Married, Nervous To Suck Cock For First Time

49-year old married straight guy and have been fantasizing about sucking cock every day for the last several years. I've put out some ads on CL and was even offered a magnificent 8-inch black cock that was only looking to be sucked by a white guy. EXACTLY what I was looking for but for some reason when it gets to be time to jump on it I get cold feet but I'm not sure why.

Has any one else been in a similar position and finally went through with it?
I'd love to hear some thoughts, advice, encouragement and if you wish you had done it sooner in life.
Seems like once many men take the plunge they're hooked.

Such a weird position to be in, it messes with my head.
I get so turned on watching women slobber and devour big thick cocks in porn, I want to do it myself.

 

Yes... I'm in a similar position..

I did take action about 5-6 years ago.. I met guys via CL.. and they gave me head.

Since then I have fantasized about going further.. about trying to suck cock.. and further.

I have spoken to some guys in A4A.. I'm actually getting close to shaking the cold feet syndrome.

 

It really sounds like, when you find the right guy, you should just go through with it. You will wonder otherwise probably for the rest of your life.

I had cold feet for a long time...was just curious at first but then started getting more serious about it. Like 3-4 years ago I met somebody at his house from CL. He sucked me and I ended up sucking him. I was happy to have tried it but definitely felt bad about doing something intimate like that behind my wife's back. Unfortunately once you do it, you can't take it back. That being said, I've had a little fun with married guys since then a couple of more times.

So that's the real question, the hard part of the decision. But if I was in your shoes, and was that curious about it, I would have to try it. I'd find a married guy with a nice cock, somebody clean and all of that, and find the time/place, and just get in there and suck his hard cock until you're both fully satisfied.

 

That's why I sucked cock (and bottomed) BEFORE I got married. One of the GREATEST sexual experiences I've ever had was with a GORGEOUS black man I'd met on CL. He was so damn SEXY. HE also has the by far the BIGGEST COCK I've ever seen in person... About 9"-10", and THICK too. His MASSIVE COCK and balls were ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL. After some kissing, making out and fondlingto relax ans REALLY set the mood... I TOTALLY surprised myself by being able to DEEP THROAT his whole COCK WITHOUT gagging on it. The WHOLE time I was sucking and DEEP THROATING that BEAUTIFUL black COCK, he was fondling, fingering and even eating my "man pussy" to get it ready for his MASSIVE dick. Initially it was an extremely tight and uncomfortable fit... But as we built a nice rythem, he eventually got balls deep into me. That GORGEOUS black stud is the ONLY person to ever make me cum WITHOUT having my COCK touched. To this day, that is the best fuck I've EVER had (giving or receiving). I even SWALLOWED his load when he pulled out... Then we cuddled for a bit, hopped in the shower together (probably the MOST EROTIC thing I've ever done with ANYONE)... And then we DID IT AGAIN.
You're RIGHT though, for MANY men the truth of it is once they've gotten over the initial guilt/shame/embarrassment (or whatever it might be), they do become "hooked"... And COULDN'T give up wanting/desiring COCK even if they tried. I happen to be one of those guy's myself, although I don't EVER see myself NOT needing/wanting/desiring COCK, even though I'm married to a wonderful woman.
It sounds to me like the biggest hurdle that's holding you back at this point would being the unknown of how your wife would react to your fantasy of sucking cock. Have you had any conversations with her regarding you FANTASY ?? She might get turned on at the thought of seeing you with another guy, or she might be repulsed at the idea of you sucking another man's cock. Only YOU would possibly know how she'd react. I wouldn't just do it behind her back... Because as bad as it would be if your desire were to have sex with another woman and she found out you were cheating on her, the results could be EVEN WORSE if she found out on her own that you were secretlysucking cock behind her back, and that could potentially be devastating to your marriage. If you haven't shared this fantasy with her and she were to "catch you in the act", she could possibly "assume you're gay"... Which OBVIOUSLY wouldn't be good.
If you know your wife would have a negative reaction to your fantasy of you sucking cock, then another possible option might be to consider watching gay or bisexual (MMF) porn. This is something I do regularly, as I'm devoted to my wife, and these days, I'd ONLY seek another man's cock to suck and fuck me if my wife was part of the decision making and a part of the action (luckily for me, my wife and I have similar "taste" in men, her ULTIMATE fantasy is a 3some with me and another guy, and she's REALLY into watching gay and MMF bisexual porn herself). While my wife and I have yet to have a MMF bisexual 3some, it IS something we've discussed several times, and something we'll MOST LIKELY do in the near future.
Another thing to strongly consider is that if you choose to "ignore" (by not acting) on your need/desire to suck another guy's cock, you just might end up regretting it later in life (let's face it none of us are getting any younger).
I hope this was a little helpful to you, and COCKCRAZED, I'd be open to chatting with you more if you're interested. GOOD LUCK!!

 

I think we've all been nervous our first time...once that first cock slides into your mouth your feminine side takes over as you begin to suck that cock the way you like your cock sucked. Now your taste for cock has been satisfied and if like me, the desire for more becomes even stronger.

 

Yep, nervous the first time. Feeling his cock in my mouth had me hooked.