Psychedelic Bump XII

OMG! Hash oil! Huge quantities of trim have been given to me in exchange for half the yield. I'm doing a very crude acetone extraction and getting about 2 grams per every ounce of shake. He he, pounds of trim on hand with a promise of 50 pounds coming up. 1000's of grams of hash oil in the future for my collective and myself (6 adults total now) produced at a couple/few grams a day.

I've been smoking and vaping heavily for about a week. So far I have noticed that stress isn't getting to me, a lot of things just seem funny all the time, and my appetite is way up. Finally, I'm going to get above 115 pounds and stick it! Now, obviously these are basically just symptoms of being high.

But, I've also noticed sleep disturbances. I cannot sleep for crap these days. Very choppy. I do not see to want 6-8 hours but rather chunks of 1.5 to 3 hours at a time.

The surreal clicking of my arthritic joints has noticeably lessened. Even my husband has noticed. NOTHING cures arthritis or bone spurs, but it's almost as if the cumulative oil doses are lubing my joints. I still click. I still have pain, but it's a LOT less. And I haven't dosed a single ibuprofin in this time.

Coming up next month, oral dosing - homemade Phoenix Tears.

 

I'll pass the test but I'm not going to smoke any mj while I'm there. I'll be living with him and his mother but she's not there a ton and neither is he which is why i'd like to be able to smoke, but oh well, it's not that big a deal.

TNS, love that sig!

 

Hey Spicey, sounds exciting! One day I want to drink aya with you, being Queen Dimitri n' all

TNS, dooo eeeiiiiit! My trip on 80 or 90mg 2ce + 3 or 4mg 25i was amazing, insane doses like pushing or going beyond 100mg 2ce blows...and warps...yer brainz

porkstock, "family" is Family, which especially here in the Yayo Area 'round People's Park or Golden Gate Park refers to Rainbow Family, the folks that are a direct extension of the Deadhead clans, the original acidheads, especially here. You know, skeletons, roses, and dancing bears? Essentially the same peeps have been responsible for Burning Man, OCF, ROTR, Hempfests, and the whole nine yards; hippiedom at its finest, and by family they mean family, which typically includes a certain degree of excess by your standards. Induction includes proving your faith in LSD and trust in Family by dosing a puddle or thumbprinting. I'm gonna go scratch up some bloomers again or find the light from Family today or tomorrow. Laugh all ya like or shake yer head, but the Dead's more than oldies, it's also 'bout kindness, love, jammin', slingin', growin', campin', and dosin' brotherman :sunny:

Why didn't I dose *more* than 6g of seriously potent cubies? I couldn't find Lucy n' didn't have 'nuf fer a strip or moon rocks, but trading 2 morphines + $20 got me a good handful n' a half, maybe 5g, my guess 6-7g, possibly more...just recall being so blown away I went nearly catatonic trance-headed within 25 minutes and tripping face in a park for 6 hours with the trip starting after I'd hopped fair to get from SF to Berkeley while I was reading "Psychedelics", somewhere in the chapter on acid's infiltration into society when the US gov't conducted Op MKULTRA and initially dosed college kids and mental patients and street people like hookers. About that time BART train walls began rippling and breathing, move ahead 4 hours and as sobriety began to take hold I'd had divine epiphanies

Next on my to-do list is pan-global aya from Syrian rue, yopo, M. hostilis, Hawaiian baby woodrose seeds, Peruvian torch, sclerotia, A. muscaria, khat, iboga, passionflower, dream herb, valerian root, skullcap, wild dagga, mugwort, hops, calamus, poppy pods, wormwood, ephedra (Mormon tea or ma juang) and kava kava--alternately B. caapi, chacruna, chaliponga, heavenly blue morning glory seeds, San Pedro or less likely, peyote, and if not sclerotia, some other psilocybin fungus...ahhh, that trip's gonna be insane! Mayperhaps I even add gota kola, ginseng, and other smart drug herbs like St. John's wort, maybe even add ganj if I can manage a means of making the trichromes chemically become active orally by means of herbal synergy!!!

 

There's a storm passing thru I think. It's raining and thundering now. I felt pretty bad yesterday and over the course of the night. I think I'm running a fever but I ate pretty well today, slept long, and took a shower and am feeling pretty good now. Stomach wasn't feeling to well either. I don't want to try a 50mg dose tonight, but I was thinking something light like 20mg 2c-e. But I may be taking methylone tomorrow night so I'd want to preserve my brain for that...IDK!!!

 

Im a couple hours away from being back in the bay area.

 

We should hook up yo, PM me! Whatcha doin up here?

 

Haha, respect yourself and give your body rest tonight. Tomorrow you might rape your receptors. Would suck if you dosed tonight, felt like shit, and ruined your chance to dose tomorrow.

 

Bump for 115mg of 2ce earlier today. Almost all of the trip was at the mall and the lake, and I even drove a car during the peak(stupid). Needless to say, it's been an interesting day.

 

115mg 2c-e at a mall?

What was that like?

 

Back in the bay!

This is where I grew up and where the parents live, I moved back in with them. I'll send you some PM's, I'm down to chill, I'm going sober for a bit tho.

 

things got crazy, but it was fantastic!

 

I feel ya man, i have a cold as well. My nose keeps running and i just feel kinda sick.. hoping i feel better tomorrow because i have to work. I'm not even going to smoke any herb tonight. Just want to rest up so I can have a good time the rest of the weekend. But best of luck with your trip! Hope all works out :sunny:

 

Cosmo, be careful with all those herbs. For example St John's wort is an SSRI; I cannot see any good coming of adding that kind of mechanism to your cauldron. To say nothing of the opiates and ephedra and HBWR and MAOIs and motherfucking iboga . . . ah nevermind, good luck

TNS, glad you're still alive, along with everyone else on the roads that day.


So many posts I wrote here and deleted. It was good to write them just for myself. They would have probably hurt feelings if I posted them, and I don't want that, though some of you badly, badly need your feelings hurt if its going to mean a real, actual change in your lives and behaviors.

It gets really tiring to come here and read bump after bump of addiction, psychotic breaks, unreasonable amounts of drug use, and on, and on . . . I no longer feel like this place is what initially I was attracted to when I joined. Maybe I'm just in a mood tonight but I miss the contributions of mature people who can use these things remotely responsibly, for (even sometimes!) constructive reasons. I notice all those posters have slowly stopped coming here over time, one by one. Now it feels like I peruse pages upon pages of bumps from people just showing up for their first time, and in the corners, grizzled and racoon-eyed regulars who have more needles in them than years to live.

When you're using psychedelics like crack cocaine, there is a serious problem. I struggle with posting this because in the end it is just one human being judging another(s), but it is not out of spite. It really hurts me to see these posts. It makes me feel like we are taking something beautiful and we are bending it and breaking it to our own broken needs and escapes. I feel pain for these posts that show so much hidden pain. The pain we will never read about here, hidden behind boastful bumps and distracted dosings. Just another night, just another chemical to get through it.

I'm in a weird mood tonight and I'm going to post this at the risk of a flame war, which it is not meant to cause. I realize any one user can argue their own innocence until blue in the face, and I would have no choice but to agree, "Yes X, I see now that your circumstances are such that all this doesn't apply to you" . . . and yet it stares us in the face, and we still scurry to toss in a quick "But!"


I've always had a problem with being overly sensitive to the plight of those around me. I'm not trying to sound like mother teresa, it's awful, and it causes me real emotional problems in the real world. I avoid situations with people who are hurting because I begin hurting, sometimes even more than them.

Maybe just one person this will resonate with, and strongly enough, for the slightest pause. I don't want to be a drug fiend. I never want to be one. I never want to abuse these things in a serious way. I realize we all have bad nights, bad weekends, bad years . . . but when even the tools that can help overcome the bad are being used in ways that doom the bad to continue . . . . the only hope is in the person using them, only if they want to be their own hope.

I should stop apologizing for my views so much, too. Treading so carefully, shocked at the idea of displeasing my peers with unpopular words. I don't want to hurt but what I don't want even more is the hurt that can come from the rest of life, especially when it might be avoided through a touchy discussion. I don't imagine that discussion will happen here, or in private messages, or even between me and anyone, I just mean that people who benefit from a real hard look at things with a real friend who cares for them no matter what. I hope we all have someone like that.

/ramble

Good night, cya tomorrow, and bump for a joint.

 

I didn't trip. My gut kept telling me to put it off. I feel worse now though, I had 1 and a half beers and it got so nasty tasting and feeling. My skin won't stop aching.

 

about people using psys like crack yeah too right, it amazes me how much potent psychedelics you guys can eat on a regular basis :-S

 

You bring up some valid as well as some projected views, some steeped in experience and concern, some in trauma and prejudice. I for one never back away from the suffering and rather look within at what I have to offer to ease other's pain. Certainly there's going to be a fair amount of pain, too, within a group of ritual and habitual drug users, drugs do facilitate one of the most instantaneous and ultimately gratifying forms of escape...except for sikes, and they essentially draw one nearer and nearer to one's soul.
Through sikes people confront demons, grow internally, people become more in touch on both spiritual and psychological levels; believe it or not but I returned to what I saw as a means to an end to confront my own pain after familiarizing myself with MAPS' theories and agendas, as with those of erowid and bluelight. For me, every sike-out is on some level a spiritual and psychotherapeutic voyage, even those trips who's primary goal is simply to get trashed like I would with coke or opium--but an inherent difference exists with sikes, that being that they're not narcotic, therefore not escapist and really force open the issues we wrestle with. I make no apologies for my poly-sike usage, and in fact was pleased as punch to see an academic write of the virtues that lie therein with multiple psychedelic usage's synergy (it's a long passage and possibly by Sasha Shulgin, if it weren't for the techie jargon and length I'd quote it). A few things that bother me in the above are the insinuation about syringes, the assumptions regarding mental illness, and the notion that over-the-top doses/untested mixtures are unsafe, ergo suicidal. For one, syringes get a bad rap, but in reality used with proper care they're safer than smoking, snorting or eating a dose. For two even Tim Leary recognized sometimes, some people given the wrong set and setting will flip their lids, in theory it could even happen to you; but that fact aside, high functioning creativity, right-brained thinking, drug abuse and other reckless activities like shoplifting, all of these have common threads in mental illness and suffice to say sikes and narcotics have been lumped together as one and the same, sigh. And then assuming that my mixtures, TNS' heavy doses, and so forth are epidemic of careless, pang-ridden souls is really balogne. Dosing super heavy so long as you titrate up over time (I've found) brings whooole new levels to a sike's potential experience, likewise admixtures enhance the sike experience...my mix for certain includes a few potentially non-recreational plants like yopo and iboga. But it's the journey that interests me, and albeit khat, ephedra, and St. John's wort may be a tad risky, hence using the forum and folks' knowledge to modify my cocktails, using smart doods like yourself to help make alterations after using you as a sounding board. But anxyolitics, hypnotics, opiates, and sikes go quite well together like PB & J. I know as I've consistently done so for yyyyyears.
At any rate, I do hope this helps you to understand me; the MAPS conference this year will be fantabulous and I'm going because I strongly believe in the psychedelic eutopian future. I also think you're swell, won't push my weirdo aya on ya, n' mos def don't think you should ever hold back suggestions nor opinions (plus this forum would sorely lack your great dialogue if you too disappeared); whatchu been tokin' anywhooo?

GB: that's cool if yer gonna go clean fer a time, drooogz ain't all there is to do in SF/East Bay

 

This

 

Definitely! I want to go to SF, amazing city.

I need to find a job before I start exploring more psychs and doing too many leisurely things, which is one of the main reasons for the break. Also the recent excessive drug stint I'm still mentally sorting out but Shpongle is playing in a little over a month and that may be worthy of rollin or tripping for and if some iboga and the allotted time for the trip were to present itself that also may be an event worth being flexible for.

I know we talked about going to a rave awhile ago, maybe that could be something we can do. Hopefully the SF scene hasn't been polluted with dubs*** and there is still a quality psytrance scene up here.

I need to start incorporating this phrase into my speech.


@Writer: Some good points, although much of what you said there just seems to be your perception of how things were/are. This particular thread series has always had excessive psychedelic use. I'm not sure which mature regulars you are referring to but from what I've noticed, the regulars I've seen leave seem to have been when dealing with their own various drug addictions/use, stopped using psychedelic drugs, or various life circumstances.

As one of the only outspoken needle users here, I took that remark about needles a bit personally. As with most things in the drug world, there are many myths surrounding needle use and couple that with the abundant amount of information online regarding proper procedural methods and harm reduction techniques for needle users, it can be a fairly safe practice. It is perhaps a bad habit but I have a good immune system, feel basically healthy, and have no track marks or any other issues that I could blame from needles.

 

Im so happy I got this job. All the peeps I work with seem pretty cool. It gets crazy busy. Its a big sports bar type of restaurant so tonight is going to be insane!! They have 3 different type of game/matches going on. I get my first check in 2 weeks and I will be promptly buying a 1/2 8th of some killer shrooms! Yay! Getting them from a guy I work with.

Oh my ex is out of jail and the court awarded me a restraining order so I'm happy :hurray: