Pharm Bump

from doing a lot of benzos all week, i dont think ill be doing any at all this weekend or for a little while...just chill on them while and IF i can.

 

^lol

Today ate 250mgs of lyrica, and 2mgs of klonopin and smoked a shit ton of nug.....lol.

I was nodding out basically and stumbling around at this class i had to go to.

 

hah godddamn found a xanax bar in a pair of trousers that were discarded in my closet earlier this week. lol. So a bar, and 7 klonopin i think for todays stuff... oh and a few lyrica.. also i met a pretty girl that sells roxi 30s for VERY cheap for where I now live, she is going through a similar program that i am currently, so i am going to be hitting her up today as well! maybe...

 

eppermintstick:

 

bump, about to take 2mg xanax and smoke sum chrOnic! hell yeah!!!!!

 

belated bump for 10 mgs dexedrine

 

took 1mg Ativan a little earlier. sunday nights can be pretty anxious for me, so I usually take one to help me wind down and make sure i'm able to get a good sleep. i might vape a bit of weed later as well.

 

weed + ativan always lets me focus really well. i can sit down and read for a couple hours, when normally i'd get distracted a dozen times.

 

Bump

Just popped 2mgs of klonopin and am about to eat a sub strip now. Well not eat, ya'll know what i mean. Put that shitty tasting thing under my tongue and wait a little. yum but yuck.

 

My two week streak of opioid-heavy use, has now switched 180 degrees and now I feel an amphetamine streak 'coming on.' haha. I have been insufflating those Suboxone tablets for over a week now and 'neglecting' my Vyvanse usage. But after an extremely powerful nod last night (probably the most powerful opioid experience I ever had...), I am getting a tad tired of the opioid high.

So for today:

10:00 am - 70 mg of Vyvanse (coming up strong)

Later:

~3:00 pm - 2 mg of Suboxone (low doses)

 

Thanksgiving Day:

So Far:

- Vyvanse (taken 10:00 am) - 70 mg
- Suboxone (insufflated 12:00 noon) - 2 mg
- 1/4 glass of wine (not a pill obviously) - just so I could toast with my friends and family

In the coming hours:

- 2 mg of Suboxone insufflated every two to there hours!
- Not one drip of alcohol more
- Possibly some Phenibut (a GABA-B agonist)

 

Ate a couple of klonopin to calm myself slightly before going over to one of my close friends house with my family to have 'Thanksgiving Dinner'. The whole concept is still (no pun intended) foreign to me being from England even though i have lived stateside for 7 years now.

The klonopin did not help really with my anxiety but i had 3 bottles of Sam Adams, the winter one, i forgot the official name, which kicked the pills in a bit more.

 

I took my last Vyvanse today! I can't get the next month until next Thursday! So I will be very tired, grouchy, and groggy for the coming days. I will resort to using coffee and cigarettes for dopamine potentiation!

 

1mg ativan last night. it's normally enough to make me pretty calm and relaxed, but I didn't even really feel it last night. it was the first one I've taken in a week or so, so I don't really think it was a tolerance thing.

 

Lexapro - 20mg

Starting a new path towards recovery and getting my life back on track.

I hope these SSRI's work, I've heard mixed reviews. If anyone has any knowledge about them I'd love to hear about their success rate and when you begin to feel its effects (3-6 weeks I've heard?)

:sunny:

 

Around 10mg klonopin and 75mg lyrica.

 

:drool5:

Bump for finding out that I ate all of my xanax on the day I got locked up. lol That's shitty. It was a lot of fuckin xanax. haha

 

390mg dxm. I did some around two weeks ago so hopefully this hits me soon. I'm also really horny, and I like masturbating while high

EDIT: Yeah, I got fucked up and I also realized that masturbating while tripping doesn't work. lol That's okay though, my horniness just recycled to the next day.

 

I have been miserable for the past week since I ran out of Vyvanse early. I have not even gotten on the internet until today due to a complete lack of motivation to do anything whatsoever except to sleep.

I have only done mandatory things like my teaching. Other than that, I have been in living Hell. But it is my stupid fault. At least tomorrow, I will be back on the Vyvanse! The script is waiting for it to roll over to November the Second.

 

I say the following bump in the most blissful euphoria one could imagine!

- 70 mg of Vyvanse (dextroamphetamine pro-drug)! (taken 10:34 am- yes I remember the time)- settled in nicely into my withdrawal-ravaged body. I don't even know how this can be legal, even if it is Schedule II. Going through w/d in the last seven days made me 'forget' how unbelievably powerful and euphoric this drug is.

For the rest of the day, I plan on just taking about 1-2 mg of Suboxone so as to not disturb my insanely strong amphetamines high that I missed so much for seven hellishly long days.