patterns and Visions 4 weeks later

I used to do heavy LSD sessions. I took it every week for months.
I think it was worth it and the lessons learned are very interesting. But It was kinda dangerous and I don't recommend it to anyone.

Every time I took It my train of thought would continue where I left of.. This led to some really profound realizations because I could continue the earlier trip with a fresh, rested mind
But after a while I hit a wall.
I got stuck with a thought. It was actually implanted into my brain while tripping. A thought that I don't want to say because I don't want to infect anyone with it.
Things got out of hand, And I got delusional. Because of this thought.

This is the reason why I don't use lsd now.
And I feel like I don't need it.. I have nothing to trip about. I'm still trying to figure things out. and I have no space for more information. at the moment. I'm still organizing my mind.


Oh and I did revert back to childhood. I'm more malleable, programmable and open for the incoming signals..
Isn't that what being a kid is all about?

Bless!!

 

It's the increased programmability that harms those with more schizoid minds and allows for the prevalence of child soldiers in the world. It's a double edged sword!

I agree dope about not knowing what growth is; we are still so new at this psychedelics game, and even this being human thing.

 

Just wanted to comment bc I have disassociation, grandeur delusions, reversion to a childlike mentality, depressive tendencies and mild hppd. Also made me realise I needed to make major changes, but also made me very existential or maybe made me more aware of how existential I was behind the scenes. It is annoying at best, and very disturbing at worst. If you're an overly anxious person like me it only takes one nightmare trip to really shake you up.
Appreciate the insight of your posts, Mr. Writer.


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