Chris: are there people who aren't Asian in your school or area? I don't mean to sound racist, but in my area the Asians kinda hung out with the other Asian kids, and unless you were Asian, or already knew one of them, you weren't all that likely to be accepted. Maybe try talking to someone of your ethnicity? Or are you Asian? I mean, you talked about Asian guys playing table football, and an Asian girl who called you a loser.... try talking to some non-Asians... see how that goes. Tell the councellor exactly how you feel. They can't help unless you are honest with yourself and with them. Don't worry about looking or feeling stupid... you are only stupid if you don't get the help you need. And quit being such a freaking killjoy! There are good things in the world... find them. Read a good book. Go to a movie. Talk a walk in a park. Get out of the headspace you are currently living in and find some joy in your life!