That bf seems to bring you nothing but troubles, what makes you stay with him really ? How did you "almost killed" yourself ? (have you had an accident riding horse ?) About the dog, can't you just leave him at home for a few hours ???
Bcuz he's the only human being I can talk to. I took A LOT of mixed pills... I was actually declared dead for three min, but yeah, the doctors made me came back. but that was the last time I tried sucide, the other times were diff. No I cant leave him alone, he gets really sad n barks at the door. n my mom cant really take him out cuz she's handicapped.