Male Anal Masturbation "Journey"

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Hey All,

Single and divorced straight male

I have had a porn addiction for a while. I love it. It's probably self-destructive but ignorance is bliss. Anyhow I just got into anal masturbation this year. Had tried as a youth on my own a handful of times completely randomly. Fast forward 25 years and I have a collection of dildos. I like to ride my 8.25" x 1.9" most. I'm writing this right now thinking about sticking it back in again and it's making me hot.
I've always been straight, and though I have glanced at gay porn once or twice I have never had the faintest attraction to men, or the act of sex with a man. Something about anal masturbation, though, has just addickted me. I love it. I'm always thinking about it. I do it every day. I don't even masturbate my cock most times, though I do jerk off a lot too. I suppose the reason I have brought you here today is to help me rationalize this I guess? It's not that I'm insecure but it's just so taboo in my mind oddly.

Help? I think? Maybe not...

 

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Also no attraction to men whatsoever, I've tried anal masturbation many times with various things but it's never brought me to ejaculation, something I have always wanted to do, used prostrate massagers but nothing ever happens,

 

I drip pre-cum all over the place while I’m riding. I don’t orgasm from it alone but if I jerk off while I’m slamming down on the dildo I cum really hard.

Try stimulating your perineum while you ride?

 

I agree. Feeling is fantastic

 

It's hard to describe anal pleasure. I think men appreciate it more than women.
I just wish I could be more open about it.

 

I'm so craving for it. Had anal 2 times in my life with another guy before. I admit it felt really good. Had anal with women who I was dating with was really good & I did it when I was married.

 

Agreed! It IS hard to explain and describe.

 

The difference for me is I don't want other bodies involved. Just me riding my dildo, enjoying myself. I can be my whole self that way.

Speaking of which, I should really get down to slamming on one about now I think.

 

Don't 'anal'yze it, just enjoy yourself.