but I'm also afraid of babies... so I've been trying to decide whether or not to go on it. There's no way i would be able to remember to take a pill either, so i guess my option is the patch. i've heard nasty nasty things about the patch and it kind of scares me. I've heard things like blood clots and rediculous weight gain and the part i'm most concerned about - depression. a few years ago and doctor tried to give me anti-depressants and i refused. i'm ok for the most part, but if something sets me off i'm pretty prone to going completely crazy or crying in bed for about 5 days straight. neither of which is a pleasant time.is birth control going to make me worse? Am i just going to be depressed and flip out at everyone for a month straight?