Journal #36, June 19: my latest cravings to submit to another man

Last night I had a dream about being in bondage by a guy. The dream wasn't very clear but I kind of remember the chains around my wrists. I also remember I enjoyed the dream!

So lately I'm really craving submitting myself sexually to another man. The thought of stripping of all of my clothes and having him impose his will on me and do things to me really excites me! The hot weather we've been having lately makes me horny and just adds to this craving.

In a heteronormative society it's not masculine for a guy to want to be owned by another man. It's like an extreme act of homosexuality. But I'm embracing this desire. I want it so bad! And I'm more than willing to reject what I've been taught about what I have to be. While we're behind closed doors it's me and my Master and that's all that matters.

I've put up ads in a few subreddits and a few more places, including here. I've already had an online session with someone who made me send pics in various poses. He made me call him Master. It was hot. I hope it leads to meetings in person too.