number two

no.. never works like i want it too


and there will be no burning of the journal.. lots of inportant info in there

 

You should never ever blame yourself, you have to know that you are a wonderful, caring, giving person and its the other person and not you.. I know things happen in life that make you question yourself, but never ever let anyone do that to you... You should never lower your head or never feel unworthy of love just because some idiot is to blind to see whats right in front of him.. Know that you will make someone extremely happy one day and not to let someone make you think less..Just be strong and hold your head high and be happy with who you are and never doubt that...

 

i'm trying.. just gets harder each time.. and i really liked this one and i thought he had liked me too.. guess it all doesn't really matter anyways now does it?


i don't think i belong here

 

*cackles* I think you have an admirer Boogabaah

 

this is so unbelieveably true... it's not your fault, you aren't to blame miss Boogabaah, it's the other folks being asshats

 

I can only imagine how hard it is..but you need to realize its not you or the person that you are and never doubt yourself...

 

well then i'm an asshat magnet..

 

i'm just confused.. maybe if this was the first time i wouldn't be so.. mad now..


but like i said.. it keeps happening.. and it's got to be me. i try and pick different types of men.. but no .. all the same in the end

maybe i just need to be a jerk and use men.. i should be a gold digger.. "gimme your money" because i'm just.. confused

 

So that's how you got stuck being friends with me

 

true


i need to just be single.. which sucks too.. but you know i just can't trust anyone.. i need to not be so open and free with myself.. people just take advantage of me and it's making me a very bitter person

this isn't how things are supposed to be

 

Just because something keeps happening doesnt mean its who you are as a person...
Things happen for reasons that are unexplainable...All I can say is just not to blame yourself cause that will just cause you more self-doubt and more confusion and it will just eat you up inside..

 

thats already happening..


i don't want to be unhappy.. i don't want to be single.. but i don't want to be lied to either

i just need to back off.. and be with me for now

i should have known.. i think back now and all the signals.. i was right..
he lied even when i confronted him with my fears.. just not fair to me at all

 

hmmmmmmm life sucks then you die

 

You have to balance wanting happiness against the possibility that you'll become a bitter old woman with 37 cats and a shotgun full of rock salt...

C'mon Boog. No one has said it so I will. EVERYONE goes through this period of feeling like they are totally getting dicked around. Anyone who says that they have never gone though a phase of 3 to 7 morons who successively broke their heart either married their high school sweetheart or are LYING TO YOU. Male or female, doesn't matter.

So yeah, take some time, be with yourself, get comfy with being alone for a bit and your prince will come along.

 

yes i realise this.. just a bit weird that it keeps happening


i really liked him too.. i'm stupid plain and simple. he used me and i let him. he KNEW what he was doing and did it anyways. maybe i should start doing the same.. seems to be the thing to do around here.


i'm done