Ran into some legal problems. Worst case is jail, but probably won't happen, most likely probation in this scenario. Best case is dismissal, since this is my first drug charge ever, it's a possibility. If no probation, and thus no tests, and a dismissal, I WILL be tempted to use again. Debating as to whether I want to do this. Also thinking about not using opiates and just a last hurrah with a stimulant, perhaps IV meth with some yay or something. Last time I did some ice, I could still function and work actually. Maybe this is all a bad idea and I should stay clean. Just saying my thoughts here. Maybe it's a sign from God to quit for good.
burned my finger with propane and lighter fluid, hurt fucking hurt. tried again, hurt really fucking hurt.
Yeah, this is a time to take a break. If you get probation you'll be tested on a regular basis. You didn't say what they got you with and how much. From what you're saying it sounds like they don't have much of a case. Even if they dismiss it though, you should chill out for awhile. If it's local cops they know you now.
Take a break bud. It will feel a lot better nodding once all this has passed! Think of saving that last hurrah as a celebration after instead. At least that's what I would do
All of you, words of wisdom friends. Work is actually getting me pretty high without using anything right now. Feels pretty good!
Just want to add you may think you can work fine when your lit but you probably look tweaked out to everyone else. It's really common for drug users not to realize how they actually appear. I've thought I looked normal and then people have asked me why I'm falling asleep or that I looked fucked up.
I hear ya Murgatroid. On H or weed, yes, I am pretty obvious. I went to work on just speed, and I was on the ball, nobody noticed anything I even asked later, they said that I looked totally normal. Probably the only drug I would do at work. But, not for now.
H? That one is obvious, esp. around my parents, slurred speech, changed voice, etc. Crazy as though it may seem, I have a bag of speed. My initial court date and urine test is on Wednesday, my first test was clean, so it is only random tests instead of weekly ones. Planning on doing just ONE nice shot early in the morning on Thursday before a business breakfast, followed by a morning-brunch lap swim at the pool. Should be pretty normal by lunch, maybe still somewhat high. Just wondering how noticeable it would be around my parents. Would be out of my system in 3-4 days, so in plenty of time for another test. I went to work right after a shot of speed and appeared normal to everyone. I used to take Ritalin for ADD, so I am used to that and I feel like I can handle the speed okay, especially since I won't be back around my parents until about 3-4 hours after my dose. But, not smoking any herb, doing H or any coke or anything, those are waay to obvious and the ganja stays in my system too long. I'm not even drinking right now. So, it looks like the speed can be my only guilty pleasure right after a test.
Bingo, wondering if the old saying "Never Trip alone, find a friend" or something to that affect, has anything to do with the above? Sorry, just a bit of sarcasm!
