How it's good to have a 9h/day job, without any masturbation and come home hard, just to edge to death until my dick start to scream "Please...! Need orgasm!" (Warning: non-ative speaker, and, this story ends sad. So sad that there will be no tl;dr, please read it, I need. ) I'm young 19 y/o and I'm like a traditional classy well behaved boy. After years of jerking off (religiously all days since 11 y/o aprox. 1-3 hours), and also after a month vacancy basically used to play with myself, was a great shock spend 9h just working, and even in the very right hours that I usually spent to jerk off. On my first day, yesterday, I was excited in all possible ways, the desire to jerk off made me eletric. (Even working on a big company, our bathroom is a shit show and impossible to stay there to jerk). In this first first day, when I came home, I wanted to jerk off so hard, that in the bus (1 hour and 20 minutes travel) I started to get somehow sick, I started to shake. Let's say I was not feeling good with all that desire to jerk. I keep myself, in some sense, calm, because I knew what was going on. My body just hard wanted to play with me. Arriving next to my neighborhood, I did the impossible of lostimg my way home, which increased the travell a little. But didn't stoped me, and I was home at last. Commemorating happy I went to my bedroom, and... I did it... I opened pornhub, YES! I Whached my pornography! Just typing the first letter made me full-horny! And I edged! In minutes my dick was clamming and begging cum, asking the heavens to have it! My load of cum jumped out of like a shot, that almost got my eye. The attempt to shot me was clearly a try of revenge from my dick. I'm a dick abuser. I do not jerk it, I torture it. I have the hability of holding orgasm by weeks. I'm a certified edger. And I got this degree because extends the time I want to watch porn, but my dick complains so much, and bad for him... More porn to me. There was the next day, and again the same thing. But I was a little smarter. In the Edging University I learned a discipline of watching porn without jerking off, practiced that for moths, but you know... Dick complains so much, at some point I went back to normal masturbation ending in milk . In the bus of the second day, I remembered the days of the PNJD (Porning No Jeking Discipline) at Edging University. And I got a smart phone hooray! I just started to consume the sweet pornography from my favorite NSFW Sub-reddit (guess which one is :3). I worried about cumming while watching, even not touching my dick (happened a couple of times during my first weeks of PNJD). But no it was delicious non-stop satysfing porn consuming, the delightful comom porn of tits, naked girls, bikini girls, fucking, others masturbating, all delicious... How about other people on the train? Well, no one sided with me in the train, just a hot blonde girl and an very old woman in the couple of chairs on the other side of the bus. On my back, no one (although the back of the bus-chair would completely hide me. And there I was. Hided phone with porn under my coat, diagonally against the chick and the woman of the other side. And the feeling of no one knowing of my perv-sweet act was wonderful! I even started to zoom in on the photo-porns, just to appreciate more, I even told to my dick: "I'll do it again, motherfucker!" was a perfect feeling. Until... I fast glanced at the window behind me, and yes... Porn was being, completely and clearly, reflected on the window. I closed the porn instantly, and then looked at the two feminine beings next to me. The hot chick doesn't gave a fuck. Doing her on things on her phone. She probably realized me porning, thought I was a crappy fuck, and moved on. The woman... The old one was side staring me, disgusted, with reproval and even anger. With her crossed arms, she appeared to be like looking at a well know locked down thief. Every pussy, every tit, every fuck... All streed. People looking at me more because of my classy cloths and behavior. Never as a perv porn consumer, something I enjoy being, but hate to be discovered. I became so sad, really sad, like I was just condemned to the jail... How sad was that travel, when I arrived home, family noted that I wasn't excited happy from my first job like yesterday... Please, I need encouragement words, am horrible. If you thought that story as kinky and exciting, maybe your manifestation on the comments will make me feel better (at least someone bacame turned on by my pain, it's consolation...), I understand you, but I'm devastated to have lived that... Don't laugh on me.
I feel your pain brother. Many times iv almost been caught watching porn. Stay strong. Things will look better. Even though she saw you watching doesn’t mean you should stop. Just watch the reflections more closely next time and be more careful especially out in public.
