I've totally got my hands full with Noah, and we do alright with the money I'm making, but for some reason I've been wanting another baby so much the past couple of weeks! I don't know what's wrong with me! Maybe I just want to be pregnant again and feel him kicking, or maybe I just want to kill myself with stress and exhaustion... Anyway, my boyfriend of over a year and I just broke up a couple days ago (I never said anything about the baby thing), so it won't happen for a while. Unless it happens like it did last time. I'm sure it won't. I don't know if I'm going crazy or not. I know I couldn't take care of two by myself, and I'd hate for the same thing to happen to the second baby that happened with Noah's father (fucking bastard).....I have a million reasons not to want one, buy I still want another so much!!! Someone slap me!