I want to tell you that...

what is wrong with me baby?

 

I love you so much your my everything

 

Love comes again!

 

...what you're doing is fucked up and its ruining what i have for you, you let me down when i never did that to you, i grow smaller every day for the way you treat me, you think its a piece of cake but it isnt, in 5 years you'll be in misery, sober my ass, think about what you're doing before you ruin your life even more, dont deny it cause you will

 

to you: words cant express what i feel about him. i am sorry if i hurt you when i talk about him. your my best friend and i want nothing to separate us.

to him: i think i am falling in love with you but i am scared of getting my heart broken because i thought you were something that your not. your amazing. but it really annoys me when you fuck around with me. dont play games. i am not a fucking toy. i may be beautiful but i aint no whore.

 

hey beautiful boy. sometimes is so hard to find the right words to tell you how much i really care about you. you are the closest person to me ever. you gave me so much, you showed me so much, told me so much. you are my teacher in this cold, harsh desert world out there. i trust you more than i trust myself and i have no regrets. im so sorry that sometimes im acting so childish and bitcy at the same time. Sometimes i think i dont deserve you. You are so much better than i am, in every possible way. You give me confidence, positiveness, safety, security. I know nothing bad can hapen to me when you are close to me.I really mean it when i tell you , you`r the one , the only one for me to love. I want to give you my soul, i want to give you my life. Its such a wonderful feeling when you share with me your secrets, your ambitions, your dreams. its so wonderful when you tell me you want to spend your life with me, coz i want to sped my life with you too. I really, really need you to survive. You are needed to give me reson to live. I cant wait the day when we are going to have our own place and then our own babies.I dont want to imagine what would it be like if i didnt met you and i dont ever want to lose you, coz you are the only one i have. I belong to you, to make you happy (and sometimes to torture you a llittle ). I want to stay in your arms forever. I dont want you to stop hugging me ever, coz you are the source of my happiness, the kernel of my beaing.

 

i can't believe how much i miss you. i wish i was rich so i could come all the way over there just to see you smile again.

 

I take it all back..... :sniff1:

 

i am getting over you. it feels sad as fall is taking over,everything fades.
i know i'll always love you,i miss you and i try not to think about it.we both know that it's the right thing to do,i know you're confused about a lot of things and i would like to help u out, but not this time.
i tried to change u,u tried too,it didnt really matter we stayed the same.fights and arguments,it's all gone, it feels like silence is taking over. and i call and these conversations seem to be so cold..

there's too much shit..i cant write it all down..

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aww this is such a sweet thread.

I would tell him: I love you with every last bit of my heart. I can't wait to see you again tomorrow morning, although its far to long to wait. when i'm with you everything else disapears, you're my best friend and my soul mate, you mean the world to me and no-one could ever love you more than i do. and i will always beat you at the who loves who more game! you hurt me once but i trust you never to do it again, one day we will be together properly, until then i look forward to the moments we spend together. i truely adore you. and it helps you are the best kisser in the world, now giz us a snog!

 

I am very proud that you are going to be the mother of my child. I am sure that our child will be very beautiful if it looks like its mother.

We will be together again soon, no matter what it takes. I will never give up until we are resting safely in each other's arms again. You are my best friend, my soulmate, my companion, and my one, true love. We were meant to be together, and we will be forever!

 

you rock! until i have somebody for you to jump on, you're #1!

 

Oh, lilla kära, it never used to be so hard like this. We have been miles and miles apart ever since we first met, but it has never made us distant before. Weeks have gone by before when I haven't heard from you, but it never used to hurt me. We used to be able to talk about the future, and share with each other when we were afraid or struggling. We met in the darkest times either of us has known. And now everyday life has driven us further apart than any adversity did.

I always watch my email box and phone for you, in vain I know because you don't have the time or energy or will. And I know I must respect it as I always have, but I'm starting to wear myself out and can't even tell you. Do you know how the depression returned lately, worse than usual? Autumn always was a bad season for me, because that's when it began and then ended in autumn a year later. For the past two weeks I have risen every day with no energy, no emotion, no will to live. You are years ahead of me and so sure in your path. I feel my future dying around me; with every step in the applications process I should be working on, my apathy only grows. Why, why should I go to college when I won't be able to find a job once I graduate?

But how can I tell you that you planted that fear in me; there's no way I could be so selfish. It is for you alone that I never share my problems, even though I know it's killing us. I can't even tell you the way I think I'm pushing you away to save you, that I think I'm trying to make you distant so that when you want to break up, or when I finally get around to killing myself, that you won't be hurt by it because I've tried to make you stop caring.

Nothing's coming out right. It doesn't matter because I can't send you this. Even if I did I don't think I'd ever get a reply, because you've learned to not reply to the messages when I need your comfort the most. Because you can't stand to hear me talk that way. So I've learned to stop sending them at all. And it becomes so that we may as well not even exist for one another, we're so far apart now.

And I can't tell you! I beg you, rely on your instincts and realize we are slowly dying... come back to me before you forget my name.

 

I wish you loved me the same way you used to.. you don't know this, but the way you're acting is eating me up emotionally and physically. I just want to feel like you enjoy having me in your arms.. it's hard feeling this way about you when I now know you don't feel this way about me. I love you.

 

Thank you. Thank you for dealing with my foolishness. Thank you for being there through thick and thin. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. Thank you for changing my life. You are the most wonderful person. You are my best friend, my lover, and my caretaker. We've been through hell and back, and I just want to thank you for being the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. I love you.

 

The things you have said to me in the past month have hurt me deeply. I'm not sure these wounds can heal, I am falling out of love with you really fast. I know I'll be fine without you. How could you let this happen when I'm trying so hard to make things work?

 

To Greg
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My adorable, yet annoying, opionionated, yet caring, pretentious asshole-
We spent 7 amazing months together- more, if you count us being great friends before, and now, after. The first time I laid eyes on you the only thing I could think of was "Why in the hell is that kid wearing a chicken hat?"
And it's been the same ever since.
I've never met anyone I could relate to better than you- there are things that only we understand about one another, and no matter how much it bothers me when you bite your nails, or make a snide comment, I wouldn't change anything about you.
People wonder why I put up with your antics. Sometimes I even wonder why.
There hasn't been a day when someone- even my own mother, has asked me why I like you so much.
And I can't answer that question, because I still don't know.
There's something about you that has been growing in my heart ever since we went to see 300 for our first "date".
It was refreshing to not have a guy that I was dating not to throw themselves at me- you didn't even kiss me goodnight after the first date because you wanted to see how our relationship would grow over the coming weeks.
You wanted to be absolutely sure-
and so did I.

And so I am.

I haven't told you how I feel, and I don't think now I will ever get the chance.
but I want you to know-
I love you.
I have never loved anyone before- and I couldn't see a life without you-
but I want you to be happy.

You say that the last thing you want to do is hurt me- and I say that I want you to be happy- but then you come back with "What if me being happy makes you sad- then I won't ever be happy."

you say you don't want to lose me.
I don't want to lose you.

But the past month has torn me up inside, with scars that will not heal fully.
We are so confused- with you liking Kristy, and me having a schoolgirl crush on Matt-

Its just hard to see what road to take. They are both twisted and dark right now.
one will work, and one wont. and theres only one way to find out, i suppose. But which way.
You say that you carve your own path-but sometimes the roads laid out for us are the best ones to follow.
At least start out on one already there. Then if theres a roadblock, cut around it, or go back and try the other one.

You're still carving your own path-

just with guidance.


If you ever read this- (and I doubt you would ever find it on here ^__^)
This is how I feel.

As this is coming from a woman's heart, there is much more to say, but the written and spoken language would never do it justice.

I love you.

I wish you felt the same way again.
If you ever did.

~Julie

 

I can't take anymore of this bullshit. You call me indecisive, but you're the one who doesn't know what you want. I've offered you everything from a relationship to a friendship to a fuck-buddy situation, and all you want is to complain about how it's never enough. Well, screw it. I can't do this anymore. I've done it too much in the past, and I won't hold onto something I know could never be. You're my best friend and I don't want to lose you, but you play too many games. And you're never straight with me.

Fuck it.

 

What can I say to you? How can I make you remember me?

Trying to talk to you is like skipping stones into a pond, hoping one day the pond will throw a stone back.

But there's nothing to do except pick another one up...

 

I hate you.. You've changed, and quite frankly, I doubt that any feeling is left for this new person that I've grown to hate so much. I fell in love with the old you, and am still partly in love with that person. But this new person is so ugly, I am sick to even think about how you are now. It hurts me on the inside how such a beautiful person could be changed so drastically. The world lost an amazingly genuine kind hearted person when you changed. I hope the old you will visit me and show me that there is still something left to love in you.