today is my 2.5 year mark with my boyfriend. everything should be great, right? problem: i met a guy a while ago and we completely clicked. i found out he has fallen for me completely and is distressed over the fact that i'm not single... and in all honesty, i'm starting to believe i'm falling for him too. it's been so long since i've had that "new relationship" excitement with the butterflies and the magic and everything.. but with my current boyfriend, there's so much security. of course there are things that bother me about him, and in all honesty... i don't think i can see myself with him forever, but at the same time, i really don't know. we have such a history together and for so long our lives have revolved around each other; there's just so much security! he's always been there for me and every aspect of my life is somehow connected to him.. without him, i'd have to start all over again, and i don't know if i have it in me to do that. now.. this other guy, who i think i am truly falling for, ahhh.. there is so much about him that i absolutely love; i find him so attractive, we have so much in common, i enjoy being with him.. but that's just how it was when i first met my current boyfriend. i can't figure out what to do. maybe this is fate's way of telling me to leave my guy now and start fresh.. i mean, i'm so young.. (almost 18).. i should not be bogged down like this at such a young age; i should be experiencing and trying new things, right? but at the same time, the guy i'm with absolutely loves me and is so good to me, he'd do anything for me and truly cares for me so much. if i broke up with him for some new guy i think i might be falling for, he'd be so devastated and heartbroken that it would double the pain i felt from the separation. uughhhh... but if i stay with him, i'm not allowing myself to take a chance and experience someone new. fuck! i'm so confused.