It also took some time for me to realize how truly loathsome the Catholic Church is. When you're a horny, yet closeted homosexual boy raised as a devout Catholic in a conservative society where the church holds great power, Catholic guilt becomes a great burden. Trying to reconcile Catholic sexual doctrine with my homosexual orientation and an overwhelming passion for masturbation left me frustrated and frightened. How could I ever truly repent for my transgressions, as I realized that my desires were more than just a passing weakness - they were an integral part of my identity, a part of what made me who I truly am! I suppose one could be a Christian and masturbate freely, as some denominations are more liberal than others - but Catholicism, though, is a very dogmatic religion. I simply couldn't spend the rest of my life serving a God that gave me the "choice" between eternal damnation in the afterlife and a lifetime of self-loathing. In hindsight, it feels rather quaint that I tried to learn more about the Christian faith as I wanted to become a better Catholic - yet, the more I learned about the church, the more dissatisfied with it I became! Blasphemy, idolatry and apostasy were such taboos that I avoided even thinking about them for a mere moment... yet, as my sexual urges grew more powerful, my penis wanted me to taste such delicious, forbidden fruit! When I prayed to be rid of such unholy temptations, the Christian God remained silent - as if he didn't really exist. Yet with every erection, Pagan Gods called my name - I could heard them loud and clear, so I gleefully chose to answer their call! It was then that the levees broke, and without any remorse I renounced Christianity and converted to Paganism. I immediately knew I had made the right choice, as not only did every orgasm become even more intense - I also felt a warmth inside of me that I couldn't ever feel while I worshipped Christ! I find it funny that I was once such a devout Christian, who even thought of becoming a priest one day - and now I am a polytheist Heathen who is open to worshipping just about any deity imaginable, except for the Christian trinity! The Abrahamic deity seems to be a very jealous one - the very first commandment is "I am the Lord thy God, thou shalt have no other gods before me". It gives me that warm, fuzzy feeling that I've renounced Jesus in order to shamelessly worship Pagan idols - and one such idol is my own erect Penis! The Phallus is a Deity in its own right, a true God made flesh! I now consider masturbation to be a religious ritual in its own right, and ejaculation is a triumph of Pagan deities who bestow upon me their blessings! Masturbation is also a way how I manifest my hatred for the Catholic church, which is a powerful tool that helps me cope with the last remnants of Catholic guilt that once weighed down on me so much! I have replaced the crucifix with an erect penis, masturbation is my Holy Mass, ejaculation is my new baptism, and semen is now my Communion - such sweet sacrilege!
I was brought up Christian and my parents never spoke about sex; if they mentioned anything even close it was very archaic and roundabout way of doing it. Any hint of nudity or the like on TV was immediately turned off. They were into a very old-fashioned religion, church three times on Sunday, meetings during the week, that sort of thing. I had a couple of friends from an early age and we used to slip into the church toilets and show cocks or wank off. As a result I hated the church - they only ever wanted money, money and more money - and felt like I was getting back at it by being dirty. Now that I'm older I see how hypocritical the church was and still is, and even the ministers were having affairs or preying on the children.
What the church has to say about masturbation has always been ridiculous. They should keep to their churches and stay out of bedrooms.
Some of the most fun jackoff partners I had were the two sons of a Mormon bishop who would sneak off and beat meat with me on a Sunday. I have never been Mormon but would join them at their church sometimes to cum with them. They REALLY got into it and we all had powerful orgasms!
Living a sexless, frustrated life, I think it's a sin not to relieve the frustration, despite what others say.
Yes…Christian, but my Christian wife has been denying me for years. I can’t cheat…..for several reasons….so what’s a man to do? GO INSANE? CRAZY TRAIN!
i used to feel really guilty but i started to realise that it made no sense. it was practically torture and theres no reason the lord would want that
Same here. My wife and I are Christian. I think she would rather eat dirt than have sex. We havent had sex for almost 20 years. I`m not even allowed to see her naked. I masturbate several times a week
I figured the almighty gave us the power and wizdum for self pleasure for a reason - to use it to keep sane and off the ledge... Not doing it would be like having a given talent, like art or medicine and not using it for good.
It doesn't, actually but because he spilt his seed upon the ground, everyone has interpreted that as masturbation being a sin... and that wasn't Onan's sin. In short, he didn't do what he was supposed to do: Get his brother's wife pregnant, he wasn't feeling it, and it cost him his life when he angered God/Yahweh.
I think most priests would love to help you out and the choir boy all the same time. I think, most religious, so called leaders are all hippocrites and paedophiles anyway. Just looking ar the NEWS, here in the UK. RELIGION, is the biggest problem we face on the planet.
I was born and brought up Christian but I remember having a play in the church toilets and not even closing the cubicle door lol
The religion I belong to has changed it's tune. When I was a kid, it was a strong "Thou Shalt NOT!" (Didn't stop me! I just felt guilty about it!) But they have now gone silent on the issue, and have been for a long time.