oh god this hurts so bad

I cant even imagine.

 

i dont get why some of u think this is funny. i happen to be taking this very seriously, and if ur gonna make light of it then get the fuck out. and whoever said i was being dramatic, FUCK YOU GET THE FUCK OUT. i didnt ask for any of that bullshit i came here to vent, so anyone who thinks my b/f shud crawl ina ditch and die can go fuck themselves.

 

It is never smart to date junks. Let this be a lesson for you.

 

Wow, in the other thread, I said to walk away and everybody got pissy...

Tunes change, I suppose...

 

Quote "if you're going this route, take care of yourself first. do NOT enable him to reach his contact. he's going to do his thing. give him no money, no phone, nothing but food, no joke. get your sleep, take nothing, find your true friends and family, and anchor yourself. it's gonna be a terrible blow."
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My bro was flat out on the stuff for ten years - after repeatedly trying top stop and relapsing the only way he got free was to break those contacts and asociations - literally he completely moved out of the area and has never been back due to the fear of seeing that person, that place which may be a trigger.
IF YOU CAN and if he's serious about it move away, otherwise he's gonna see temptation everywhere - good luck

 

Yeah, if you stay with him, do not let him borrow money. And if he hurts you or takes your money, you really really must gtfo of there.

 

There was no humor in my thread.

He is going to die.

The heroin of today is more insidious than the heroin of even 10 years ago.

The vast majority of it today is synthetic and it is cut with very dangerous chemicals.

If you think I was being mean to you...GROW THE FUCK UP!

I had the joy of watching 2 friend die becase of it.

It was really joyful for me to see the results of what happened.

With the girl I knew, I was in the hospital watching her die. Apparently some veins around her brain ruptured.

What a fun way to die.

She always told me that she was going to live for fucken ever.

He is going to die. Regardless of what you do. Only he can kick this addiction. And as we have seen he does not want to.

Dump him now. Walk away and do not look back.

Again GROW THE FUCK UP! HE IS GOING TO DIE.

 

yeah, i had to leave EVERYTHING behind. which wasn't hard, it was southern california, after all.

 

i'm really sorry to hear about that.. i know how you feel.

 

only when he was in mississippi was he able to stay clean. i think he shud go back there. his sister lives within walking distance from his house and shes his number one enabler. she used to do it with him all the time back in the day. now she just doesnt wanna see him hurting so she takes him to go get it. i kno she means well, but she needs to stay the fuck away from my b/f if he ever wants to get better.

 

You are enabling, too. By giving him comfort.

 

most importantly, he needs to want to get better.

doesn't sounds like it here...

 

he does want to get better. i know he does. its just so hard.

 

Does he go to NA? And you do you go to Alanon?

 

my brother in laws brother is hooked on heroin. Its very hard to get off that shit and very painful. I have seen the withdrawls and it isnt pretty. He goes through spurts where he is clean for a while then he gets right back on that shit. Lets see, he stole from his great grandma, hit my sister in the face, punched my niece in the stomach, stole my sisters car, locked the keys in it, with about $1000.00 worth of shit in it, broke the window out and was ultimately arrested. Real nice guy right? He seems to get around it no matter where he goes and seems to hook up with those type of people.

Like many people have stated, he isnt himself and wont be himself until he really wants to get clean and stay clean. And from the sounds of it, he doesnt want to get clean really. He may THINK he wants to, but his actions state different.

I am sorry you are going through this, but damn girl, you have tried your hardest to help him and it isnt working unfortunately. Mayber a home will help him if he can get into one, I think (or so I have heard) that they have pretty extensive programs for Heroin addicts, I really dont think its a habit that any individual can do without the proper help.

I realize you love him, but you have to love yourself right now and think of you instead of him.

I hope you dont feel that I am preaching to you, cuz I certainly dont mean too.
If you need to chat or just vent hit me up through pm.

 

No he does not want to get better or he would.

He says that so you will not dump his worthless ass.

 

this is not the best decision. when he said he wanted to quit for you, you should have known he is not in the right frame of mind to quit. he needs to want to quit for him. ur getting trapped into one of the worst situations around. he's letting you experience guilt about leaving and not 'helping' him quit. its best for you to get out of this situation while you have no kids, addictions, or diseases. then if he can go clean for a year or so, u can think about goin back.

 

if he gave a fuck about you, he would either quit or tell you to leave. since he is doing neither, you have only to assume that he cares a whole hell a lot more about himself.

 

supporting a herion addict eh... future is lookin' bright there, sparky

you're choice.... you seem bright enough to know that one day he'll be dead.. and you'll be wondering why you spent the last decade worrying and trying to help a lost cause... hope it doesn't leave you too jaded and angry :cheers2:

 

my mom wants me to got to Alanon. what is it exactly?