush to go. I may try using barley instead of rye, since I home brew beer and buy it by the 55 lb sack, so I always have plenty of it on hand.

 

I knocked up some bird seed that wasn't even pasteurized. Mad crazy lc injection to a fresh bag of seed.. Funny thing is. it colonized in the winter cold rather slowly. not a hint of discoloration. big 5lb mass of mycelia .. it wasnt til after it flushed a few shrooms did it get contaminated.. strangest things was, I hadnt even known it was like that till months later. It was dry stalled. I had a few preemies squished against the bag. they were also dried out. Then I filled that bitch up with water and left it as is.

 

That's pretty nuts Orison! By fresh bag do you mean literally an unopened bag just bought?! I always thought wbs absolutely had to be PC'ed...either way guess my luck isn't as solid as yours haha always get nasty-feet-smelling bacteria if I don't thoroughly PC.

 

Noxious, are you familiar with the work of Amit Goswami "the Quantum Activist" ?

 

The Quantum Activist is AMAZING!!! ++++ for that voyage Voyage

...and Noxious, you've got some motherfuckin brilliant poetic Zen wisdom in you bro, love readin yer posts of late!