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I tried to read that...but could you go back in and press enter after every paragraph please...maybe even 2 enters since it's so long.

 

Done.

 

there has to be something you're not telling us. fired like 4 times in a row for indiscretions that for a normal good employee would be a warning at most, then kicked out by a crackhead... i just think there's more to it than what you've said.

when the options are kissing ass at a shitty job or being homeless, you really should just kiss ass. look for a better job in your spare time, but kiss ass until then.

 

A few things....

For food...go to a food kitchen and a food bank.
Look into finding some kind of shelter or a job you can work where you can live in...housesitting, caregiving, sometimes pet care and childcare.
Find out why you're getting into so many bad relationships with bfs, friends and your family...your mom sounds like http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=454294&f=65

You gotta learn how to recognize when people are showing signs of being emotionally abusive. Other than that...don't worry about bills you can't pay. Right now worry about the basics, the very basics. If you have stuff you dont need try to sell it.

Other than that I don't really know what to say...you have definitely had a tough time and I'm sorry you've had to go throw so many shitstorms all together...hang in there though and you know maybe try getting more reliable help than "friends", boyfriends and family...even jobs are really not going to give a real shit about you...they just want you to make them money.

 

First off, I wasn't fired from all four of the jobs I mentioned. The job I had when I was first kicked out I quit when a manger pushed me. Bergner's I quit because it was hell. Pizza Hut, Wing Stop, and O'Charley's were all bullshit and all three places have a reputation for doing things like this to many of their employees. I was not the only one to get fired for the same reasons. I just didn't know until after I had started working there.
O'Charley's changed the schedule on me on purpose because they knew I was going to need more hours after leaving Chris. They've done it to many people. I was homeless before I lost the job, jackass. And I'm not going to kiss ass to keep a job I shouldn't have been losing in the first place. And I'm definately not kissing ass to keep a job that won't pay me for the little hours they were giving me after they cut everyone's hours. They also weren't going to be flexible with me trying to get a second job. So fuck you.
And the crackhead is kicking me out because she got mad at me for not being at the apartment to let her in today. I was out applying for jobs. I had no way of knowing when she was going to be back. She tried to play the guilt card with me by saying how nice she is for letting me stay here and got an attitude about it. So I said look, I'm sorry I wasn't there, but that's not my fault. You could've let me know. I can't stop what I'm doing, sprout wings, and fly you the keys so you'll have to wait or meet me somewhere. She then said she wasn't playing the guilt card and got smart with me again. I told her I'm 19, not stupid, she was pulling the guilt card. I told her I've been trying to show I appreciate this by cleaning and sharing my stuff. I can't sit at the apartment all day and wait for her to come home. I need to find a job and I've already applied every where that has online applications. She got an attitude again and said I was getting lippy. So I said you gotta give respect to get it and you disrespected me today so excuse me for not being very happy with you. If you don't want me there, tell me now so I can get my shit and go.

 

alright, enjoy being homeless because you're above the shitty jobs that everyone else has to work for a while before finding something better. and enjoy being inevitably banned for posting personal attacks.

 

I already sold everything I'm willing to part with except my prom dress, which I can't get sold right now. Prom season is over so nobody wants it. The only problem with a food bank is I can only use food that requires no refrigeration. And the only way I have to cook food is the microwave. So there isn't much I can have. It's pretty lame. I don't know how she lives like this.

 

I've worked my shitty jobs and kept them each for a decent amount of time. I never said anything about being above those jobs. But I am not going to work somehwere that obviously didn't want me there and won't pay me for all the hours I've worked. It's illegal for them not to pay me for hours I've worked. There were no attacks. You are the one that decided to post your negative bullshit on my thread. Your negativity is not wanted. And you were the one trying to imply there was something wrong with me. So once again, fuck you.

 

There are foodbanks that will ask you if you can cook food or refrigerate them and give you food according to your needs. Also, there are places you can just go to eat meals...also look into whether there's a food not bombs in your area. They often give you a meal and whatever is leftover to take home with you...often bread and non-perishables.

Just keep looking for more resources to help you. Look into domestic abuse centers they may be able to help you with many different services.

 

I've already tried all that shit. Nobody does anything. They don't give a shit. Unless you have a kid, where I live, you get no help from local shit, link, or finacial aid for school. It's rediculous.

 

When I lost everything I was able to count on my family to help me out for a few months until I got on my feet.

Wherabouts in Illinois are you from? The reason why I've stayed in Kentucky since moving here is because the cost of living is so low.

 

My grandparents loaned me money for the first month's rent, but like I said, it got stolen. My mom has taken in my cats for a while. That's all they help they'll give me. My family is broke, too. And most of them just don't care anyway.
I live in Decatur.

 

Tough breaks.. Life is rough some times.

But you know, there are lots of opportunities. Probably somewhat less in a small town in the US, you've probably heard that your country isn't doing too great on the money-front right now. I would get out of that shithole and go to another country. When English is your mother tongue, there are lots of schools in Asia (and presumably S-America & Africa) that will pay for your flight and visa, get you a place to live and pay you reasonably. No education needed, although some college degree often helps if you want a school that will pay for your flight and visa.

But there are lots of other options out there, too. You're on the Internet, go crazy on google for a few hours, I bet you will find something that appeals to you and that is realistic. But don't expect things to get any easier if you stay in the USA, it's truly the shittiest of all the western countries (inequality, poverty, as you have experienced, non-existant or shitty social arrangements, and more, much much more) , and you're far from the only one who's been screwed over.

 

Shitty situation for you.

Never lose yourself though. When you get out of this situation learn from it and become a stronger person from it.

Don't do anything drastic. Work hard and you can overcome anything.

 

I can't stress enough (as a former ESL teacher in Asia) that simply running away to another country to teach English is not going to solve your problems or indeed get you away from your problems in the first place! Also, the school you work for usually want someone that is actually a decent teacher, actually knows what they are doing, and is actually employable. :2thumbsup:

If you do go down this road - DO choose very carefully. Get a TESOL certificate and be aware that times are changing in the ESL world - most schools will only want someone with a university degree, a TESOL or DELTA certificate and some experience. Getting your flight, visa and accomodation paid for is BY NO MEANS guaranteed (I got a free apartment but def not a free flight and visa, LOL).

 

I've met quite a few people who were flown in - mostly Korea - and had their visa paid for. Granted most had college degrees. And I've met people who could barely speak English who taught it in various places. There are loads of places you could still get work teaching English or even get work simply on account of being able to speak it, with no need for any sort of degree, nor needing to be a native speaker.

Anyways, that sort of school won't have the money to fly you in or pay for your visa, and as the OP has stressed that she is unemployed, homeless and has no money, it's probably not really an option, much like getting a TESL cert. But the point was there are lots of opportunities out there, the trick is finding them. As for solving problems, it seems to me the problems of the OP are ensuring she is fed, clothed and housed, which any paying job would do.

OP, I really feel for you as the odds are definitely not in your favor, being homeless and unemployed among millions in the USA, a country with virtually no social safety net. Maybe try to escape to Canada.

 

Now the crackhead has decided that she was wrong for getting so pissy about me not being here to let her in, but technically I'm still homeless, because I'm only here because I have no where else. That qualifies as homeless when I filled out my FASFA, so maybe I'll get something to go back to school.
Some place called me back about an interview, but it's not somewhere I want to work...I already know what is required of their servers and it isn't very much. At least at my last job, we had other stuff to do during our shift besides just attending to our tables. I don't want a super easy, boring job. But I'm really trying for two, so if they call me, I'll take it. It'd be nice to have my second job be an easy one.
The guy that I've been kind of talking to since I left Chris introduced me to a manager at another place and she talked to me and had me fill out an application and said she'd call me soon, too. He used to work there and is still good friends with about half of their staff, so hopefully I'll be able to get two jobs.
If I get two jobs, things will get alot better alot faster. As long as they aren't places that are going to screw me over, anyway. I'm pretty damn good at budgeting, so once I know how much I'll be bringing in each week, I can make a plan to get everything caught up. And I think I'm going to save part of my tips (which are never included in the budget since it's no set amount) to get out of this shit town...

A little of subject, but this guy I've been talking to since I left Chris, is amazing. He's a little too jealous, and my parent would hate him, but he's really a good guy. He's been here for me and has tried to help me as much as he can. He's struggling alot too, but it's his own fault. I'm just trying to be there for him, too.
It's funny how the guys my parents would hate are the only ones that ever treat me right. He's a felon, has five freakin kids, and is a dealer. But his felony is for protecting his gay little brother from getting jumped, like when he was still in middle school. He just had one child, he had two with one girl (he's very upset lately because she took the kids and moved out of state), one isn't in his life at all, and one he isn't sure is really his, but since she hasn't asked for child support and he seems to be so good at making babies, he's just goinna go with it.
I'm not judging him on his past. He's made some mistakes to land him where he is now, but he realizes that. He's taking responsibility for his actions and trying to better himself. As long as he treats me right, then I'm happy.
So at least I've got one thing going for me.



Unfortunately, my mother has now decided that I need to move my cats out of her house by next weekend. She really got mad at me because I ignored her on fucking Facebook. This bitch is 38 years old, but she acts like she's younger than I am, I swear. Spitefull ass. >:/

 

tough situation. sounds like you've already looked into many of the things that I would have recommended. food banks, financial aid, etc.

I know that you've said that your family is unreliable, but would you be able to stay with your grandparents for a while if you needed to?

this may sound like strange advice, but you might want to look into stripping. the days are gone when girls could easily make $2000 a night, but there's still good and relatively easy money in it.

you're in a position now where if another thing or two goes wrong, you're up shit's creek.

getting some cash in the bank and your own apartment on lease would put you in a much better situation. maybe you could also go back to school then.

 

My grandparents live 30 minutes out of town and I have no car. I refuse to be a stripper. Plus there are no clubs in town if I did, and again, no car. No licence, either.

 

I had suicidal ideation taking those drugs, and never had before..

Once you get past that, they aren't so bad. Your dick may not work anymore, but you don't really care.

And I won't even get into weaning off the things and the rebound effect. Fucked up for months.

My experience was I went to a dr having a little acute episode of stress and depression around 19, probably over a girl. He's like "oh you need to take this". And it went from there.

OP I would listen to the people talking about diet, exercise, counseling, etc.