Occurrences

My mild(?) case of agoraphobia is about the same as ever. There are places I want to go--places that I should go--but just can't make myself go. It's frustrating sometimes. I miss out on being around and / or meeting new people and actually having some fun.

 

Number one son and wife moved to the country outside Eugene. 14 acres, big house and out buildings. I've decided to stay in town.

 

Maybe find a cat with two eyes this time...

 

I very rarely reminisce, probably because a lot of it is a blur or lost in time and space forever but......... recently been speaking with a guy I haven't seen for forty odd years and all he talks about is shit from way back. I am far too polite to ask if does not have a fucking life now (which he clearly does by the way).

 

Although my book carefully covers half the math and physics to describe linguistic analysis, the third chapter has finally revealed, after fifteen years, how to connect pattern matching with biology and physics, Maslow, and even color psychology. Little kids are more attracted to the color red, and exciting things, while adults prefer blue, which doesn't demand too much of their attention. They are trading efficiency for focus, similar to the double slit experiment.

 

I have decided to avoid him at all costs. I had some really really serious words with him re the appalling situation in Palestine. If he spouted "Israel has a right to defend itself" one more time I really would not have been responsible for my actions.

 

No apology required man. It's all cool!

 

The next song is an excellent exemplar of the progression I would go through from sober to drunk when in my teens and twenties. Sometimes causing complete CHAOS!! Did I give a shit---no I did not. Others did.The chaotic energy is still in there--buried deeply.

 

One friend left in my home town--Gail. 3 years younger than I --all the rest are dead.

 

Son and wife went to see Jim Jefferies the other day ---his birthday. My sons , that is.

 

Nothing much occurs these days. Alas--85 and friends and family gone.(except for my kids) I don't feel like a lot of old people who say=="I'd never go back"----I'd go back in a minute. Even just 20 years ago when I was at full strength and still working. I miss working with my boys who now carry on with our roofing company. It's never slowed down , even through all the covid bullshit--I mean if you need a roof---you need a roof! It's a trade that will never be automated--human hands and expertise required. I finally made great grampa now and it's great to have a baby to play with! My life has gone from exciting to mundane to simple------so it goes. I'm glad to still be here---I hear dead lasts quite a while! I've enjoyed the forums for over 20 years and boy---have I seen them come and go!! You never know when your time is up, but I hope none of you have to put up with the current political situation for much longer. It' soooo tiring. Woulda' been nice to sit down with a buncha you good forum folks and have a beer.

 

It would indeed.

 

Be nice if someone would get an actual get-together with forum folks. I think I mentioned an earlier phony get together that happened some years back. That was a pisser.

 

It is unfortunate that those of us who genuinely would like to meet live oceans apart.