I want to. I really do

I would be disgusted to have the blood of an enemy on my hands. I only want to "hurt" the ones I love. By "hurt" I mean eat them, so that their matter can become a part of my living energy forever...if you can call that "hurting" them. I don't really think so.

 

I've been inside a few woman over the years and it's nice to be in them when I'm in them.. it has been a while since, and as each lifetime passes so does the past and certain weeds and undesirables as I gain more insight into myself and my needs.
We gather, we seperate, we reap we sow we weave we sew, and some things I let go of, other things I keep.

I like err umm ... I thoroughly enjoy being inside them when they care and are a good fit for me. I know my needs as an individual. Some call me needy and I'll agree. Just like two holes in one when it comes to golf are better than one, two cookies are better than one, but then 8 are better than two, so I don't mind so much. I like it when a good plan comes together ... You know?

 

You've never been eaten by a woman, though. What I would really like to do is surgically attach other people to my body.

 

Let's go bowling.

 

well i don't, because at the end of the day, having done so is entirely superfluous.
the other thing of course, is unless their all dead, the entire species, you're in big trouble and will never be able to stop running.
and i don't like running.

but i do understand anger. i sure experience it. when i see people indifferent to making life more difficult to someone else, usually by hating logic and making excuses for doing so,
and if it isn't logic or only logic that they're hating, its consideration and the universality of consideration, without which there is only tyranny and heaven becomes just another name for hell.
hating honesty because they somehow believe they benefit from a world of ignorance, or hating imagination because they somehow believe they're placating or even amusing some great powerful things that someone told them about, that it wishes to be feared and for them to follow some cook book recipe that will make however much harm they cause in the process, somehow all better.

and it really doesn't matter what brand name flavors they use to make these excuses either.
but again, making them suffer, doesn't really undo the pain they cause.
only disconnecting them from the means of causing it can do that.

 

I literally teared up this morning when on Yahoo news, I saw a story about a little boy who has dwarfism being bullied by his classmates! The look of his broken little heart just tore me up. He wanted a knife so he could kill himself! Fuckfuckfuckfuck----

 

sometimes i like to punish my dick.

 

Do you want to say why you want to hurt these people? Maybe there's a better way to resolve the problems than violence. Even just being angry a lot is not good for you, so maybe there's a better way?

 

what i want is not to see the suffering earned by those who cause it, but for them to simply not be.
i don't mean their death either. i mean for them to have not been born, and the life experiences that formed them, to have not been the same as to have done so.

the world i want does not require anyone's pain, but the freedom to create, not being curtailed by those who know only to live in ways that cause it.

the job of kharma is not mine, even if sometimes it looks like it needs a bit of a hand.

i'm not suggesting anyone who knowingly and willingly causes needless harm and suffering ever be given a free ride,
but rather to avoid becoming so obsessed with their doing so, as to unwittingly become, yet one more of the same.

and in my observation of life, and its current conditions, that is by far the greater danger.
it is even where more then half of them come from.

that IS something to think about. we need to take nothing for granted in our own behavior, if we want to live in a world that is not a universally mutual tyranny.

 

Hello again Hash,

I enjoy threads of your's.

You know that the kind of person you are describing wants you to hurt people too. As long as it's not them of course. Is that kind of person a real person? I think that it is a degenerate animal. A throw back from a time where life depended on certain abusive hormones to attack it's prey and survive. As I said before... A modern man is a real man and any other man is history.

 

i like this except its unfair to non-humans, most of whom are also better then that.

 

I think that's definitely the case. They bait ... So to speak. I understand that, which is why I don't hurt people. I do what I can to avoid conflict. Things get twisted up, and it seems like they want us under pressure, and on edge in hope we umm ... Fuck up so they have a reason to retaliate one way or another.

I was once accused if stealing a few sugar packets after I told a police officer standing next to me that I was grabbing a few sugar packets. As I'm walking out the door, I hear a lady scream " he just stole a bunch of sugar packets".

I kept walking. People are crazy.

 

People that hurt innocent children, women and animals need your attention.

 

Horrible really horrible. Poor little boy.

 

I don't hurt people. I just want to sometimes. If defending someone is nesessary, someone I truly care about, I'll get explosive. So much so that I need to change my drawers. It gets projectile too. Then I just chase them like a monkey slinging stuff at them. It seems to work well enough.

Umm,. I'm a powder keg waiting to explode, so yeah ... I get angry sometimes and want to hurt people but I don't. I just want to. I mean really want to sometimes, but I don't. I rarely get explosive being I'm solo most the time, and have no one to defend, so I just get angry.

You believe me right?

 

I mean have you ever gotten so angry you just can't can't hold it in?

 

I've picked up ashtrays and bottles and other items too. I don't have a knife which is probably a good thing. I only get angry when after a few days or months and sometimes year's if holding shit in and tolerating stupid people and I mean really stupid people that I get explosive or ... When it comes to only a couple people in my life. It doesn't take much then.

 

Anyway, I saw a nice picture today of a beautiful woman surrounded by watermelon halves. The shade of pink and tone of skin sexier than I would have imagined, being surrounded by watermelons. Very beautiful. I like thinking about pleading things and people and what I find pure and good. It helps me more than you think.