I'm Nervous About Summer (Pointless)

snort meth

 

if idiots or assholes had wings, the world would be an airport hahah

 

don't lie to the doctor you only gena make it harder for him to find and fix was wrong with you and he ant a robot he will understand that at your age drugs are fun to try out.for the sumer well nothing works beater then a new girlfriend if that is not working out, start fishing .-)

 

coke

 

Alright, I was trying to avoid the specifics, but here goes:
I ingested the Morning Glories, and smoked the weed that night, and that's the night my eyes officially got weird. I pretty much panicked when I noticed they were being funky, and had decided that I had smoked laced weed, because like many other LSA (Morning glory) experiences, I was simply having an out of body experience, I believed at THAT time, that it was my literal soul leaving my body at death, because I was no longer feeling my body, so basically, I thought I was dying... I wrote a ton of shit down on paper, so everyone would know what happened, every single thing that would help a doctor or whatever, then I wrote to everyone else...
I really was accepting death, because at the time, it seemed very peaceful and whatnot.
I give up my writings at 6am and lay down to my "last position" I fall asleep I guess, and wake up to my mother kind of mad at me... but nervous, She yelled and all that, but I told her I smoked laced weed and I may need to go to the hospital. The next day, I was still feeling bad so we went... they drew blood and did tests on stuff and found nothing really. But my eyes haven't stopped being funny... Its really an IMPOSSIBLE feeling to explain. You guys WILL NOT know what I'm feeling by describing, I simply can't put it in words, and you can't understand the feeling. But most of my awareness of my body is now in my eyes. When I roll my eyes up, my eyelids no longer flicker like everyone elses.... I FINALLY found out thats due to Oculomotor nerve, and its strngly related to strabismus... which is what I wear glasses for all my life...

I'm just going to sit this summer out from any kind of "chemicals and plants" because I have a yearly checkup in July, and she'll catch it then, and if not... then I'll being it up. I will tell her I just awoke one day and it felt weird (Its a woman doctor) and she'll be fine. I'll just be a little hesitant to explain, because she's been my doctor since I was 1 and we had a really good "relationship" and its just weird to all the sudden blind side her with the fact that I have done drugs after all the years of being this miraculous child who is excellent in everything.

but it'll be brought up in July for sure. but I'm too prideful to let my mom have the boost of confidence that drugs actually made my eyes funny... Even though I am absolutely positive its not the drugs itself, but my own eye history, it still was the catalyst for a problem that was bound to happen later in life.

Thanks for all your responses.

Getting a job is out, I already have a shitty part time job which takes away from getting another one. My mother will not let me quit because its my first job. But its beasically like... they have One hundred 16 year olds on a list, and they call us randomly whenever they think they need us (I do work for the Texas Rangers during games) Mt mother doesn't know that's how they operate and refuses to let me quit just because its not convenient... but it does halter me from actually being able to make plans for anything


I a rambler

 

you have a hard time disappointing people your doc your mom just let it go relax man and am sure the sumer will turn out great for you.