meet a forum member?

to me it's either you trust me or you dont. period.

if you say you trust me, i can hang out with a person that happens to be male if i want and you should shut up. *shrugs* or else you are lying and dont trust me.

 

true...i look at life - the things i do, the people i meet as its happening for a reason. i don't understand why, mainly cuz i just don't try to understand it....i just go with the flow of things i guess

but i guess it boils down to, for me, is that i'm really really happy to be meeting lynsey and i think us meeting is for a reason...so maye something could have happened while driving - you don't know. but it could have. but now you can be more sure later on this month...

 

if i dont meet mike... *happyhippyflower* i will NEVER forgive myself.

can i truly explain that? no. but i have to and dan can bite me if he dont like it. ill tell him where im going and he can deal with it.

anyways when are you n lyns meeting?

 

yea, i wouldn't forgive myself if i didn't meet her...shes coming out april 19

 

oh but i can explain enough to say that mike and i consider each other family in some very weird way and that...
i dont often connect with people like i have with him. often? can count on three fingers. so if i dont meet him i will cut off my fingers *haha mike i know youll read this n i will.. okay, i wont..shut up*

i think part of the reason dan is all annoying about it is because im WAY TOO HONEST.

 

well, on the plus side, jealousy does usually mean that he at least still likes you, still wants you, wants to protect you (even if the things he wants to protect you from are completely in his head)

maybe you two can sit down and discuss privacy stuff, without letting it get into a big fight/screaming match (dunno if that's how you do stuff, just lots of folks I know tend to fight over itty bitty things, make it way bigger than it is and it turns out badly)

 

he basically told me that if i leave my conversations up here he's gonna read them

BUT THEN

he's gonna take me talking to my best guy friend saying "dont tease the trish"- okay that is something i said that he went off about... what context did i say it in? about not teasing me about seeing you the next day (like dont tease me if you cant go)

he was just like.. picking at stuff... talkign about double meanings. i told him i flirt sometimes. he needs to chill.

 

mmmmmmm you're cool as hell Chris

 

meeting a forum member:
lets see, i have met a few and each experience was different.
Honeysuckleblue was the first one i met. i drove over to her house thinking in my head the entire time, man i could be driving to my death. perhaps i am going to be hacked up in a thousand little pieces. the whole ride i thought that. but once i got there, i ran up to her gave her a big old hug. and well it was like we had known one another forever.
so that was a wonderful first experience that led to all my other ones. since then i met 7river, nirgal, swirledmoonpie, dhs, sylvanlightning and dave(i forget what his screen name was) with 7river, nirgal and swirledmoonpie...i had had a campover and all them came as well as honeysuckleblue....so since we are so intense in our forums and share many heartbased things, and were camping on our mama with the beautiful stars above, this was a wonderful experience it was spiritual in fact, esp since i was going through my divorce.
dhs, well he had become my bestest buddy. he came through where i live and we decided to meet up for dinner and then he would come and hang out with me and Arianna for a while before he made his way down to Florida. with him i was nervous, which is so very funny to me since we had become the best of buddies and he knew more about me and my hearts workings than anyone. but i relaxed as time went by. i love this dude to death and always will. we've met up a couple times and i am glad to have him in my life
dave, i dated for a while actually. he drove from rhode island to maryland 4th of July 2004 to meet me after we had spent 10 hours on the phone previous. it was wild. and holy hell i was a nervous wreck when i met him to. i was school age like. covering my face and being so shy. we were already romantically involved, but when you start a romance on here and you meet, its different. for me at least, cause it was like, oh man, am i what he expected or is he dissappointed. things are over with us now.
sylvanlightning....i met him for his birthday last year. i was so afraid he was going to hurt me too. he was the nicest person i ever met and i didnt trust that. i was so scared he was psycho...but i drove 6 hours to north carolina to spend the time with him anyway. he had already exclaimed his love for me and well i was so scared. again the dissapointment factor. i was so nervous actually and took a while to warm up to him. i have serious intimacy issues. anyway, here is it April 3 and on April 9 i will be beginning my life in North Carolina with the greatest partner, friend, listener, lover and all around laid back real person that i have ever met in all of my life.

so meet the forum members of your desire. if something tells you that you want to meet them there is absolutely a reason

 

It is nerwracking and the expectation factor...like geez am I what they though I am, how they thought I'd smell, do I kiss the way they thought I did ya know? I'm really photogenic too so I'm always nervous about that because I think I look totally different in pics even though people tell me I'm crazy for thinking that.

I'm glad you found love. It's such a hard thing to capture nevermind make work.
I am really nervous, my tummy is hurting I'm gonna have to booze it up on the plane lol just to chill out.
Just seeing how what happened with you and Dave and now how happy you are it makes me think that no matter how dvestatingly painful are experiences are and how much they rip us apart they all happen for a reason and when we realize that reason we can sew ourselves back up...and add some more batting in there (as happiness always makes me fat lol).

 

of course everything happens for a reason and dave prepared me for andrew. i am eternally grateful for that.
am i scared about the move and such.....hell yeah...but that is my head trying to mess with me. my heart is so full whenever he and i connect. noone has ever understood me as he does. when i need someone, noone has ever made me feel as whole as he does. we were meant. we have some very fundamental differences in personality..but those are perfect. it allows us to integrate and see different ways. and my instincts...well they tell me i am going home

 

instincts are all we have to listen to and we will always make the right decision. There are so many times in my life where I did not follow them and just now I have finally learned to listen to that voice in my head (or get some commmon sense lol).

All of my past relationships ended up horribley bitter, except with my ex fiance he just says he can't see many anymore if I'm not going to be with him and it breaks my heart he deserves to be so happy and I feel like I wasted 6 years of his life...god I feel horrible for that.
My other relationships have been for the most part very lust driven and passionate, love and hate. Besides the one I'm in now my ex fiance was the only man I was with who was also my friend and confidant and even in that one I couldn't tell him everything.
I guess I still have so much to learn. I'm book smart but I don't have a freaking clue about love or life sigh.
I'm happy for your move it will be good for Arianna to have a sister too.

 

i only think i know 1 person on here. but i knew him before this. i might know some other people on here, but i dont know that i know them

 

it will be wonderful for Arianna. it will be great for Sylvi as well. it will be good for all of us. its just gonna be a hard transition perhaps. we are prepared for that, cause you have 4 people's emotions going in different directions...and well, i am not exactly the most grounded sometimes. so god bless andy and his patience and love i am one hell of a lucky girl. i truly am and all of our lives, i feel, will be blessed with one anothers presence.

how long have you and your new beau been talking

 

we've been friends for geez almost two years, we started developing romantic feelings when I was seeing my ex boss in december or jan I think and then when things ended with my boss I gave Chris my number and we've been talking to each other every single spare moment we get since...I get no work done at work!!! I just adore talking with him and I like that we're close in age and he really builds me up ...I'm starting to get a huge head hah. He's just given me so much confidence and I have applied for opportunities I never would have before but he's just so optimistic and believes in mw he just tells me to go for it and when I get them I'm like shit damn wow hah. But he won't take any credit for it. We're meeting for the first time in two weeks. We were suppossed to meet in March but I was still very sick both mentally and physically.

How long have you guys been together now?

 

Well, im goin to the roo this year, i'll probably end up seeing a lot of you, and we won't even know the better

 

Keeps things Interesting...

 

something i never understood though...

some people think its worse to hang in in private with someone you met in REAL LIFE for a day or a few more... then it is to meet someone youve talked to for hours and hours on here?

haha what is really worse. what freaks only exist on the internet?

 

Yep. That's what I've been told...... all sorts of preverts/deviates/Father rapers...

 

but they dont exist anywhere but the internet? funny how ive been raped, robbed, etc by people i met in real life only and ive met about 15 people from internet and no one hurt me. weird!