Please help me!! please

but that would only work if I was honest with people and told them all the low down things I've done....ooops....well no one knows the specifics still.

 

that's the thing seamonster... i choose to say all the bad things about myself on here...why? because i am WAY too trusting and i was drunk all the time back then. it was completly dumb and i really learned a lot from this place.

that said, i am completly disapointed in this place. i really am. i know not all of you are hippies... but you would at least expect people on this site to respond with a little bit of politeness, tactic, and empathy... at LEAST not to be down-right rude.

i UNDERSTAND that i have a drinking problem and with that drinking problem i would do compulsive things... YET for some reason, and altho i dont mind people on here telling me that... for some reason- some people feel the need to OVER AND OVER tell me i dont understand that and that nothing can save me and i dont love myself and johnny cochran couldnt help me and im pathetic and blah blah blah. SHUT UP!!

i have a drinking problem... i am sorry for getting in this situation. people like heat and dilli telling me stuff, i really dont mind that much.... why? they keep it pretty much to that. they piss me off but the way some other people respond...down right pathetic.

down right pathetic. i might just stay on here on and off to piss off certain people cause now i know how much they look down on me. i dont know or care. i do know that i am thoroughly disgusted with some of you. not for stating that i need help... but your superior attitudes and the way you feel the need to tell me.

 

trish i didnt say you lied about the cancer...i said that would be far worse then this...

also.....the cheating...nevermind, you believe what you say so its not worth it

were we in your living room with you when you considered divorce? sure you posted...and we were in the hotel room with you...and we went on vacation with you and ryan...and we have gone to the hospital with you..and your love affair with jerry....so i would think that we were definately with you..

and stop attacking peanuts...no one is here to harm you. seems harshness is needed now. but noone wants bad for you at all

 

WHEN I MET RYAN I HAD PERMISSION AND WAS seperated!!!!! from my husband. doh. grow up marie.

 

BTW...telling me i havent shown any remorse. wtf? this is the worst thing i ever did...getting myself in this situation. wtf? ive apologized over and over. then again- you wouldnt know.

 

i didnt say that you werent trish...i laid no claim one way or another...i simply stated that you posted about it.
can you please learn to read? we can wait for your replies so that there is truth and intellect...
oh but i suppose you woulndt post anymore.

 

You're saying i never make any posts with truth and intellect? um, yes i do. i dont need to explain myself to you. and yes, you did say i cheated more then once...and i did NOT. if you have permission- it's not cheating. wtf.


and yes, marie, i can read very well- but thanks for the concern sweetheart

 

We've already been over this one!

Yes you do have to explain when an explanation is demanded of you. Else you must accept what is said without complaint.

 

such nasty nasty people. *shakes head*

you know...maybe i am an alcoholic.. maybe i have fucked up. maybe i did get arrested and might be going to jail (altho since i didnt WILLINGLY AND KNOWINGLY kick anyone, i believe a good lawyer can help me).... maybe i have fucked up in my life....

but you know what- im a better person then many of you.


edit- well fine then osf.... i make many posts that have truth and intellect in them.... id say more then post people that frequent this forum. what a load of shit for her to say that in the first place.

and one more thing MARIE.... peanuts attacked me first. i say DONT SAY ANYTHING MEAN if you cant accept it back.

 

i stated previous that you cheated more than once..that is correct..i laid no claim at all in the thread that you replied to that you cheated...i stated that you post your stuff here about all the things you do...and so therefore we are with you. that was what i said...
and cause you had permission means it wasnt cheating
does that mean if someone gives me permission to beat them in a head with a frying pan that its not hitting them?

 

but you know what- im a better person then many of you.


yay more truth and intellect!

 

Nope.... not the same thing. An open marriage means that if you are allowed to do something it is not cheating. bottom line.

 

Aww, can little Marie learn some new words? Ill send you a thesaurus for Christmas.

 

am I missing something? didn't you hook up with sydburnz and jerry? then there was one time you posted about you hooking up with someone at a bar not very long ago.

I wish no ill-will for you at all trish, but I do hope you learn your lesson. They don't just take people out of the bar, grab them and pepper spray them over profanity and spilled drinks. Considering your previous conviction on drug traficking you would think that you would have learned to behave yourself.

I think most people here, Peanuts included, have been patient and empathetic towards your problems over the years and have simply grown tired of seeing this self-abusive destructive behavior. Sometimes the truth hurts Trish and the TRUTH is that you need to grow up and take accountability for your own actions.

Part of the reason why people are calling you out here is that some of your behavior both past and present has been pretty pathetic. The one night this summer when you got hammered and swallowed a bunch of sleeping pills and posted 15 minute updates all the way up until you went to get your stomach pumped? who posts about that kind of dramatic shit?

and then this thread with the PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE - send me money this and that. Pretty pathetic - just wow. Then yesterday posting, fuck you all, I'm leaving for good. Why bother posting it? That's like Cher announcing yet another farewell tour. Not a soul on here believed it. So you come back today and say I am leaving, but I just needed to say a few last things.

There's been so many times I've wanted to post in one of your latest drama threads - grow the fuck up, but didn't because I know it hurts to hear it. But the truth is - you need to GROW THE FUCK UP.

It is unfortunate, but some people truly need to hit rock bottom before they learn there lesson and create the change in themselves to improve their life. Its sad to see, but very apparent that you are one of them.

 

I never aired any public information of what i did or did not do with either of them but during both of those time periods, dan and i were seperated and i was allowed to see other people...BOTTOM FUCING LINE. get over it.

now, dhs, the cops put me on the ground and pepper sprayed me cause i was yelling that i wanted to know why i was getting arrested. dont you get it? i WAS resisting arrest.... i have three charges against me... resisiting arrest, public drunkenness, and aggra. assault of a cop.... im pleading guilty for the FIRST TWO cause i did the first two. So would everyone please understand that i WAS resisting arrest... because i wanted to know why and where my glasses were...

if i kicked him, it was by accident during that time and i am fighting that one.

NOW, about me being pathetic... yeah, well, i made this thread as a last resort. i actually have some good friends on this forum- ive recieved and sent out three xmas presents already and talk to some people on a daily basis. those are the types of people that i was hoping would loan me money if they could. not people like peanuts and marie.

as for peanuts putting up with my shit for years... she hasnt even been here that long and i stopped posting drama MONTHS ago. im only doing this now cause you people wont let things fucking die.

 

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I was in rehab for popping pills back in 94. I drove myself there because I knew I needed help. Not only did I pop pills but I had major depression. I took it upon myself to go get help.

I don't eat vicoden like candy. I have taken some recently because I have been in a lot of pain. I am not addicted to them. I don't do stupid things when I take them.

For fucks sake, I am a mother. I have 2 children to think about and take care of. I am not going to anything to put their life at risk or mine. It's called RESPONSIBILITIES.



You are pathetic...no wait to be fair your addictions and vicious cyles are pathetic with the way you keep repeating these vicious cylces. Drugs, alcohol, going to hotels with strange druken men, posting your conversations with other married men about how much they love you. YES I find that pathetic. That is not normal behavior. Whatever the fuck normal is. Doesn't sound healthy to me. Thats my opinion. I don't expect others to agree with me or come down on you about how I feel.

I didn't have to sit with you in your living room, you brought your living room right here to the forums posting your instant message chat about a man crying to be with you. YOU are MARRIED. That man should of been told we can be friends. PERIOD. Anything more than that I can't give you. PERIOD.

 

she hasnt even been here that long and i stopped posting drama MONTHS ago.


tell me lies, tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies

 

to be honest, I'm sure I could publicly trash most of your lives on here if I wanted to.....its just word games really....so she fucked up, do we need to judge every little detail she has ever shared with us?

Don't tell me that you all aren't enjoying this cat fight.

 

Here's a Tip - Don't resist arrest ever. It only makes a bad situation worse. I've made great friends here too, people I communicate with all the time - including my girlfriend. If I need their help, I pick up the phone and call them. Do you think everyone on the forums thought you were directed this thread specifically at your friends? Are you honestly suprised that people are reacting the way they are in this thread?