I smoked crack last night

Well I guess I got beat shit then... it was no big deal, really. Sure I did feel like I was raising above the ground, but... it was the same light bulb lighting up in my head, like coke... just... more intense... and also less intense... it was good but I don't see the big deal... like... there are way better drugs to do imo like Salvia... but that's just me and my personal taste... I could never be addicted to a drug... they're only fun when you hardly ever do them, otherwise... it just becomes like... your favorite cd you know by heart... and don't appreciate anymore... uppers aren't really my thing anyway... drugs aren't really my thing...

 

if you dont like how people respond to your posts, then dont post about it..... I think everyone can agree with me here that your relationship with nick is NOT a healthy one.

 

I smoked crack twice and never have wanted to do it again

I mean, it is bad, but its way distorted by the media etc

I did it the first time because I was out with a bunch of grad school wankers who were annoying me, so I went outside, a guy asked me if I wanted to smoke crack in the alley, so I did....

thats right, I'm a fucking bad ass

I can see why people get annoyed with pennys posts, but to tell you the truth, some of yours get on my nerves too MadC. I think you are a good guy, but you don't seem to have a lot of life experiences that qualify you to make relavent comments on something like this

 

You guys can say whatever you wanna say... it doesn't bother me, you're free... but if you're wrong I can say it too... I'm not gonna stop speaking my mind

And my relationship with Nick is perfectly healthy, it's him who's unhealthy, not the relationship, not to confuse

 

ohh I guess I should smoke some crack before I make a relevant comment.

 

You can't talk about something in an incomplete fashion and expect people not to fill in the holes themselves. It's human nature. I understand where you're coming from, but at the same time we all know if you post something personal for people to read, they will use that knowledge in some fashion or another later on down the road.

 

distorted by the media is exactly what I thought... like I was expecting to see those people I was smoking with freak out, tear pieces of paper into a million tiny pieces of paper, what else I've seen on T.V? Everyone was pretty "normal" in my eyes... and when there was no more, we went home and we were fine... sure we loved it, we're not gonna deny it, but... neither Nick or I are ever gonna get addicted to that shit... Nick would be more likely to but he's in control now, he's in good hands and his real problem is with alcohol anyway, which isn't that much better than crack imo... as far as how destructive it is...

 

Instead of just writing a damning quote about someones drug problem, or realtionship, why not use an example from your own life or someone elses that you know personally?

I mean, i have never read about a single relationship you have had, a single problem you have had, so I don't give you any credibility when it comes to commenting on someone elses.

You are constantly oversimplifying things

you do something similar to that poster heat, come in swinging on other peoples lives while revealing nothing of your own

 

I know, and when I post I am entirely ready for such responses and I'm not getting mad at all, I just... take the time to reply and correct people, but it's never in a angry way, in case it seems that way... how could you really tell on the internet... I am ready every time... and you guys have every right to assume whatever but I must state the facts the way they really are. Sometimes, I don't realize it until your reactions... I don't realize I have to explain better or add details I forgot... but... I know my posts are very personal. My writing is. My Creative Writing professor commanded me to cut down on the emotions. Hey that's me though... I don't ever feel the need to write anything unless it's loaded with emotions...

 

Lemme add this: sometimes I come on these forums cause I'm bored and will just joke around and flirt and post... random stupid threads like: "what should I eat tonite". But most of the time, I use these forums as a journal, and to be honest, I don't really care for your responses, I post in a selfish manner... not even caring for readers actually. Sometimes yes. When you respond, that's okay... and if you don't get it, that's fine... I don't get mad... I just... have to tell you when you're wrong, that's all.

 

wait a minute......... he is trying to recover from alcohol and drugs, and here you two are smoking crack and going to bars for a "last drink".......... okay I see......

 

You are so right Gary.

It is possible to be critical or someone's behavior and not agree with what they are doing, but you don't have to be judgmental. There is such a thing as understanding.

 

QFE

 

Penny you need to get some addiction councelling honey.

 

Never smoked crack. Did smoke out of a crack pipe though, was weed in it, go figure. It hit really well though.

 

lol, I thought you were one of the smart ones.

 

I'll probably get bitched at for saying this but......at least it's not ice. That shit is much worse than crack.

 

I put the two on pretty equal 'retarded to do' levels, really...

 

Smoking crack one time doesn't make somebody unintelligent at all. I pride myself on having above average intelligence and I've got a gigantic list of substances I've taken; most of which were taken more than once.

Doing any drug one time isn't a big deal at all as long as you don't overdose. The key to it is keeping it at the one time. I've done coke and smoked crack. Both of which I intended to do just the one time. I was able to keep that self promise with crack.

You want to sit there and be judgemental and feel superior because you haven't done some of the things that you look down on others for, but in reality people like myself and Penny, while we have our shortcomings, will always have a much larger pool of life experience to fall back on than somebody like yourself. You have to make mistakes before you can learn from your mistakes, and I'm not afraid to make those mistakes. Appearantly your ego keeps you from seeing things the same way.

 

my husband smoked crack once... Yeah I dont think he is an idiot, but he was a cocaine addict ... spent thousands and thousands of dollars, never saw our oldest child for a year or so ....... so yeah maybe it's addictive behavior as opposed to idiotic.