Im honestly.

I disagree, i think people just slap the label depression on peoples moods far too quickly now days.

 

You're really evil.

 

I haven't, I tried to imagine. I've felt down plenty of times but I guess I haven't let it take hold of me.

I realize now why you thought the Palin joke went overboard back there, I apologize.

 

Not really your fault. I just called it like i saw it but i can admit my vision may be skewed.

 

Well I'm sorry that this still bothers you.

Beyond offering an emotional wringer for people who might have a level of concern for you to subject themselves to I begin to wonder exactly what can be constructively achieved by this discussion? I see a wealth of suggestions being shot down so if you're bound and determined to spend the remainder of your life being burdened by this then that's your prerogative. I guess it boils down to the fact that you are not going to be past this until you're good and ready. Hanging on to it after all these years suggests that you may have gotten very good at pointedly not getting past it.

 

now its obvious to me your having a pity party..

have a nice life wallowing in your own self pity.. be sure and keep yourself isolated from others no one deserves dealing with that kind of bullshit..

 

I was raped, i almost had my penis chopped off, i watched the girl i love exchange phone numbers with the guys who were beating me up so she could fuck him later while cars were driving pass and enjoy the show (me being beaten up)... while at the same time having to deal with her suicidal tendencies as well as my best friend... that was fun

My bones are tearing my body apart, i have a very rare bone disease that i have to spell to the doctors known as "Osteo-condromis". My father lives in the same city as me and has only visited me twice in 22 years.

I can make friends but i dont feel close to others, i cant recognize faces and have to deal with awkward social situation which otherwise could be pleasurable.

So give me advice on how to be not all fucked up inside, thats fine but dont give me this judgemental attitude like im suppose feel bad for letting it affect me, i am human and i need to be loved... just like anyone else.

 

Hey man i wouldnt dare suggest that people dont deserve to deal with your bullshit, this whole threads one big fucking pitty party, it is kind of the nature of depression, but your the expert.

P.S.

Actually if what i said about depression being a label that is thrown around caused that reaction out of all the things i've said... you're really messed up.

For everyone else, im not digging for solutions, i am sharing because it seems some of you are interested in trying to understand, if you dont care, i dont blame you, just dont be a hippiehill.. i mean ass...

 

im more of a expert than you would ever imagine..

should we all make lists to have a pissing contest to see who was most traumatized in their lives??

i gotta feeling youd still discount everyone and believe that yours is a special case somehow..

 

No hippiehillbilly, im just one fucked up guy having a rant in a way that i know is safe and wont hurt anyone. Now instead of being defensive you could share but i dont need you to make me feel bad about myself... so leave your guns at the door or please just dont come in.

P.S.
If you want to share fine, i just dont want any of this "i haven't smoked a bong in a week im so depressed" bullshit that is thrown around now days...

 

wait a minute..

I had an abusive alcoholic father who beat me till I finally ran away from home at age 15 and lived on the streets till I got in the Army at 17 then..
I shot a TOW missle at an iraqi armored personel carrier after 6 iraqis ran inside destroying it. Thus, killing 6 human beings.
Are we comparing here?

 

There has been plenty of excellent advice already offered and you've made it your point to shoot it all down.

 

Oh my god, how many times do we have to dance around this little circle? i give up. I like you Stinkfoot so i am just going to say what you want hear and let this thread die.

I will go out and make friends tomorrow, making sure i get some quality exercise and some good sunlight, i will eat well and drink plenty of water, i will read a book. All is well with the universe.

 

God i hope not, im already depressed enough with out some sort of "life sucks" pissing contest.

 

Oh, if this thread is still of any interest to you. Maybe you could mention how much you know about the dark void because your partner has been hurt real bad.

Honestly, for an expert you are very cruel.

 

thats all?? damn youve had a easy life..

 

odon has a partner?? wow learn something new everyday..

 

I doubt its true anyway.

 

I do believe it was directed to you