Pot is fucking with me

This is interesting, before my ex dumped me for being stupid, sorry by the way baby, he said it was like I had a Borderline personality, which is interesting because my ex would smoke with me too and he would be the same person all the time but with me I kept on changing myself without wanting to, it just happens and I still do it to this day, I've been off dope for 2 years and I've never like to get drunk so it's the same feeling.

I was abused when I was little so maybe I'm still confused about that and shouldn't go anywhere near drugs, especially dope.

You agree ?

 

I've only had a couple bad experiences. The first time I smoked with a vaporizer, I hit it waaaaaay more times than I needed to and I was super paranoid. I called my roommate and made her come home because I was sure the cops were going to come in and bust me. (Now it's a running joke we have. "Attention, we have a report of a woman getting high in her own house. Swarm!") Another time I smoked way too much and I felt disconnected from my surroundings. I couldn't concentrate on anything and it was very unpleasant. No one else had the same reaction, so I'm not sure what happened with me!

I love pot, though, and consider my experiences to be isolated events.

 

alot of what you guys are saying ive experienced myself, i recently cut down alot, i very rarely smoke now. but for awhile (about 2 years) id smoke all day/everyday and sometimes, not all the time, id get this feeling that everyone there thought i was realy weird and id be really self consious about what id be saying and id just not talk sometimes, and sometimes id say really stupid shit and i just felt like id be making a complete ass of myself. it was just a bad situation in general (im not going to go into specifics) but id sometimes start to shake and get these weird twitches. sometimes id just get severe anxiety and just be really depressed. now that i dont smoke much anymore i feel like im slowly comming back to "normal", if that even exists.

 

it's called anxiety. and pot can cause it. i think sometimes you just get to that point where you've just smoked too much. it's your mind's way of telling you to take a break.

 

It can be exacerbated by expecting it. It's sort of a self-fulfilling thing.

 

Pot's like booze.Most can handle them both in moderation,but a lot of people will be seriously fucked by them.If your mates can handle them and tell you everthing will be fine, they definitly aint true friends.Feeling mind fucked is a prelude to being really mind fucked.Psyche wards are a lot easier to get into than get out of.Your'e in dangerous country man.

 

I've been smoking pot now almost evryday for about a year. Im a musician so alot of the time I'll just be by myslef, smoke a bowl or so and it really helps with my creativity and focus in my music. But latley I also have been experiencing more paranoia than usual. Most of the time i can realize its just the weed talking and to a sober person i am not acting out of the ordinary, but latley its been getting bad. when i smoke I can see things in a differnt view. for example i see people from a broader perception. and latley i look at myself so deeply that I have this steryotipical picture of how i think others view me. I all of s sudden get super self conscious where as at first pot would help me lose my inhibitions and become carefree. After reading these replies Im thinking it may be because of the fact that ive been smoking pot almsot 2-3 times daly probably in the last month.Ive been smoking alot just to get fucked up where as in the past i would mostly use pot as a catlyst to open my mind and let me learn from certain situations, now its just clouding my judgment and becoming an uneccessary mental addiction ( nevermind what its doing to the size of my wallet). I think im gonna cut down signifigantly now for awhile and see how i react to pot on the occasional toke.

 

I don't know maybe I'm just sick, But i LOVE that feeling. My adrenaline starts pumping, your view of everyone just shifts, suddenly everything around you is a threat, Sometimes it lets me see peoples heart. Like I'll look iinto their eyes while there talking and I can read them like a book, It tends to make me mean, but thats because Sometimes I don't like what I see. When that paranoia kicks in, I'm taking shit from no one, I call everyone on their bullshit and point it out. That's when I start asking serious questions, trying to know a person, it wierds ppl out but once they open up a bit, I'll just let them know that I'm high as fuck and paranoid outta ma skull. It kinda is like how I feel sober accept its on a more narrow scale, more focused. Oh yeah and someone said something about it connecting you with your inner self...
I have theis image of what I am in my minds eyes, heh It's not even human, but I know it well, and whenever I feel myself going into the turtle shell (i guess thats that self conscious feeling you guys are talking about) I just go and meet myself, (mentally of course) I bring the true me out and watch things from it's/my eyes (pronouns are complicated) Just base yourself out. It's much easier to just react. for example (and I dont mind specifics)
The female I'm currently seeing, I like to be protective, so one day I was stoned and I let "me" run loose (she's used to "me" now). and I'm laying in her lap, just looking out at everyone, watching for trouble (remember base instincts) and a friend walks up, so now, I'm pacing, I want him to leave because I feel threatened by his presence (I recognize that this is the pot, but it's part of who I am as well, easily threatened) and I'm watching him, because my mate is here, and well, our clan isn't exactly the monogamous type. So he's talking to me, but I'm only responding enough to keep him from thinking I care about what he is saying. so eventually I just say too him "Hey, you mind backing off a bit, I'm high as hell and paranoid a shit, your fuckin wit me, go get a beer or something" ,ore or less. I guess what I'm getting at with this is that if you open your heart as well as your mind, it's easier to deal with the stresses of being high. Inside we all have that base speech, our body language, facial expression and all are fluent in it. If you try talking it, and shedding all the diplomacy and court intrigue, It's easier to understand yourself and others.
(sorry for straying so far off topic, I ramble much no?)

 

its because he is high

ive seen quite a few young fellas have very bad effects from smoking

one poor bastard went over the edge...he is now schizophrenic...turns the tv on and hears people talking to him etc etc..

its very sad...

 

so quit! if you are paranoid, just dont do it any more! people think that pot is some miracle stuff that makes everything so great and makes you feel nice. pot has become a religion, and if i say i dont smoke people think that i dont belong there. ok, no probleme, bye haha!! but remember, there is some times a payback time! do not got to arrongant.... i have met many arrogant smokers who thinks they are part of an elite of cool buddies.... the thing is i have seen many people fall apart, become less than boring empty loosers

 

i'm glad to see i'm not the only one. dude, sometimes i'd be completly bat shit insane when i got high and i haaated it. i stopped smoking for a few months the experience is much more as it should be now.

 

see i always think thats what it TRULY is to be high
when i get fucking baked like fucked in the head high i always think
"Man all those other times i wasnt realy high this is a real high"
iv never once felt i smoked to much
i always just feel like im reaching a new level of high

 

the thing is, smoking is almost to condition, to call one self a hippy, i think it is unfair for those who dont like it, like me. i have never liked the effect but i think i am more hippy than many coca cola drinking stoners. but what if i dig mushies but not pot, is something wrong with me? many "hippies" will think so and will try to "cure" me by trying to make me smoke with them, because then "the vibes will be good, i ll feel relaxed just with them bla bla".... I love being with folks who are smoking, so they should respect me as well....

 

you don't have to smoke at all. no big deal.

i only like to be high around people i feel really comfortable with, otherwise i just get really anxious and nervous. once i puked when i was high. i don't know if it was because i was high. i like to think not. but i smoked before i went to school and on the bus ride i just started feeling really bad and like i couldn't breathe but i kept telling myself it was all in my head and tried to calm down. and then my cousin was telling me i looked sick. so i suffered through first period and then at the end i just felt it coming and rushed to the nearest bathroom. i've never gotten car sick and have ridden in cars plenty of times while high (including a bus, as pointless as it is since the high is pretty much gone once i get to school. it does mellow me out for the rest of the day though). soo...that remains a mystery to me. i was a little nervous the next time i smoked that it would happen again, but it didn't so i still love weed

 

ha ha you seem a real expert! you must have smoked tons in your life ...

 

ha, no, i don't think so. more than most my age, maybe, but not all. it takes awhile for me to get enough spare money (no job see...) and so compared with others that always have money...i just think i pay attention when i'm high. most it's just like "smoke, puff, okay i'm high." and i'm like "okay, now what's going on in my head..." that and i think since everyone and more in my family has, at one point, been big pot heads so information has been passed down to me, especially through the sibling pact.

 

I know around a lot of people I dont know I feel strange...but I never really get paranoid..my brother inlaw use to get paranoid real bad, then he just quit smoking. Also, have you thought maybe its laced?

 

You shouldnt smoke weed and you should wait till your at least 18yrs. but Im not a parent I would just like to see more responsable adults set teens straight that you are simply not missing anything if you dont smoke weed at least wait show yourself restraint and make yourself proud of something. Nothing to be proud of if weed is all you think aboout. You should focus on getting money by working and do something with your life first. Have a nice appartment in a few years a couch and enough spare change to buy a lid of some Blueberry. And be thankful for such advice.

 

Hey you. Who said this girl isn't doing anything with her life? Did she say she smoked all the time? She's just enjoying her teen years (and not in excess).
Quit speaking the obvious to someone who already seems to have her head on straight. When did she say that marijuana is all she ever thinks about?

I'm sure she'll be grateful for your glorified "advice". Cause now she knows what to do with her life. Thank goodness! What would she have done without you!

 

1. Step outside or go to the bathroom.

2. Do some deep breathing. Concentrate not on the people or things around you but on the sound and feeling of your own breath. Feel your lungs expand and contract, get into yourself. Slow your breathing down and keep at this for a few minutes and your mind will relax as well.

3. While you're breathing, feel where exactly in your body the tension and anxiety resides. Work on relaxing, loosening, and uncoiling it.

4. Pay attention at all times to the situations, people, or thoughts that create this nervous condition within yourself.