Let's try to remember I have feelings

Discussion in 'Random Thoughts' started by Bellfire01, Jan 13, 2005.

  1. Bellfire01

    Bellfire01 I'll say anything

    I have lost some weight and lately I notice more people looking at me. They just stare but don't speak. Is this a compliment or are they just trying to work up the nerve to ask me some dumb personal questions?
     
  2. nimh

    nimh ~foodie~

    i'd take it as a complement

    people are weird sometimes.
     
  3. mynameiskc

    mynameiskc way to go noogs!

    attractive people catch one's eye.
     
  4. Soulless||Chaos

    Soulless||Chaos SelfInducedExistence

  5. mynameiskc

    mynameiskc way to go noogs!

    i get stared at a lot, but i think it's the feather boa and clown paint.
     
  6. Soulless||Chaos

    Soulless||Chaos SelfInducedExistence

    Yeah, that would do it... *stares blankly* :rolleyes:
     
  7. mynameiskc

    mynameiskc way to go noogs!

    i smack the rude ones with a great big mackeral that i carry around with me.
     
  8. TheChaosFactor

    TheChaosFactor Senior Member


    or the chest. I'm voting for the chest. It's more distracting than clown paint :rolleyes:


    as far as you bell, it's hard to tell. I get stared at a lot but mines usually because of the 1/2" hole in my ears and the huge legged pants :eek: If you don't have much of a 'shock value' for the average person to wonder about, they're probably checking you out.
     
  9. mynameiskc

    mynameiskc way to go noogs!

    wow, does that still qualify as shock value? who knew?
     
  10. TheChaosFactor

    TheChaosFactor Senior Member

    are you talking about the giant pants and huge holes or your chest? cuz your chest will never lose it's shock value :rolleyes:
     
  11. Bellfire01

    Bellfire01 I'll say anything

    I know this sounds either vein or paranoid but people starring makes me uneasy. I've been fat since I was 5 years old and I've had parents, teachers, peers, and other relatives make fun of me. Everything ffom starring at me while I eat to making cold comments. I have a picture of myself when I was about 12 or 13. I was fat but I had a pretty nice shape. I had a round butt.(Now that I look back at the picture I can tell that it was kind of attractive looking.) My mom used the picture against me one day to show that I was fat and to make me feel bad. (People say off color remarks and make comments that sting alot so I'm kind of sensative.) I guess you can say that no attention is good attention so now that I've lost some wait and people are starting to look at me I'm a little uneasy. (I don't see the beauty and I don't think they do either but I'm glad they don't comment.) Thanks for letting me vent. (I don't usually let people get this close.) ;)
     
  12. mynameiskc

    mynameiskc way to go noogs!

    i was referring to your look, chaos.

    and bell, i totally know where you're coming from. i've been called ugly, fat, stupid and worthless my entire life. it took me years to deal with people looking at me, and years of forcing myself to act confident before i could deal with the attention. i still have to make a point to call myself attractive or worthwhile, when i still ahve the ugly voice the jolts me awake in the middle of the night (like last night) screamign "you're ugly and worthless! no one loves you!" it's bizarre. those scars never go away, i think. but like my man says "fake it 'til you make it." i'm closer, but dave still has to ride me sometimes for getting down on myself.
     
  13. Bellfire01

    Bellfire01 I'll say anything

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    Call that voice my ma. She probaly is loud enough to hear in your dreams lol. Well you are married and have good happy people around you. One day when I stop feeling sorry for myself and iron out my kinks I know I'll get better. ;)
     
  14. mynameiskc

    mynameiskc way to go noogs!

    i'm still a freak in the head. my wildly vacillating moods here are evidence of that. like i said, it never goes away, you'll probably have to fight that bitch in your head the rest of your life.
     

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