me and esctasy

There is a first for everything... Remember my first experience. I was over at a friends house and we all decided to drop. Friends of my friends sister were over and thats where the pills came from. These were kids that were 17, going to an alternative public school, and making more money selling drungs than most make doing an honest job. These were the kids that supplied the majority of drugs in north detroit. They were almost ledgends or ghosts. If it wasn't for these kids, i would never have known what MDMA was, much less tried it..

Now to the meat of the story.

Was waiting for the pills to take effect and for some reason I decided to go outside, a ciggarette maybe. .

This gorrila of a man and a good friend of mine were engaged in a verbal disagreemt and it suddenly got physical. The gorrila's name was Kyal. He had a reputation in oakland country that was bigger than an aroused stallion. His frieds said it was a chemical imbalance. This mother fucker was craziier than a hatter. Literally I felt I needed to tip-toe if I had to walk by him, because shuffling feet might have rubbed him the wrong way. He was a violent indivisual, with a short temper. Many said he was just a bofyguard to the kids that made our area click So he almost killed my fruend in the back of an SUV...

He screamed at my buddy, maybe a quarter inch seperated my buddy's face from the silver backs in the back of a subborin .. and he was


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Anyway...he idolized my friends sister

 

wha, well, wah, pardon?

 

shit i thought this was the first page of the thread and this really messed with me

 

damn man me too, me too.

 

just a few points i wanna voice my opinion on as an ecstasy user of 5 years (i quit last month, reasons why are on my myspace videos - http://www.myspace.com/metalheadmedic)

well, i started 5 years ago, gave up for a year and a half when i felt like how you're feeling now. time passed, memories haunted me (coz i just wanted to feel like that again) and life moved forward. about 7 months ago, i started again with a group of friends i'd never rolled with before. we hit the same pills for 6 months straight (paula sharks) which included a 2 week long binge. thinking back the memories are upsetting coz u just wana be in that position again. i found ecstasy effected me on a personal level and affected how i am with friends i rolled with, a certain inability to bond properly. and it also fucked with my trails of thought too much.

1. - ecstasy certainly isn't relatively safe. there are so many different types of pills that are mixed with shit (pill filler) just to make it up to look like a proper E. the safest E's (from experiences) are white doves and purple butterflies (which felt like pure mdma). in some cases, you can get 2 ecstasy pills that look exactly the same but will have comletely different effects. MDMA is relatively safe, but ecstasy pills aren't.

2. - my already existent friendships were only ever intensified while on ecstasy but when i came down, all insights and thoughts slowed back down, and the next day the sheer outrageousness of the comedown (i'd take 5+ to buzz the night away) just fucked everything up. i admire you for keeping friends you rolled with! E has deffo made me dance, feel the music, and temporarily opened my mind (which lasts for a few days afterwards) but for me it's always fucked with friendships and social attitude.

3. - at the end of the day it's all chemicals, none of it is natural. It's all manufactured chemically induced hapiness within. It turns you into a robot. The insights, perceptions and feelings you get on E may last a few days after your buzz but eventually they'll fade away and I for one take a week or so to fully get back to myself coz 3 or so days after a drop i am mentally unstable, dunno wot i'm doing and get really fucking down (one reason i've fucked them off). thinking about the buzz during this week (when my mind's stuk in rewind) is cool, but as soon as all the chemicals get outta my system i tend not to think about past times on E, ever.

4. i felt like that, wanted that first experience again. can i ask what is the longest period of time you've been without E since u started takin em on a regular basis? i gave them up for a year and a half, and that triple drop 7 months ago gave me a buzz out of this world, it may of even topped my first buzz. it's coz of your tolerance, and coz u need so many to come up i don't reckon u touch em for a coulple of years or so, let the tolerance drop and your body get back to itself. then, if u decide to drop again, you'll fucking know about it. the magic will return.

i've had my fun with E though, i tend to stick to pot and (now n agen) shrooms n acid and, of course, alcohol for my buzzes.

 

the shit has made me stupid wayyyy too much

 

It was fun the first couple of times, but then it became bad. It damaged me, it was just way to intense and sapped all my energy.

Never again. Ugh.