Life is hard

Shouldnt this thread be in the Whiners forum?

 

Get harder.

 

dude not for anything, but it might be rochester; besides the schools its really not that happenin of a place like it used to be. places on the west coast near companies like amazon, apple, microsoft might provide you with more opportunity.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ug1PNDDNt2c&feature=related"]Bangs - 'My Life is Hard' Exclusive: [OFFICIAL VIDEO] - YouTube

 

Damn, fuck this thread. I get nuts when I don't sleep.

I knew I would regret this later.

I am sure people are thinking I am a prime candidate for suicide. I'm not. I just needed to vent my frustrations.

But man... I was so paranoid at work last night. I was paranoid my coworkers were talking behind my back, even though I work alone.

Anyway, thanks to those who offered their advice. You guys are great.

 

I don't think you'll kill yourself rat. You'll be that grumpy ole man down the street.

 

There is at least one current Hipforumer who can attest to just how nuts I am. Why? Because they had the misfortune of meeting me face to face just a little over two weeks ago.

Going through a dry spell, this person offered to do me a personal favor. They sold me some weed they had, even though this person does not normally sell. I was most gracious for the favor, but I left this person's place feeling like a total asshole.

Obviously I am not going to say who this person is. They are a regular poster and have been posting on these forums for years.

So I went to said person's apartment to pick the weed up. I was a little weirded out to begin with meeting someone from the forums, much less to buy weed. I need to remember not to smoke around people I don't know well.

Well, this person offered me a few hits off a bong, and after a few minutes I was zoning out so bad that I couldn't even carry on the conversation. (Keep in mind I am not great at conversation with people I don't know well to begin with.) So anyway, I basically abruptly got up and excused myself saying I had to leave. To make matters worse, I was apparently so disoriented that I walked out the wrong door of the person's apartment and had to walk AROUND the building to get to where my car was.

I felt like a total idiot and was freaking out about it at the time, but later got some serious lulz out of it recalling my experience with some people I know.

To this person, if they're reading this... I apologize for freaking you the fuck out.

 

nah, i would say homicide if anything.

 

Hey Matt! No worries mate! You just have not met enough people yet! I feel like we would get along well, actually. I like a lot of what you say. I see the world for the twisted mess it is, and enjoy some of the same music to boot! Any way, keep your head up man, things will get better! Maybe relocate somewhere else for a bit?

 

I also must say the following: Silence is one of the most under rated things. People feel the need to fill the time with words at all costs. But words aren't always needed and sometimes are a waste of energy/effort. We say so much SHIT to fill the void, but it is just that, shit. Enjoy the silence, embrace it and when the time comes to say something meaningful,it will be all the better. Don't worry if you have nothing to say. The right people will not see it as anything bad.

 

To the OP, don't know where to start however it seems you have gotten a lot of support and good advice in here already - I'll just add (and forgive me if I mirror the advice of someone else, only read 1st page) find out what makes you happy and grab it by your fucking teeth. Life is hard, but it's hard for everyone that's what makes it interesting (IMO). Stop feeling sorry for yourself, appreciate what you do have, and add to the bucket list whatever it is that's gonna make you happy tomorrow (the metaphorical happy tomorrow).

Sorry if I sounds like a prick/know-it-all, but I've had those self loathing feelings too especially when I smoke weed by myself (though I like it, kicks my ass into gear) and it's good reflection the first time but crying over spilled milk after that. Hope things work out.

 

Yeah, kind of happened to me too. My mom still mutters stuff about me being a mathematical genius / wasted potential.

As I was reading this thread, some lady on TV said, "Sometimes I just want to drink a bottle of whiskey and say 'WHATEVER!'." That made me lol, and seemed pretty fitting. (It was on Alaska: The last frontier)

Whether something pisses me off or is just plain stupid - I deal with a lot of life by joking about it. (Come to think of it, I spend most of my time entertaining myself / laughing at my own jokes.)

I think finding my boyfriend helped a lot with everything. The "am I good enough / is there something wrong with me / what am I doing here?" shit that used to fill my head seemed to slow down a lot. Not to mention I think affection, sex, companionship, and just having someone to laugh at your jokes with is extremely therapeutic.

You need a girlfriend. :love:

 

You should come over to my place and smoke DMT, that should loosen you up and increase your sociability.

 

Nice! I've been really wanting to try DMT. I heard it opens the 3rd eye.

lol @ Pressed_Rat...I thought your story was hilarious. I'm very awkward and that sounds like something that would happen to me, especially since I meet a lot of people from online. Since I'm so awkward I've always made my friends from online. I'm sure you're worrying about the incident too much, take some advice from Dr. Seuss: “Be who you are and say what you feel,
because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.” lol at walking out the wrong door..

 

Sorry Priss, but I think that's bad advice - if he isn't happy with himself how is he gonna make someone else happy? Yeah it might be a good escape for a while, but those creeping loathsome feelings will return if without self closure (IMO). With that said I do agree with your 2nd to last statement - companionship is healthy, i just don't think you can rest all your happiness on it.

 

i think you just told daisymae that she needs a girlfriend.

i agree. :drool5:

 

I totally relate. My shrink says I'm going thru normal mid life crises. Get healthy. Detox. Eat and sleep better, volunteer, focus on sons is the advice I get.

 

I understand where you are coming from and you also remind me of my brothers. All three of us were super weird kids and never really fit in and so we spent a lot of our time with each other. Although in my case I am not particularly intelligent.

I feel my social inadequacies do really hold me back from doing what I want with my life, but at the same time I wouldn't really want to be anything other than what I am. At this point I have sort of given up on having friends and a social life and I feel happier now that I am resigned to my fate as a loner...

Anyway, I totally get what you mean and life is indeed hard sometimes.

 

Improving an aspect of one's life is like losing weight. Things usually get better when the person acknowledges a problem, comes up with a practical plan to improve things, and acts upon it. Change usually won't happen by stating that there is some group out there conspiring to keep you fat and that every possible approach to losing weight is futile because it plays right into the hands of the groups that are secretly making you fatter. Heckling overweight people in the drive-through at McD with a bullhorn prolly won't help anyone lose weight either, although it might boost the heckler's ego.

 

However bad I feel my life is,I decided to a long time ago that I'd rather be me than anyone else,that the trip is worth it,that I will find the things I need to find,and the people I need to be with.