I dealt with almost the exact same situation. My dad was a preacher & mom was (gods rest her soul) a very devout Christian wife. They never understood why I was into hippie culture or why I liked to hang out nude or why at 14 I started seriously questioning the religious beliefs I had been raised to accept as infallible truth. Then when I got married my wife never understood why I often stared out the window for long stretches or why I sometimes talked about taking long trips into the wilderness or about living on communes. Now at 28 years old and the end of my life as I've known it for 8 years I'm just going to jump into those dreams and see what happens. It seems to me that to really get what you want from life you have to be willing to just jump in and try to do whatever that itch is man
We dance round in a circle and suppose, While the secret sits in the middle and knows. If all of life were but a giant jig-saw puzzle, One, that you could never really finish, The question still forever remains, What should we look for next? While those intent on averting their eyes, See no evil, hear no evil, and speak no evil. Examine why an itch is uncomfortable, And you may actually find the cause. Know thyself, and your feet shape the earth, as the way shapes your path.
When we don't do what others (especially our parents) think that we should be doing as adults, there will always be disappointment. I'm no longer religious to my parents' dismay, but they've leaned to accept my views, now. Being true to yourself isn't always easy, but worth it.
Its linguistic analysis and systems logic, based on 12,000 year old mathematical potty humor. Theoretically, four root metaphors a child can understand can be used to express anything.
I've spent years researching how to survive in the wild and I completely agree with Tyr that research is a must but at the end of it all the only way to really do what will make you happy is to do it. Hands on experience makes confidence
I write this stuff all day long. For me its just so much math and shuffling around metaphors, and that's the point I'm trying to make, is just shuffle all the metaphors around in your head. Like assembling a puzzle, don't worry too much about which pieces you think go where until after you've actually made some progress.
is your son still young? if so, i think that's pretty normal. when you get married and have a small child, your life normally revolves around that marriage/child for a while, until the child has a little self sufficiency or goes off to school/daycare. if it's really bothering you, you could try to find some sort of work and put him in daycare. even if it's just part time, it's a break from the mommy routine.
There are two parts to your question: How to do what you don't know how to do? and How to do what you are nervous to do? The answers are different. Doing suff you don't know how to do is easy. You just learn it. Find someone who knows and ask then how to do it. Then practise it until you get good at it. Doing what you are nervous to do is a harder question, because the answer is internal, not external. Usually the nervousness is because you don't know how it will turn out. Will it be safe? Will it be fun? Will my friends laugh at me? Well -NEWS FLASH! - we never know how anything will turn out. But we get out of bed anyway, we eat food anyway, we cross the street anyway. Success comes from doing stuff that we don't know will work out. So does failure. You can't have one without the other. SO just get out there and do it. I have some first-hand experience wanting to do something but being nervous to try. It took me 60 friggin' years to do it. I don't recommend that! But, in the end, the only way was to just do it.
