Perma-High :(

"At one point in the trip my friend and I thought we were having a conversation, but in actually we were just lyeing there"

This happens with my mother and older brother all the time. Sometimes we don't really even talk to each other, we just sit there and sort of have a conversation without words. Sometimes it seems as though I have mental conversations with a higher power if anyone knows what I mean. I dont know what the higher power is, but I know itis listening.

 

It was madness. I'm dealing much better now, 10 days after the trip. I'm really glad I found this forum a lot of useful info, and personal experiences. Im still trailing, and I can go into full out tripping if I smoke. Through meditation I have been able to control it more and free myself. My mind is different, but for the better I feel. That was honestly the first time I ever scared myself with a drug, but that didnt come till I was well past my most intense peaks, still lightly tripping at 36 hours was fucking with me. My headach is gone, found out that was most likely from hitting my head 4 times on a wood beam during the 1.5 hours of the trip I really cant remeber much from. Looking forward to my next trip now on shrooms, frolicking through the woods lol.

 

Shrooms are way better after the use of acid just like weed.

 

Swooosh DP and DR are two similar kinds of head trips often experianced by hppd'rs, depersonalization is kinda like having freaky clips of a crappy sober state ego death experiance that leaves you drained and confused. Derealization is the losing touch with reality, often lose touch with the true physical boundries of my surounding and kinda lose it for a little bit, in an edged acid flashbackesque way that makes you feel really strange, in ya know from my oppinion a shitty stannge way... every day.

 

I was in a meditation the other day. Specifically going through the chakras, heart chakra and it seemed as though, a new side opened. I have read the mythology alot that says that chakras extend from the front AND back. I knew it, but it just never really registered.

I felt like chakra wise I was quite good. But in this meditation, I got a sense of the chakra points extending from my back and I realized. Focusing on the chakra in your front will reveal different things than focusing on the chakra on your back. I had always been focusing on my chakras points extending from the front of me. But when I switched it and began focusing on them going out my back, up my spine. I found that I still have much work to do. It was like I had been hiding many ailments, many blockages behind me, on my back, by just focusing on my front.

I think maybe this is what people call your "shadow" in some spiritual contexts?

Since realizing this and beginning to take my meditations to focus on chakras with a perception there behind me. These past few days have been greatly happier for me. Really, I no longer have any of the worrisome feelings that had stayed with me since my last acid trip. Or atleast, it feels like there in control now.

Just thought I'd share... if you do energized mediations, be sure your not just focusing on one side of the point.

 

I have a few questions for you rygoody, but since I can't PM you for another few posts I guess I'll have to post here so you can hopefully get my attention xD I know I said that wrong, but I'm too lazy to backspace.

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