all too true. most people mean well. i just find making things, putting things together, figuring out how, that sort of thing, usually more interesting then people. affection is good. still can't really take the place of figuring things out and making things. everyone has their own experience of people and of other things, and i just usually find the other things more interesting.
Im gonna be taking some Amanita Muscaria soon, tommarrow in fact. Im gonna figure some stuff out spiritually, internally and figure out what the fuck is up with people. Cause I cant just keep thinking like this, I need to figure out whats going on. Found the sneaky little buggers on hallows eve. The perfect time for reaping in harvest. Blood moons on the horizon. Life is chaotic and on the brink of a very cold winter. All is as it should be.
hmmmm....what is it you want to figure out? You can find your own truths by taking something, perhaps....and I have no idea what Amanita Muscaria is.....sounds like a mushroom....but other people's truths?....that is dubious if looking in your own mind. maybe ask whoever you don't know wtf is up directly instead of roundaboutly.....I will always give it to those who ask straight. Comfort comes from truth and if not comfort, at least freedom....
confidence i think. adult levels of confidence are something i've some how never been able to develop. fortunately i don't require to be loved. nor hated. nor even noticed. affection is good. but my age with my life i'm way past expecting to find it.
Strange, I could have sworn I made a response nearly two days ago. Yeah, a mushroom. A real good one. Hopefully I can find truth from it. I have never felt like this in my entire life and its fucking loud. Real fucking loud.
this also helps. i haven't had that much problem with that actually. no more then i would imagine anyone else has. i just think people would be more interesting if they were stranger in a friendlier way. but even if they were, i don't see my own experience of living as much in terms of people, as of places, nature, and some of the things people make.
