No Alarms And No Surprises Please

I realised yesterday that I am now having my fourth breakdown.

I do not have any overt psychotic symptoms at the moment, but I think I have fundamentally gone insane.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u5CVsCnxyXg

 

Let's make this a club.

 

Are you in it?

 

Been there, done that

 

I'm trying to get better, and I feel like I was a little bit hasty when I said we should form a club. I don't think I can handle that much excitement, to be honest.

 

Sorry to hear that this is happening. You seem to have pretty good self-awareness of the problem, and that can be very helpful.

Is there anything that you can do to lower your stress level? Meditating, or just trying to clear your mind might be helpful.

Contacting any friends or family that are supportive, and especially a counselor, could be helpful.

In addition to getting psychiatric meds, I recommend (as usual) trying acupuncture and chinese herbal medicine.

You are not battling this alone JT, we are with you. Hope things can get better soon!

 

Thanks newbie-one.

I'm seeing my G.P. this afternoon.

I was thinking yesterday that I may need some haloperidol. Then I thought I may even need some Depixol.

I really hope it's not that serious. I pumped myself full of lorazepam yesterday. Popped one this morning.

Just about maintaining an even keel at the moment.

 

Haldol is excellent. That's what I take. I would also avoid alcohol.

 

I finally realised on Monday that I deliberately do it to myself.

I'm a good listener, but I feel that I don't get enough attention.

So every now and then, I deliberately drive myself insane and end up in hospital for months,
so everyone can then say "Poor JT." Not a good life strategy.

I was thinking over the weekend, "I'm testing myself to destruction here, why am I testing myself to destruction?"

Why would anyone want to test themselves to destruction? To destroy themselves obviously.

I think I have two saving graces. One is that I've finally realised what I've been doing and why.

The other is that I've incidentally finally found love within myself. I think that if you have love within yourself,
you cannot completely destroy yourself, because love is indestructible.

So I am trying to hold on to that thought.

 

Your Heading In The Right Direction......I Wish you Well......



Cheers Glen.

 

It sounds like you are learning and developing the ability to deal with your problems. This is a good sign.

 

I really hate to hear that you're going through this, JT. At the same time, it sounds like you have an excellent grasp on the situation, and the ability to stop it before you get all the way to the break-down.

I'm so glad to hear you have found love (and/or peace) for yourself within yourself, for that is essential for good mental health - at least I think so.

It also sounds like you have good knowledge of how to head this off, and what meds can help. Its good you're able to go ahead and go to the doctor, that you have (it sounds like) ready access to a GP, someone that can help.

I'll keep you in my thoughts.

Blessed be.

 

lol I made this 10yrs ago.

 

I love you orison, that is absolutely fucking hilarious

 

^^In fact I may even get the T-shirt

 

Thanks to you orison, I think I am now closer to fine,

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NzwVvZHqEkI

 

I just wanted to say thank so much to everyone as well for your support and love.

I'm now feeling that I hopefully really do have a way out of this.

 

I think I've done all the damage now.

Now it's recovery.

I've done a lot of damage.

It will be a long recovery.

 

.................



Cheers Glen.