lack of respect or low-life?

I used to dwell a lot when someone upset me. I'm not as bad as I used to be, however, I do think I'm weary of people and I have become cynical generally.

 

I absolutely disagree with this statement.

I have felt betrayed before when indeed I was not. It was my perception.

 

No of course, I just meant whoever is betraying you knows it when they do.. if they don't, they aren't really betraying you.. it's more of an accident.. and that I can forgive.

 

well thankfully I have no friends like that.

 

Laety, I need you to respond to the PM I sent you. it's important.

 

I usually cry to my mother. Honest.

If people backstab me, sure it hurts, but typically those people weren't really friends of mine to begin with. So I go for a nice long chat with my mom, and she builds me up - I can't explain how - but all the pent up vengeance, anger and feelings of being a total and pathetic loser get re-directed and shifted into focus.

I am so much better than people who backstab and sell out. I've got too much going for me to be concerned about petty lies and slander. I cry because there isn't really much you can do once the damage is done, and then I pull up my socks and put my trust into someone who really deserves it.

My mom will remind me of all the really good and strong friendships I've had in my life, the way that I stood up for someone in the same type of situation who was stabbed in the back, and I feel so much better after talking about it with her.

 

I used to confront everyone who said anything about me negative..either in a verbal way or sometimes even in a physical way..cause I figured if you hold someone accountable right then, there is much less of a chance they will do it again..and they get you dont take that from anyone..but, I mellowed and then I would just cut people out like it was nothing..heart of stone I guess...now, well, I am still working on it...I have some really good close friends that I have had for a long time and with them we always work it out like brothers..sometimes it is not to pretty though. Seems to be only aquaintences or short term friends I have the problem with.

 

In general I am a nice person. A very nice person, and I tend to put up with a lot of bs. But here's what I tell people who manage to get close to me - I am a typical Gemini. I can be your best friend or your worst enemy. I try to be nice, and I'm usually forgiving. but if you fuck me over enough I will fucking destroy you.

 

I cut that person out of my life.

 

i would stop listening to you right there.

 

Hahah, undies your zingers make me pee my granny panties...