I'm Some Sort Of Fucked

wtfk and everyone else who is feeling this way, sorry to hear about this.

it's good that you are trying therapy and have found a therapist who is good.

this thread has some helpful info
http://www.hipforums.com/forum/topic/458019-treating-depression-and-anxiety/

meds are a good option for some people. my personal opinion is that if you can get better with therapy, dietary changes, meditation, exercise, acupuncture/chinese medicine, and changing your relationships/life situation, that is much better.

there seems to be a lot of turmoil in the lives of young people especially today, and also in general. you're certainly not alone

 

Thank you! honestly, pussy does help haha

 

Thank you very much!

I really appreciate everyone's help.

 

Generally start the day with scrambled eggs, lunch is usually a sandwich since i'm generally at work, and dinner is usually meat and some sort of vegetables.
Fruit thrown in throughout the day for snacks.
I occasionally eat processed frozen meals and shit food, but it's not a part of my regular diet.

 

I agree. Smoking (etc) does help some people, but others it can induce unwanted feelings of anxiety, panic, self-doubt etc etc. The so-called schitzophrenia/psychosis effect. It takes a while to get your mind back to an efficiently working state again as well depending on your habits.

It might not be the "healthiest" of options lol, but I more or less brainwash myself into thinking a certain way or doing certain things. Along with dietary and lifestyle changes. I don't know how I do it, in the state of being I'm in, but somehow or another I continue to stay optimistic and hopeful about what tomorrow will bring. I've started drinking tea, taking multivitamin chewables in the morning and oilpulling with sunflower oil. (I was using olive oil because it's all that I had and I had horrible tooth pain at night, but omg... olive oil is horrid! Cooking with it is one thing, but taking a spoonful straight and swishing it around for 20 minutes at a time... :ack2: )

You'll get to where you need to be eventually. The mind, like life, has a way of figuring things out on it's own most times. Just stay hopeful, set certain goals for yourself. Meditate on things. Just Sitting and Breathing Meditation is wonderfully therapeutic in my opinion. Especially when accompanied by certain sensory elements like the smell of candles or oil diffusers, etc. Even having wet hair can change your thought process in a way?

Another thing is confidence. It's a tricky concept to enstill in the mind, but even without being financially stable and having certain needs met, it is possible. (Another thing I brainwash myself into. An artificial feeling of confidence...) Maybe not the best advice, but it seems to be working for me. I hope you fare well on your journey to find what you're looking for. Keep the faith man, the answers you seek may be just around the corner.

 

You're so right, travel would help and I know it. It isn't possible for me to travel at the moment though, i'd like to travel for a whole year or more sometime in the future though. Travel is wonderful, i've been to other countries which are worse off, and yes people are worse off, but that doesn't make me any less depressed ha.
And I actually don't smoke bud anymore. One of the best things I ever did was quitting pot, it really just wasn't for me.

 

You're so right about confidence. Every once in a while i'll really like how I dressed myself that day, and I look in the mirror and I'm just like "I'm actually a pretty damn good looking motherfucker" and those days are always better haha.

 

Hahaha. No. No one has it harder than anyone else. It's all the perspective that changes it

 

Words to live by.

 

ok i jusf want to say fuk u to the dude who posted about pussy..i feel like totall shit depressed and well im a girl so finding pussy is alittle bit harder for me around here than a guy..yea im sure.pussy would solve my problems but its also the main cause of.my problems..i hate that im a lonely lesbian..so yea..fuk u and fuk all dudes who live the perfect fukin life of marrying a great girl and bitch about how much of.a bitch she is..id give anything to take care of a "bitch" as long as im getting SUM affection from a beautiful girl..

 

I can't stand people like that either. Sadly enough though, I've seen relationships like that last a looooooong time. No matter how much you try to convince a girl she deserves better.

 

Society takes a piece of us all as how much of a jungle it is. It very depressing.. if you let it get to you, cause its the time we live in that we didn't get to choose... we not asked to be born in what ever year someone in ya know..

Yea.. sounds like questioning your life because no matter what we do we still dead in the end...

Yep it sucks. So we are thrown into life's game and lets play it!

Why not?

Block out that shit, serious, just say fuck you leave me alone and turn up a song as much as you can. It's hard though.. and it doesn't get easier. So do something that you enjoy and money will follow.... You gotta love what you do cause that outlasts a quick fix into quitting.


If you can get a bicycle of some kind do it.

 

Sorry you are feeling so at odds. It's rough. For anyone who is feeling down, out of sorts, isolated, alone, rejected, whatever. It sucks. I've been there, and I still go there at times. None of us are alone in our struggles, but it sure feels like it at times.

OP, it is good that you are getting therapy from someone you are comfortable with. A good therapist is a treasure, and I do hope they are able to help you find effective coping strategies, and perhaps find your way on a less rocky path through life.

Sure, getting laid helps. It's a temporary fix, to an often not temporary issue though. For people not in committed relationships, it can actually increase the depression, anxiety, etc. I am married, and have been in a relationship for over 16 years, so sure I have the 'benefit' of dick on demand. Still, it's a temporary fix, for a not temporary issue. The depression, and other feelings come back. I have also been single, and used sex as a quick pick me up. The damage done by a few crappy relationships was more damaging than getting laid was worth. So, as beneficial as sex may be, there are times when it just isn't worth it.

The one thing that does help me consistently are my animals. If I need to talk, they always listen. They don't give crappy advice, or judge. They also put me in contact with people, get me out of the house, force me to function on the days I would rather not, and so on. Unlike a piece of ass, my dog won't reject me, or make me feel used or cheap if the belly rubs weren't good enough. Sarcasm aside, pets, or even animals in general, are incredibly beneficial for mental and physical health. My 'therapist' weighs in at over 1200 lbs, and is the best thing I ever did for myself. Having my horse has improved my life dramatically.

Travel is also good, but can be hard to do if you lack the funding. If you cannot go somewhere far away, at least get out of the house and visit things in your local area that you find interesting. If you like animals, go to the zoo, wildlife rehab facility (great place to volunteer and meet people, if that is something that interests you), or whatever is an option in your area. If you like music, try to find venues to listen to live bands, or clubs if you like to dance. Many colleges, parks, community centers (whatever is in your area) offer free or low cost 'classes' or group activities. The options are wide ranging IF you seek them out. There are usually a lot of cheap options for entertainment available, but it may take some research to find them. If you live in a remote area, try to find things you enjoy doing like bike riding, hiking, bird-watching, whatever. The point is to get out of the house and do things you enjoy.

Diet and exercise are also important. So is enjoying a big piece of chocolate cake, or whatever 'treat; you enjoy once in a while. Don't get so caught up in being healthy that you miss out of some of life's sinfully delicious food. I eat healthy (my husband is diabetic, so we eat very healthy so his diabetes can be controlled without medication), but some days indulging in a decadent treat is just what I needed.

Just a few things that have helped me over the years....not to be too long-winded.

I do hope that things get better, not just for the OP, but for anyone who is struggling, or having a rough time.

 

Most people are commenting on this thread are saying they also feel alone and at odds and to be an outcast.

Let's all take a minute to think about that.

The problem here is extreme thinking. You will feel alone and at odds with alot of people in your life, but I refuse to think you feel that way about EVERYONE and EVERYTHING in your life.

Don't forget: it's the wolf you feed that wins. Try to go against your instinct and feed the wolf that is grateful, mindful, and loving. Try to let the wolf that tells you to feel alone and sorry for yourself starve for a while, you might be surprised with the results. This takes a conscient effort in the beginning. Do the work.

 

I agree Shivaya:

Your post reminds me of this parable:

"An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.
“It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.” He continued, “The other is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”
The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”"