The only panic attack I ever had was when I somehow sunk into a nihilist mode and I did not like the feeling.Life may be objectively pointless,but I'm not having any of it--I still care.
Maybe that's why my family and I always--everyday go for the laughs.Happiness and/or silliness will stave off the horrors of life.Some times you can just know too much.
well maybe i have a bit different idea of what nihilism is for me. I personally don`t find a reason why should i care about things that can only restrict me from the treasures the world has to give me. That can only brainwash you and make you think there are limits to what you should do and what you shouldn`t. Make you a false point of view that there is "good and evil", that there is "right and wrong" when there isn`t. Its all a choice that leads to different paths -no good, nor evil just different and all of them has something to give. and when u care to much , you think to much and thats when doubts are born, fear of the unkown is born and i belive this is the main factor to stop your spiritual development if there is one at all.
Too much is never good. But because good and evil and right and wrong are interpretations of the human mind it doesn't serve any purpose to care about those things? I don't see how they have to hold you back at all. Perhaps it's more about finding your own opinion of right and wrong then just following society's standards of it (since THOSE may hold you back indeed). Stop caring about right or wrong and numb yourself down when it's about those matters will not develop you much spiritually in any way, I think.
i don`t think you should make a difference between good and evil. Those are man maid concepts anyway. Just like the illusion of time. man is an animal and it should follow its cravings and desires without any second thought. If it apples to you do it, don`t think about it, don`t infect your mind with second thoughts about it. if u have thought about it once that`s enough the second thing is action