Psychedelic Bump VIII

Hurray! 110 heat index! At 10pm last night the heat index was 94. That's just retarded.

 

Just wait till late july- aug its only going to get worse...

 

Okay, gotta jump in on this here 'cause I call bullshit to the quackers of the time. Drugs don't cause schizoaffective breaks, maybe temporary psychotic breaks (I've had a few today ) but schizoaffective disorder is a combo of schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, you seem moody sometimes, but most times just inconsolably correct about everything and the other times, rather neutral, unbiased, rational, a little cocky if you know something somebody else doesn't, but NOT ONE of those things is schizoblahblah. When I came down with Serotonin Syndrome at 17, they started giving me antipsychotics which worsen the condition (and worsen HPPD, which I had been developing for a time around then...shit it's been going nutso today!), and they labeled me bipolar II with rapid cycling plus some comorbidities like obsessive compulsive disorder, I think maybe schizoid and/or paranoid personality disorders, panic disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder.

20 fucking years later a doctor got it right and the comorbidities, which now include agoraphobia in certain situations, and some other insignificant bullshit, are all part and parcel to my PTSD. Aside from that, I've got pretty bad ADHD (as is evidenced in my illustrious but terribly sloppy writing. Then I've got the chronic pain issues and my head/brain injury.

Psychiatists by and large are a raquet of the worst kind in this day and age in the West. Dude, you're neither schizophrenic nor bipolar (and in your diagnosis, they go with bipolar I usually I think, like Madness of King George type shit). I mean, does your reality ever crumble sans drugs and an hour or so later you find yourself lost on the outskirts of SD suddenly coming out of an incoherent rambling you were having with yourself, the voices in your head (do you even have those?), and food and/or blood stains of an unknown origin all over yourself? Does this happen a few times a week, and has it continued since diagnosis? I bet no, no, no, no, no, no, etc.

You may have borderline personality disorder, maybe autism or aspbergers, maybe paranoid personality disorder, and maybe some severe self-esteem issues that aren't even disorders...you may have a very mild form of bipolar II though I doubt it unless you get sudden feelings of euphoria with no drugs involved and at these times make highly irrational mistakes/behavior. Whomever diagnosed you was a crock, that's a disease that never goes away, and though some neurological and psychiatric disorders work on similar parts of the brain as those of autists, paranoid schizophrenics, and even borderline personality disorder if I recall correctly, they don't work just in those areas, not even primarily in them.

You're just a misfit with a sometimes chip on shoulder, sometimes seemingly blue-balled, you are correct that you often don't read people or understand people or get people quite right, you're also correct that you're awkward. Maybe mom and dad or the orphanage (it doesn't matter what the cause) were shitty and schoolkids fucked with you; but the worst that you've got going buddy is some gnarly neuroses that you seem to manage pretty well on your own.

It's no wonder you really like dissociatives because they have a strong tendency to just make you not give two shits, once anesthetized...sort of like opioids but working on different brain centers.

I've been to jail for a weekend, rehab one time for nearly a month and a half, the other rehab stint a day short a week, and two mental hospital stays, each about one week and let me tell of, all three types of institutions, you're treated the same, like less than a man, trash, and always told to get lost and shut up. I watched a chick nearly rip every strand of hair out, and claw herself so bad that blood pooled on the floor while this fat old cynic knew it was happening but her donut was more important...before she could make a call to people who could treat the poor girl!!! So in essence, watching this girl suffer was like reality tv or some shit to this bitch. I was roomed up with an old man convinced he got there from the French Riviera and every time I'd pee he'd try and peek until I started threatening to kick his ass.
1) Jail: You're meant to be ashamed, learn from your actions by breaking rocks and picking up trrash...basically by being a slave.
2) Rehab: You're meant to be desperate, have no opinions, and follow their word to the letter like gods. I hate educated follks who think that their college outweighs your years of reading the same topic and practicing it any way you can. So here, you're dealing with a staff all high on their Napoleonic Syndrome, and fuck, do they ever degrade you and rub it in when you hurt.
3) Mental Wards: You're deemed a lost cause incurable, insatiable, sad, stupid, slow, and incapable of understanding jackshit. Of the thrree, I've always thought these joints the worst.

Now I ain't been in a state prison or a federal penetentary, and do not want to, all I know of them is anecdotal, and the sodomy and violence aside, the hazing aside, you're dogmeat to fellow inmates and guards/wardens alike and your first day there you're best off killing yourself, someone else, or getting really nasty and shitting yourself, leaving food smears on your face, keeping your hair messy, never making eye contact, and always mumbling...if confronted, going balistic and clawing at eyes, hitting kidneys terribly hard, kicking lower jaws, and that sort of behavior is about all that may save you from the violence and sodomy, or getting jumped into a gang, and so on. The guards are typically more brutal than cops, they help out the upper eschelon of inmates, and you're probably best off killing a guard while en route to your cell so that the hole is where you spend your remaining days on a hunger strike.

Anyway, do you (to yourself) sound as though you are so far gone in some way that you fit the template of an inmate at any such place?

 

hahaha, keep in mind you two are 10 years my juniors, so you didn't live through that era and gleen what was worth gleening. If you ever listen to The New York Dolls or Television, tell me that certain hair bands, not all of 'em like shitty Winger or Dangerous Toys, don't bear an uncanny resemblance in dress attire and in sound to late 70's punk, just a little bit made more commercially viable.

I had this arguement with a girlfriend I had once, and it boiled down to how much I LOATHE neu-metal and happy hardcore/dubstep/house.

But then a generation up from me, I can't stand Phil Collins solo (or Genesis after Peter Gabriel), Pink Floyd "The Wall" years, Steve Winwood, Dire Straights, or much of any of that arena rock shit like Foreigner.

We ain't all the same, and ten years difference will do that to you--so too will be being a bona fide music nerd.

 

Make fun all you like, but if I ever see you in the flesh en route to an ICP show with your face painted like a clown chode, I'll laugh hysterically at you.

Besides, I did not say exactly like, I said derivative.
And, they are derivative. Just like dubstep is derivative of that shitty crappola drum and bass, ewww.

Drone, ambient, experimental, acid jazz, trip hop, and acid house are the only forms of techno that don't make my ears bleed. Give me some Skullflower or some Meat Beat Manifesto anytime, but give me any shit that sounds an inkling like The Rednex and I'll toss that CD into a pile of thistles!

 

Sorry I didn't read past this dude. I never said drugs caused my schizoaffective break, nor did any psychiatrist. There is a high rate of drug use and abuse among schizoid disorders though, that is a fact and there possibly may be a correlation there. I don't care to hear anything you have to say against psychiatrists, psychologists or social workers because you don't seem all that knowledgeable about the disorder yourself.

 

I don't like ICP, are you going to dress up in a wig and some lipstick for your faggoty Poison reunion show?

 

Aaaaaaaah I love the Drum n bass!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HPtWe0IhhMI"]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HPtWe0IhhMI

Sorry for going rough on your ears there Cosmo, you may want to check again and make sure that's blood coming out of your ears and not cum.

 

id rather see scat /..

 

First of all wiseguy, schizoid, paranoid, schizotypal, and the various other disorders all have their own character.

Second, I could give a flying hoo-rah if you wanna hear my opinionated opinions or not, I dated an ACTUAL Schizoaffective girl for about a year, I would say I know far too much for how much I'd like to which is zilch. The disorder is a coupling of schizophrenia and (typically) bipolar I. Not related to drugs at all, have you ever had a shitfit of epic standards, enough so as to alarm others? Have you ever seen bugs crawling all over you? Have you ever ran naked through the house shouting obscenities? She did. You don't know jack about my past, what I know, and you seem to forget I've studied quackery in the form of psychology. We're made the way we are, you probably just dealt with it best by bootin' k all the time. Hey! Maybe a k habit helped you some

 

Glam metal is not a derivative of garage rock or new wave/art rock.

It's a nicely packaged, overproduced version of cock rock. It pains me to say this but it's a derivative of Van Halen/Aerosmith.

 

K helped me a little but it's not good for me, trust me. If I get some reliable quality K I'm done for.

Which reminds me, my mxe didn't come in today

 

Ha, but no, I wouldn't bother seeing them in their current incarnation. I would probably do the devilhawk thing (if I had more hair) and enjoy a Misfits show that way, or, dress in mod gear and enjoy a Joy Division show as such. I think I got ya beat as music snob.

Music snob rule #1: Don't be ashamed of your past (unless it's poopoo roach) and wear it with pride on your sleeve

EDIT: I think you should apologize to anyone gay here for the use of the word faggoty. A faggot was a log thrown on a fire, and gay folk, like the Romani and the Jews, had so little reverence in society, they got the name "faggot" from being burned alive like the other faggots in the pile.

 

I've seen Papa Roach, they actually put on a good show, I didn't go to see them though.

 

No, Poison, Def Leppard, and Motley Crue all cite New York Dolls/Richard Hell as primary examples of their progeny...you don't like it so you would not know this (nor do you even know the Dolls or R. Hell). Those two bands really started the opening of the glam rock doors, along with Bowie, Mott the Hoople, T. Rex, etc.

I know my shit. And some of it comes out my ass in the forms of OU812 or some trash from Aerosmith, at least either band's later years. And naw, no cum from my ears, I don't take my cream that way, or from that gender. It's usually people who make gay jokes that do though.

 

Cosmo didn't you just have a friend pass away and currently have a bunch of legal troubles? Aren't you supposed to be fleeing the state or country this weekend? I don't think you should be worried about telling anyone here what the fuck they should do.

 

Who cares?

 

nevermind

 

glad to see you posting ltj for a drum n bass example, nice work mate!

 

guerilla and cosmo you are both wankers now call me a wanker and i'll call you back a wanker then you can call me a wanker and so on and so fourth