Okay...well I've been in love with my friend for just under two years now. He's been the only thing on my mind...I haven't been able to sleep or anything. All I wanted was him. One week ago we were outside his house and he kissed me. It was very quick...very respectful. I was really happy. I ran all the way home. Since then he and I have been seeing eachother secretly. All was going fine untill things started to get a little more detailed. He started using his tongue...squeezing me in places...that sort of thing. I would be fine with it but because he's my friend it feels so weird. I don't think he senses a problem but I do! It feels really awkward. Suddenly I find myself wanting to get out. But I don't want to lose him either...I still love him. It's just...I've only ever seen these scenes between us in my dreams, I'm not used to them in real life! Also...do you think I'm a little young for this sort of thing? I'm not sure...I'm only 14. Since this has been going on I've been feeling worse and worse about myself. I've been crying myself to sleep at night. I also don't feel comfy lying to my friends but he keeps insiting that we have to keep it a secret from them. Am I crazy? Do I only want what I can't have? Please, please, please help. I don't know what to do. Thankyou so much. Peace and love to all.