My wife discovered that I Livestream while she's at work

For the past few months, i have been left to my own devices while my wife is at work. Some of that time is naturally spent masturbating.

One day, i got the bright idea of streaming it, maybe someone will tip me money for something that I do already anyway.

For months, i would go online and it became much more than just jerking off. I would chill on cam for hours and just talk with my chat room and got regular visitors, several of whom seem to have become emotionally attached to me. Also, i would go into the other models' rooms with same demographics and interact in their chat rooms as well. I've become a staple and a big part of a small-ish streamer community.

Fast forward to this past Wednesday, i was drinking and apparently after a certain point I passed out with my phone on my chest, open to one of my buddies jerking off. Well, my wife found me and asked me about it during dinner Thursday evening.

I told her that I do it and make small bits of money, and she called me a prostitute and said it was a form of cheating.
She was mostly mad about me keeping it as a secret from her, because I knew it was wrong in the first place. She asked me how I would feel if she did the same thing. I know I would be angry and betrayed if she did it without my knowledge, but honestly, I'd be ok with it in the open. She doesn't feel that way though. She does know that i have some desire to do lightweight gay stuff, and has for 15 years.

I don't even know why im posting this, because I know that I'm the asshole here, but i need to sort my feelings somehow.

 

I am guessing she feels betrayed that you are having to resort to doing such things.

With hindsight ,I would have consulted her beforehand and perhaps sort out any reservations .

Now I am guessing your in the Dawg House and will need to win her over.

That will take time with plenty of humble pie.

Good luck

 

Oh dear. Now you are going to have to stop, and make more effort with your wife.

 

The positives I see are; one you're both being honest about what happened and your feelings, and two she loves you because she cares about the situation. If she just said "whatever" and left, that would be a lot worst. Honesty is a huge first step, and as Captain said time heals wounds.

 

thanks folks. The topic hasn't been brought up again since the incident, and life seems to be going on as normal.

I don't know if i'd call it "resorting" to anything. If anything, I'd get all worked up during the stream, and then when she'd get home, I'd jump her bones and she gets to reap all the benifits. I made sure to time things around the refractory period and other aspects

If our relationship did become unhealthy like that, she wouldn't leave but we'd just live in misery. She's already stated that years ago

 

I am sure you will turn this around . You just need to be a good boy for a while