Need prayers

Me few years ago with my dad at woodtick festivals that’s was before I got put on oxygen

 

Me sitting with my dad

 

My dad has passed away

 

Sorry for your loss, jenn...

 

Very sorry to hear that. I hope you are okay.

 

I am deeply sorry for your loss.

 

I’m not handling this I’m afraid too go too sleep iv been having nightmares I’m so afraid I’ll have them tonight again maybe I’ll stay up all night

 

61 years old threw it all away

 

I miss my dad so much I wanna be with him

 

Hugs Jen

What can we do to help?

 

I can’t deal with my mom she is crying making it all about her wants people too feel sorry for her I had too hold her hand why she faked cry she makes everything about her I can’t fucking deal with her I’m try too grieve the loss of my dad I can’t be a shoulder for her too cry on she puts her health before mine I have chronic respiratory failure 2 lower collaps lungs that will not heal I have nebs too do everyday I am not too be around anyone that’s sick my mom has a respiratory infection she used my neb machine and neb medicine without asking me so I go too do my breathing treatment after I’m done she says I was so sick last night I did your nebs it’s too late too sanitize I’m gonna get sick and she doesn’t care

 

I wanna see my dad I know he is not suffering anymore doesn’t make it less easy

 

You will, Jenn... You'll see him again, when it's time.

Don't try to make that time shorter, be strong. It's what your dad would want, isn't it? To be strong, do the best you can... every day.

He will always be there, in your memory... Make that memory live as long as it can.

 

Your right I know he wouldn’t want me too sit and cry it doesn’t seem real then I have this surgery coming up I’m so scared I won’t survive this surgery

 

My sister invited me too come stay with her she lives in Missouri this will be first time traveling by myself I had such a fear since iv been on oxygen I went all night without getting oxygen at the casino I did just fine

 

You might want to tell the doctor. Depending on what your mom has, they might prescribe some antibiotics or antivirals to make sure you don't catch what she has

Hugs Jen

 

Thank you for the words