I regret opening up to people

*nods* doesn't mean i don't throw a hissy fit. thankfully i have a short memory and limited emotional scope.

 

Not to mention it can be a major stress reliever. Just talking about things on a regular basis is really good preventative maintenance.

 

I really really hate my vulnerabilities.

Nobody cast a +7 snow troll, I cannot defeat it.

 

i used to bottle everything up, preten everything was perfect, that i was untouchable and unhurtable. i'm over it. i'll go ahead and fail from time to time and look like an ass quite often. but i'm free and being free means occaisionally getting hurt.

 

I really don't open up to people, I get hurt enough, let alone totally opening up.

I think it's why I have the problems that I do...

It sucks when you do trust someone and they break that trust. I've had to learn the hard way myself.

 

I know what you mean. I'm in the middle of trying all kinds of new things and I'm sure Imma bomb on some of them and look like a fool, but being yourself isn't easy or everybody would do it. Kinda bombing on one investment as we speak. No bad decisions probably means no good lessons learned. So why regret bad decisions or even worse not make them?

 

It depends on who I'm talking to, what about, and how judgmental they are. Often opening up to the wrong person just gets me a lecture, nagging or "I told you so". My solution to that is to keep my mouth shut and sit in my room alone. And be silent in the prescence of others. Then I get nagged "Why don't you ever say anything?" Sigh. No win situation. But being quiet is still the better option for me. Lesser evil.

I regret opening my mouth, IRL as well as online, at least 50% of the time, and often much more. I'm more talkative online than I am IRL, but online it seems much easier to come across the wrong way. I end up offending people where offense wasn't intended. So I end up not posting much after that. Sometimes if I've offended online, I'll just leave the thread and sometimes the forum altogether and not come back.

It doesn't help that I'm hypersenstive, and sometimes can't tell if someone's joking or not, especially online. I'm way too thinskinned.

So yeah, the more I keep quiet, the less trouble I get into.

 

I bottle everything up now. I always have. For me it is just best to not really talk to anyone. I'm getting to were I don't even see the point.

 

release and be free. theres no use waiting around sucking up to people. be your own queen and be proud of yourself. no matter what, you have strengths that others will admire. bring thing to the table and be proud.

we live in a society where everyone is worrying about how others perceive them.

why, though? it only limits those who have the most potential.

 

I don't really care if people like me or not. I just bottle up my emotions and keep people at a distance. I don't suck up - I've never been able to do that. I can't even fake nice properly.

 

well, ya. but that is still a form of inhibition. why not release and be honest with yourself?

maybe you need to find a means of expression. do you art?

 

Yes I draw.

 

Can I see?

 

Yeah, let me change my art album back over to public.

 

Just click to view my albums and you'll be able to see my drawings.

 

there ya go.

from what I can read of it, your greatest work deals with the more darker imagery. Fear of worms is great, for example. your really beautiful, btw.

is that your favorite medium of expression?

 

Yes it is. I just don't draw as much lately. I get irritated with myself because I can't capture what I want. :tongue:

 

Trust me, I know the feeling. that's the greatest struggle with expressing yourself, especially with drawing. Visual detail is so specific... so that's why I play music.

keep at it, though. engage yourself in styles that you enjoy and emulate that. after awhile, start adding your own spice to the recipe. just don't be afraid to barrow from another style. this allows you to master your tools and after you are in control of the physical aspect of creating, then you can reflect what you want from within. : )

simpler said than done, but it takes repetition and practice. just think of it this way; repetition is masturbation, so enjoy it. :tongue:

 

i regret not spending my teenage years studying how to seduce women.

so, aren't you kind of letting us know how you feel here?

 

Yes....Damn it all! :tongue: