Lost my mind and virginity on 25i-nbomE

This is my first time writing a trip report so please be kind as im sure i will not get it right. I am 130 pound male 19 years old at the time of the experienc. this is probably my 40-50th psycedelic trip and my 2nd time with 25i. A lot of first 4 hours my memory is a bit fuzzy so a lot of this info is from my friends. One week prior to this trip my friend who is not very experienced with psycedelics calls me and says he picked up 25 hits of "acid". Long story short him and his friend take 4 each and freak out and one of them ended up spending the night in the cornfield and the otherone was scarred off drugs for life and gave me the remaining 17 hits for free. I knew the guy who his guy got it from and he told me that they were 750ug hits of 25i. So whoever sold those hits to my friends is a turd and shuld be punished but im not gona go there now.
So i had 17 hits of 25i so i started planning for the next weekend. Only problem is i only have 3 close friends and none of them wanted to trip. So i texted one of my old friends who is a girl ive known for a long time but kind of drifted apart and asked her if she wanted to come over to my house friday or saterday and trip and she said she was down to do it saterday. So fast forward to friday and my plans were to get picked up by my friend(the one who gave me the 25i) and drink beer and play call of duty all night. On his was to pick me up from my grandparents house(i live with my grandparents during the week to work beacause i lost my lisense) he rolls his car over on his way to pick me up and i dont have a ride home. So i called my best friends Jim and his girlfriend marie to pick me up. While im waitig for them to come i see a rainbow and take it as a sign to take the 25i beacause the girl ill call her tara hadnt answered me all week long and jim said he might be down to trip. I text tara and tell her well do it next weekend And that i was trippin tonight. So i pop the 4 hits in my lower lip and wait for jim to pick me up.
About 20 mins later i get that strong stimulating sensation and knotty stomach feeling and i know im in for a strong trip. Jim and marie arive to pick me up about 30 mins after i took it and it is a 30 minuete car ride to my house. On my way to my house tara texts me back and askes if i still wana trip with her and she said ya. I really knew it was gona be a goofy night beacause jim and marie hate tara and jim took 2 hits as well. By the time i get to my house im trippin so hard i couldnt get the keys in the door beacause eveything was moving and swirling and changing. The visuals on this stuff was a little diffrent from the lsd visuals im used to.
There were patterns forming in thin air and everyhing looked very layered. by layered i mean everything looked 2d and layere. was seeing peace singns and other random words meltig in the cieling and bubble like paterns floating through the air. Then i remember to tell jim that taras comming and when i wasnt looking he texts her saying "dont come" Then i get an angry phone call from tara saying shes half way to my house and i could barly understand what she was talking about so i just told her to come over. For the next ten minuets i sat on the couch watching marie play with my led gloves and waiting for tara. When tara arrived jim was just starting to trip and him and marie went upstairs in my garage loft to smoke weed. Its a good thing my parents were at a wedding beacause i got kinda rowdy after this. I gave tara 2 hits and gave her a big hug since i hadnt seen her in a while and tried to talk to her about how shits been goin and catch up but my mind was goneeeee.
About 2 hours after i dose tara wants to go upstairs and smoke weed and i follow and jim and marie are being kinda mean to her. I could feel the tension between the group and was not likeing it and i stat really loseing controll. I started saying random stuff and being all weird. I couldnt understand what anyone was saying but i heard tara say the worst thing you could say in front of someone tripping on my level. "Maby hes having that trip that puts him over the edge". I lost it and ran downstairs. Jim followed me and tried to comfort me but the damage was done. Around this time i completely lost grip on reality and forgot we were at my house and my parents knew about us being there and didnt care. I forgot what my parents were what i was what my friends were i didnt even understand the concept of a house but i felt like we were trespassing and were gona get in trouble. So jim takes me to my room to just lay in bed and ride it out and i keep saying random stuff. "The ground" "cash" "cash money" "am i shitting myself" "earth" "am i siezing and cunvulsing" "psycedelic!" Over and over again. I also kept saying peoples names who i cared about. I could sense jim was concerned but i couldnt tell why beacause i didnt know i was freakin out or even tripping. Marie asked if she should call jessie(my sister) and i asked "what is jessie" Then i get up and try to run outside but my friend stoped me. Then we went back upstairs by the girls and i try to cuddle with tara who pushed me away.(ive always had rejection issues and im a virgin) so that hit me hard. I run back downstairs and for some reason rip my clothes off and run outside and flop down on the driveway. I kepts cursing at jim and marie "what do you mean i cant be naked in my own house!" Everyone followed and tara was laughing her ass off.
It was like i was blacked out i didnt know anything jim helps me back inside and takes me back in my room and lays me down in bed and sits next to me saying soothing things and tells tara to stay away. This was proly around 3 and a half or 4 hours after doseing and while we were laying there i didnt even kno where i was. I thought i had overdosed and was in a hospitol.(i had read the overdose stories) i thougnt jim was my dad debating whether or not to take me off life support. I thought my dad was dissapointed that i was a pathetic virgin going nowhere in life and misserable and thougnt the only way to stop it would be to think of things i enjoy. I dont know how long that lasted but i finaly came out of it about 4 and a half hours after doseing. Marie had to go home so her and jim left me alone with tara.
By this point i was coming back to reality enough that i could uphold a conversation and i appologised to tara for freaking out. She was still tripping good and we were both having visuals and laying in the grass laughing. It was getting close to when my parents were supposed to come home so we went upststairs to listen to music and do lightshows. It was kinda hot upstairs so i took off my clothes exept my boxers. Then tara said i could be naked if i wanted to so i took then off and she took off all her clothes to. We talked about a lot of stuff from our past and some issues we were having and she told me she thougnt it was good i was a virgin.
But i knew it wasnt when is it ever good to be a 19 year old virgin i felt like nobody wanted me and i was just a loser. When my parents came home we just stayed under the blankets and cuddled till they left the room and turned the lights off. I dont know why but i kelt playing with her boobs whitch i never do beacause weve been "just friends" for like 3 years and neither of us ever really had an attraction to the other. She said that always her favorite person to do drugs with beacause i dont usualy freak out and handle them pretty well unlike her girl friends and im never try fo get with her or make her uncomfortable like other guys. one time we took mdma and had a blast just cuddling. At 6 hours after doseing the visuals were still going pretty strong(tracers watery vision paterns in the dark) and i was feeling pretty horny(pretty rare for me to be in bed with a girl) she kept touching my chest and nipples and it felt almost unpleasent beacause my skin had that "creepy crawly" feeling and her hands felt like they were going inside me. She asked me if i thought she was pretty and i said she was(i meant it) and said i could get laid easily if i wasnt so awkward.
Then she asked "is this stuff supposed to make you horny" and i said "anything can make you horny". She asked me if i wanted to have sex with her and i said ya and started kissing her and i started fingering her and went down on her. then we had some good sex ha Since that was my first time having sex i cant really compare how the 25i affected it but it was easy to get hard and i was able to go longer than i would if i was jerkin off. The bodily sensations were also greatly enhanced and we felt as if we really were "one" with eachother or something
We spent the rest ofthe night cuddling listening to bassnectar and playin with lights and talking. We had sex a few more times. Every time we felt like it wore off enough to go to sleep wed end up layin there awake with me holding her and one of us would wanna have sex again. We even had sex in the hottub at like 6:30 am. I took her out for breakfast the next morning and she dropped me off at traffic school and went home and went to bed and i had to sit through a 2 hour class went home and went to bed. That was probably my most memorable trip ever not just beacause i got laid but it was also the first time i really freaked the fuck out.

 

I forgot to add that rainbow really was lookin out for my best intrest beacause my plan was to take the 4 hits with tara on saterday after my parents went to bed. That probly would have ended in disaster and im very thankfull jim was there beacause god only knows what dumb shit me and tara would have done unsupervised

 

maybe your plan shouldn't have been to take FOUR hits, especially since that's the amount that your friends had freaked out on.

you read about the overdoses, but still thought you'd START with 3 mg of 25i?! why not try one hit before you take 4 at once?

could have been a lot worse than losing your mind for a little bit and your virginity - i bet that was wild.
you're lucky you didn't end up in the hospital. when you were asking yourself "am i seizing?"...maybe you were.

 

Ya in retrospect it was pretty dumb. I just figured my friends were pussys and last time i took 25i i took 5 500ug tabs and was fine and had a blast but looking back those were deffinately underdosed. But yeah wild night indeed deffinately my most memorable trip lol hope my kids never ask how i lost my virginity

 

i never asked my dad that.

and maybe these hits were overdosed. you never can be sure that the dose is advertized accurately. that's why it's always a good idea to start with one hit (or less) of any new batch of blotters, even with something as relatively harmless as LSD.

message for everyone, not just Green a.

 

Sounds crazy haha would you do it again?

 

Hell ya id do it again if i could go back the only thing id do diffrent would be take 3. But now tht i know wat to expect id be down to take 4 again.

 

THAT WAS MY LITERAL reaction. lol

TLDR :devil: