my first dance with lucy...

cool. I figured it was something not unique to me since it was so simple and so unrelenting in my closed-eyes. on that note, there was a lot that I also felt that others may have outright seen. I dont know if has to do with the innate makeup of the person or maybe it's just what the person needs at the time, but some things that people see on the trip is something that another will feel or be imbued with. I was expected to "see" vortex imagery, but instead I felt it, was inside of I, and didn't even realize it was vortex until a couple weeks later, and that's only because I kept feeling it when I closed my eyes and released my identity. i'm sure there's plenty that I felt or was shown that i'm still totally clueless about.

 

So the aforementioned visuals had been fairly constant when I closed my eyes. Normally when I soberly close my eyes, I see some fuzzy imagery; always have. But they were mostly random discharges. After I had smoked weed, the imagery was enhanced. And now after lsd, it's really taken off. I can have quasi-adventures by closing my eyes and meditating. The humanoid in the x thing was not part of some random sequence. It had a consistent presence, and appeared fixed in other objects I visualized.


I didn't think too much of it, but the visuals gradually evolved and I sensed that there was some kind of lesson to be learned, but as in the spirit of an lsd trip I didn't want to force meaning onto something.

The x-figure wasn't the focal point anymore, but still had an obvious presence. It had been fixed into some sorta living vehicle, which I attempted to illustrate. The attachments aren't exactly as I saw them, but the essence is there.

Figure 1 has the x strapped around a floating entity. The four mounds of that entity were a foundation of this new evolving creature. this image was relatively fixed and stable, and was smooth and broad.

Figure 2 was more amorphous, the lumps in the background were pulsating in and out. It was comprised of different colors and seemed to be melting the membrane of the first entity, as if shedding skin and forming new skin. It was generally a volatile and changing creature.

Figure 3 was a developed and functional entity, but didn't really appear much more refined than how I've illustrated it. The two arms were constantly swirling around, like a windmill. The creature moved forward in a linear fashion, swirling its arms as it went. It didn't seem to be doing anything with the swirling arms, but was convinced otherwise.

As the figure prevailed in my vision, I kept thinking he was a warrior, because the x figure looked like straps that carry swords or guns, and I had mostly forgotten that the x was an entity also. I remembered that I had been seeing an x, but forgot that the intersection of the x was a focused manifestation of infinite life, embodied in some kind of entity. Even I, the observer, forgot what that x was, and instead thought it was for weapons, and for friction.

The crude-looking humanoid figure would do a lot of different things, and appear in a lot of different places, and sometimes my mind would zoom in on the inner journeyman, the fellow at the intersection point of the x, and that leads me to,

Figure 4. The head of this entity was free to do what it wanted. It could become multiple heads of different colors, each doing different things. It could open up at the top and an interchange of infinity would occur. Often it would try to tear its limbs from the x-vehicle, but they were always fixed. But the head was always doing something, and it seemed like the whole universe was inside the head, and it was a very bright focal point in my vision, sometimes becoming brighter than everything else I was seeing, and everything but the one point dissolved into a white flash, but I could always see the point. Then the point would rematerialize matter around it, and as it finished I saw that point of light was encased in the jewel on the necklace of a woman. But it wasn't beign worn as a necklace, it was being worn around the back of her head as hair jewelry. I realized that The only person I had looked at from the front was the inner journeyman x-entity. The humanoids that encased it I only saw from the back.

I don't really need to type any interpretations. There probably isn't just one, but I've derived meaning from it, by allowing it to come to me.

 

You really need DMT as soon as its possible. Plenty of those stuff that you are questioning will be the answer itself. We really tend to complicate, the truth you are seeking for is simple, so simple that we can not understand it fully.

 

yeah for real. my wife doesn't like the idea of me making it myself, but she trusts me. she's about to get a raise and that's when i'm going to procure the ingredients as well as salvia and anything else that seems useful. the thing is, I didn't even know I was still seeking something, but these promptings seem to indicate otherwise. I think the x-journeyman is hungry for it while my clumsy physical self goes through the motions. i've mostly been telling myself that there is no ultimate answer, but that's when I feel divine energy nudging me forward.

I got the strong feeling last weekend that it's time I consider another trip. I was in Portland acquiring herb and my friends had what they thought was a half a vial of acid, but it had gone bad. The bodyload was there then it just ended. I was on my way back to Seattle when those guys (C and J) found some real acid; they took three liquid drops each and tripped hard, but not too well. I assumed I wasn't meant to trip with them in their setting, so I'm going to drop these two remaining windowpane doses this saturday night and do a sensory-deprivation trip all alone in the dark, with earplugs and a slumbermask. The weather shouldn't be too frigid that night so I can go outside if needed.

 

That's bitchn'. I can't wait to hear about!

 

Just remember, do it with no expectations. If becomes a bit boring (and it can when you are alone in the dark) try listening to some trance music, that increases your other sensors (other than common 5). I would suggest to you if you can find album Nothing last....but nothing is lost by Sphongle. I really feel you and I think that album can teach you a lot. At least it taught me almost everything I know. When you hear it for the first time on acid, you willknow what I mean.
Anyway, I wish you trip of your life!
p.s. let us know how it went.

 

best wishes, you'll have a blast!

 

what's DMT like shape?

is it anything like salvia?

 

I never tried salvia but DMT......... check here http://www.hipforums.com/forums/showthread.php?t=277912

 

you should try salvia sometime.

it's intensly spiritual.

almost brutal actually. totally destroys you and leaves you wondering what the hell happened.

 

Salvia certainly is an express train to wonderland. It hits you in seconds. I personally don't like the experience, as I couldn't get over being eaten by the room furnishings.

 

my salvia experience yielded no hallucinations, just deep and powerful internal realizations, so it was quite a powerful moment.

I can easily see why southern american cultures hold it as a sacred plant.

 

So I mentioned before about C and J tripping hard but not too well last weekend. Well that modest language could be applied to C, but not to J. Apparently his trip was awful at best. He tried avoiding negative thoughts (rather than accepting the negative thoughts and knowing that there is no good thought without bad thoughts), and just got into a worse and worse place. Judging everyone else's flaws and complaining that those who believe in the psychedelic experience are gullible and misled. he brought down C's trip significantly. These were remarks he made while still tripping, so I don't take them too seriously; he might think otherwise now. For all I know he might have realized that his current life circumstances were not suitable for an acid trip.


I don't mean to post personal matters or to speak about someone behind their back (I gave him the link to this thread and I hopes he reads all this), it's just so surreal and disappointing to see that someone had such a cruddy experience with lsd. I sense such a solid yet underlying divinity within J, he just doesn't seem to sense it himself.

This sentiment might have affected my planned trip for this evening, but I don't think it will. there were certain difficulties that preceded my first trip-an unusual amount and acuteness actually- which led me to believe that i was being trained to rise above the drag of the ego-reality to learn how to trip extraordinarily well.

There are many good accounts of lsd that I've read, probably because those who trip well get excited and want to tell everyone about it. Others, J included, have a miserable time and want to forget about it asap. Or they tell everyone how horrible lsd is. Fortunately what I read online is dominantly the first group.

It's still a bitter feeling though- seeing someone's attitude about something with such glorious potential and knowing that they came to that conclusion through direct personal experience, inside their own head. that's a hard reference to compete with, and confrontation is useless; all I can do is be meek an unassuming and show love and understanding. These disappointments I'm sure are inevitable for any enthused psychonaut.

So I'm still planning on my sensory-dep trip tonight way late. Ima follow Ancient Powers advice to avoid music and listen to the cosmic symphonies in innerspace, but I still want to follow shape's advice about keeping music handy in case I get bored. I looked up Sphongle on Rhapsody, but I couldn't find the song you mentioned, only some album called involver, and the artist's name was Sasha. I know I can't expect a certain thing just because someone mentioned it; I'm just trying to be open and not tie anything to my last trip or anyone else's. I'd appreciate any other tips y'all have :bigear:

 

Here is link for Sphongle: http://www.last.fm/music/Shpongle/Nothing+Lasts...+But+Nothing+Is+Lost

I think you can listen whole album for free.
Do whatever is your intention, just if you get a bit feeling that you are bored refresh it with some music.
Good luck,
I wish you all the best and don't forget to remember to enjoy!!!

 

thanks brother, for all that you've done.

I thought I'd be a bit nervous but I'm relaxed. Checked in with the parents on the phone, just like last time. I just don't want to be tempted to call them while I'm tripping, you never know. I'm starting to get drifty

 

Get of the computer and enjoy!
We'll talk on Monday or after, now...just ENJOY!

Love you and my spirit is with you!

 

ok now i found them on rhapsody- it's shpongle not sphongle i guess. I'm hooked up.

k i'm seriously getting off the comp now.

 

yowza. I think I will have a more difficult time putting this one into words. I can feel you, my brothers

 

I know you still can't find the words, but in general how did it go?

I know you did enjoy, I was with you with all my heart.
Didn't that music help a bit?

 

Yeah the music was coo, on comedown, but I think I'm weird with music on lsd. Since I'm a musician by nature, I can't help but dissect the music and lose my mind a bit. I usually need soft, sustained, one or two instrument melodies for the intense parts.

But wow this trip was unprecedented. I had no idea what to expect and I was absolutely annihilated into a state in which I sensed our universal nothingness and our universal importance. I found that the purpose of our current existence is to WONDER why we exist, for this wondering is what propels us into the very activites that create and sustain life. The raw natural energy of which we're made up, is such that in order for it to travel and function, it requires people to feel detached so they can be motivated to love and unite. We need to feel isolated and lonely in the universe, and all our efforts, struggles, victories, emotions, accomplishments are attempts at connecting to what we've been temporarily separated from. And the sum total of all human effort, is the equivalent of one small link in an infintely expansive geometric universal entity, and our link in that chain carries the pure energy of existence for what seems like a nanosecond. Everything we are, and it all results in passing on this energy for one universal moment, to the next in the series of links. That's the type of energy it is-so complete and powerful and all-inclusive that it takes everything we are just to help move it along.

I'll type more re: that when I can. Most of all it was a highly intimate trip in which i melded with the members of my immediate family. Funnily, when I was transcending with my wife, feeling like we comprised the yin and yang of all existence, dancing an eternal circular dance and becoming the same energy, that state was SHATTERED by the cry of my kid. It was similar to a pretrip vision in which I saw a vortex winding down, and when it hit the bottom it blew up in a flash of white light and a fetus arose from the point of re-entry. As it turns out, at about this same time, my wife's good friend gave birth to a baby that wasn't expected to come for another three weeks. It happened the same hour. I felt an amazing peace and sense of purpose when the link between my wife was broken by the crying infant, but didn't realize there was a new infant in the world until the next morning.:stunned: