well, i talk to my girlfriend, but she has problems of her own that i don't wanna have errupt because i touch on a sensitive topic. i just don't know how to explain what is wrong, and i have really nobody to tell. its the life of someone who has been stripped of every emotion as a public schooler. since then, i haven't opened up, and probably won't because i'd much rather suffer then have that happen again... oooh that sucked and i hate talking about it. there's people that have it worse than me, so i guess i shouldn't even say anything. but maybe the people that have it worse, have never had much better, so they find their life fulfilling. but the one person i will dare talk to, can't listen right now.
well on the topic i absolutely hate to talk or think about so i don't, i lost a lot when i was only in grade 6. i just will not open up, i can't. if i do, maybe it'd all happen again. my friends are good enough that they would listen, and i would listen to them, but i am not gonna talk to them. i just wish my girlfriend had time right now. she is going camping today, and she has her own big problems that i listen to, but i really do not have time to tell her mine, cause they lead back to hers.
i feel dumb cause this is my 3rd post in a row... but i have finally reached the mood of not caring. it's a great mood, not caring what happens or why, just living, ignoring, and having a good time. i still don't know what to do about my girlfriend though... what a puzzle.
why dont you just trying talking again ive finaly disided to say fuck it and now i got something to say ill say it,youd be surprised how many people unserstand how you feel and if you girlfriend wont listen to you then i have no idea why she is your girlfriend
that statement is valid. its funny how i am bored right now, bored even though i have life... hmmm...
man i all of a sudden just turn my moods right around... i am happy right now... still pointless, but happy there is no weight on my shoulders. yay. all this talking on here makes me feel better.
whats the point in pointing out that life is pontless? point point point poke poke poke runs away laffin hystrericaly
